I'm a stranger to jealousy

I took a "Are You a Jealous Person?" quiz...

this is what i got:

Jealousy? What's That?
There aren’t many people who are strangers to jealousy, and you’re one of the lucky few. Sure, you feel a pang of envy every now and then (who doesn’t?), but you’re not the kind to mope around and think your world is coming to an end just because someone has a cooler outfit or gets a better grade than you do. You know you’ve got a lot going for you, and you accept yourself for who you are—both your strengths and weaknesses. So when someone else steps into the spotlight, even if you were hoping it would be your spotlight, you can give them a big smile and feel happy for them. With such a confident, relaxed attitude, it’s no wonder you’re a great friend. Your gal pals can count on you and share their successes with you—whether guys, grades or gifts—without worrying that you’ll throw a fit or slip into I’m-better-than-you mode. Stick with your envy-free ways and you’ll always feel good about yourself…and everyone else.

p/s: well, i think it's quite accurate...haha~ jealousy is the root of all evil after money...=D

ahhh....

that was a sigh of relief =P

everything is back to normal...except that the weather these few days is really depressing...

C is finally talking to me after that 'fight'...he thinks i'm scary when i'm angry...which i am...cause usually i don't show my temper...but when i do show, people say i'm scary....oh well, what u see is what u get...so...haha

nothing much to update...so tired...i feel old...everytime when the week reaches the end, i'd feel like energy is drained from me =S

confessions

sigh...

tell me...y life has to be so cruel to me?!

it happens all the time...ok, not exactly the same thing all the time...but when it comes to having crushes on guys..it does happen all the time...

take C for instance...when i finally gave up liking him (crush), his friends planned a huge prank to play on us...during lunch last thurs...it was as if we were a couple...everyone purposely left a place for me next to him...which wasn't the worst thing that happened that day...the worst things were my friend on my left kept pushing me to knock into him...which i think was totally rude!! then the girls opposite us were snapping our pics away without my permission!!

ARGHHHH...i was stuck there...with them...all 10+ of them...laughing at me...sheesh...and that idiotic guy, C didn't do anything to stop them...u know how it felt that moment?? it felt like i was living a nightmare...everybody's pointing and laughing at me...but no one's there to save me! i nearly nearly cried...to be honest...but then i know crying because of this is sooo not worth it...and crying's never my thing...so i sucked it up and put up a brave front...

what i felt was a mixture of emotions! anger + humiliation + scared + unknown feeling
i called a few friends of mine...hoping to be more calm listening to their voices...but no one answered my call...it's either they're in class, or they're in choir practice...*sigh*

then the next day (Fri) he 'kinda' confessed to me on msn...he typed "i luv u"...=S WHAT?!? when i'm still pissed?!? please! i'm sooo over him...now he tells me that!? what a great time...i thought i saw wrongly...so i asked "huh?" and he went "nth nth nth nth" phew~

and today...i got to chat with my bestest high school friend on msn...and the guy she likes confessed to her! if only mine is also like that....=( i really hate guy issues...can't a girl have some peace?! =S

p/s: right now, i'm dreading monday to come...because that's the day i'm gonna see him again...in college...we're friends..we're cool...i've gotta remind myself this...phew~wish me luck! whoever's reading this...

i've been tagged by a bird...LOL~

-The tagged victim has to come up with 8 different points about his/her perfect lover.
-Have to mention the gender of his/her perfect lover.
-Tag eight other victims to join this game and leave a comment on their blog.
-If you are tagged the second time.There is NO need to do this again.
-Lastly, most importantly, HAVE FUN DOING IT!! ^^

1. gender : can be either male or female (i think i'm so gonna be anti-males if i meet anymore jerks) =( but before jerks, i think i want my perfect lover to be a male...
2. he must be masculine (as in not sissy), has manly features and long hair (unless he suits short hair) [in reality looks must not be too ugly...but since this is for the PERFECT lover...=P]
3. my perfect one must be able to stand up for me when i'm being bullied [experienced being bullied the day before yesterday...and...it felt like i was living a nightmare but no one was there to save me...='( ]
4. If i ever get a perfect lover, i wish he would treat me like his best friend whom he can share secrets and problems with...
5. must be sporty...haha...so that he can motivate me into exercising...and we can stay fit together =P and play at least one musical instrument...so romantic!! <3
6. doesn't agree to everything i say juz to let me win a fight...i want us to sit down and talk things out...share each other's feelings...oh, and no name-callings during fights and no mentioning about each other's mistakes long long time ago.
7. doesn't smoke!!! i almost forgot this one...i don't wanna be around someone with tobacco breath...piercings is acceptable...only on the ears...but no extreme ones...haha...preferably no tattoos...dyed hair is acceptable to me...since u can't judge someone by their looks...right?
8. mature! i nearly forgot this too...=)

i tag :

1. Sze May
2. Eva
3. anyone who's reading this
4. anyone who's reading this
5. anyone who's reading this
6. anyone who's reading this
7. anyone who's reading this
8. Choh Khai if he's reading this =S which i doubt

p/s: the 8 points mentioned about my perfect lover isn't 100% accurate....since i habe more points in mind...=)

lots of stories but feeling sleepy...

i'm the one with shoulder-length wavy hair =)

...so i'll juz blog about today...

initially i wanted to blog about that cute guy i saw in baskin robbin's last fri =P

hehe...

anyway, today i found out that guys will always b guys...

that guy in college, C...used to tell me i look pretty no mater what (sounds like bull**** and geli, i know) =S

today...my friend asked him if i should cut my hair and he suggested that i trim and STRAIGHTEN my hair!

y is everyone asking me to straighten my hair?! i mean...i love my waves ok? lol...i know they're very very ugly now...but a year later...i'll turn into a swan! LOL~

and i'm not being stubborn or whatever, i'm juz making a stand...i do not wanna meddle my hair with those chemical stuff and all...in any artificial ways available...cause i know once u straighten ur hair, u need to go for treatments and such...which is a no-no for me...besides... i love my waves! juz can't wait for my hair to grow long....

oops...anyway, and today C suggested that!? HAIR-STRAIGHTENING?!

y are people not satisfied with what they have? it's ironic, isn't it?

girls who have wavy/curly hair go to salons to straighten their hair...while those with straight hair go to salons to perm them....*sigh*

i'm juz loving myself...loving every part of me even if ppl think i should do something about it. i don't need anything like hair-straightening to love myself...or to feel confident...or to make guys look at me *pukes* (attention which i absolutely do not need!)

so...haha..here's a pic of me with my messy and wavy hair! LOL~ *winks* =)

p/s: now u know y i don't wanan pluck my eyebrows =P i love my eyebrows too...don't have the heart to even pluck it...

Happy Ending <3

awww...luckily ming dao in 'wang zi bian qing wa' had a happy ending! =')

i was dreading the ending because i thought it would be a tragic one....one that will break my heart...and make me think "y can't 2 lovers be together after going through so much?!"

but wow...it turned out to be a 'happily ever after' ending...oh my god! i'm sooooo on cloud 9! haha...=D stupid, i know...*speechless*

oh well, i'm juz happy no one died and no one had cancer...=))

holidays...

i've always had mixed feelings when it comes to holidays...

the one reason i love holidays so much is because during holidays, my memories of everything is erased from my mind...eg. school, friends (unless they ask me out and i see them during the holidays...otherwise...) etc.

holidays is the time when i figure things out...the time when i forget stuff i don't wanna remember...

another time when i forget stuff is when i go for a holiday in another country!! i totally love that feeling...i'd forget every single detail that happened in my country...it's like having a new identity...and i need to make my own memories...

oh well, i hope anyone who is reading this knows what i'm talking about...haha...

HAHA~ my friend blamed ming dao when i told her i didn't like that guy in college anymore...=D

SCREWED!

i think i totally screwed my chem paper!! ='(

y? because i didn't have enough time to finish it...

period.

MING DAO!! <3

u guys gotta watch these 2 video clips!!

have to watch the 1st, then only the 2nd ok?! =D

*screams* hehe...time to go...maths!! =S

psyched!!

i'm slacking from my studying adee...i got so sick of chem...after finishing studying chem, i totally slacked...juz started on bio...*sigh*

anyway...my bro's coming home from moscow this monday!! woohoo~ i can kacau him every day adee...hehe...and now i have a hiking partner!! =D

oops~ back to reality...i've got loads to study...but on the bright side...bio is more interesting...=P

oh...and may...i'm seriously addicted to "when it all falls apart" by The Veronicas!!

group studying?

haha...today i went to the college library to study...well, we DID study...then while having our break, we talk and laugh! honestly i haven't been laughing since i last went out with my GF...on sunday...really! at home i always felt sleepy...and lifeless...today i felt extraordinarily energetic!

i've finished studying chem...i hope i can answer any question that comes my way...started on bio already...IT and maths...2 more subjects to go! =.= i can't wait for my exams to be over!! i've got loads of plans...hehe...like going hiking and jogging with my friends!! i need some fresh air and exercise!! i think my thighs are getting bigger and bigger...no joke! i can't stand my thighs =D

a few nights ago...i dreamt that i went shopping for bikini! =S my goodness...what kinda dream is it?! is it a sign!? what does it mean?? hmmm...i even dreamt that i cut my hair twice!! everyone knows how much i love my hair...that's y i can't get myself to cut it...and i cut it! in my dream! o.O

ok ok...may...see? my entry becomes crappy when i blog without gathering my thoughts =P

i'm so blessed...

laughing at...God-knows-what...[i love candid shots though!]

sue and i...(i know, i love my hair too much to cut it, that's y...)

...with great friends who think of me even though we should be studying our butts off this study break =)

everytime i feel tired/frustrated/sleepy when studying, i'll receive forwarded sms's from friends...either jokes to wake me up or words of encouragement to motivate me...awww....

juz 2 days ago, i was gonna doze off at my study table when i got an sms from a friend [may, it's u!!] asking me not to day dream and to concentrate on my studying...=P

today i got a notification e-mail from friendster telling me i've got a new testimonial yet to be approved...yup! it's my friend...she sent me a testi wishing me good luck in our mid-year exam!

tell me now, what did i do to deserve such great friends?! <3>

p/s: what the heck am i doing here?!!? i should get my ass to my room and study! =D

shitty or not shitty...that's the question =))

yesterday was simply F****D up...

haha...that's the only word that can describe yesterday...

the more i listened to sad love songs...the heavier it rained yesterday...

and i was waiting for the rain to stop a lil so that i could go take a bath without being freezed to death in the shower...but no...so i came to blog...and when i was about to click on "Publish Post", the electricity went off! isn't that great?!

ok...today's really sunny...i'm juz blogging while waiting for my food to digest so that i can go bathe soon..=D


p/s: i juz LOVE ming dao!! <3 he juz makes my day no matter how shitty my day is =P

='(

i know...i should be studying...

anyway, i came across this music video that plays the song from a drama series...and...i found out that the ending of the drama series (the prince who turns into a frog) is not exactly a good one!

i sooo wanna cry...*sob*

王子变青蛙

well...as u can see from the title...haha...that's the title of the drama series i'm currently watching on astro AEC every night 9-10pm...i'm soooo in love with it...although it's not the BEST Drama series ever...

i simply love the leading male actor...he's soooo drop-dead gorgeous (to me la...)!!! everytime i see him on my TV screen...my heart skips a beat out of time! whoa! and i'll go all breathless~ =P

anyway, i won't be blogging for this coming 2 weeks...next week's my study break...and the week after is my exam week....so...haha...and i really really got to stop myself from fantasizing about the said actor....明道

i haven't been crazy over an actor for such a long long time...*faints* LOL =D

p/s: oh, and may, thanks for d/ling that song for me!!!! i love it so so much!! muakz!! <3

F*****G cockroach!!!

yesterday night...i was lying on my bed reading Malaysian Studies notes...with my head against the wall...suddenly i felt a heavy bug fall on my head, so i simply swept it away...thinking it was a beetle or whatever that doesn't scare me...upon curiosity, i got up to check it out...my GOODNESS!! AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH~ it was a F*****G COCKROACH!! SHIT! i quickly got the Ridsect and sprayed at it...when it fell on its back, i thought to myself that this is a great opportunity to kill it by spraying loads and loads of Ridsect on it...make it suffocate!

unfortunately...my whole room smelt of Ridsect, so i turned on my rotating fan to blow away the smell...in the meantime, i took my notes to the living room to study...and sms-ed C...while sms-ing halfway, i went back to my room to check out that FILTHY roach...SHIT! it wasn't there!! O.O i nearly wanted to sleep in the living room! i cannot sleep, imagining that filthy thing still lurking around in my room!! =S i didn't want it to crawl all over me!!

so i sprayed my entire room again, hoping to suffocate it juz in case it's still loitering in my room...haha...and so to avoid the smell, i continued sms-ing C...until he said he wanted to go to bed...and i was yawning away...it was 1:25am when we bid each other goodbye...i was too tired to bother about the roach by then...i checked under my pillow and bolsters...not there...ok...good! and i immediately fell asleep without any difficulty...i slept so soundly that i couldn't hear my handphone ringing when my friend sent me an sms at 5am in the morning! whoa!!

p/s: i think i'd better overcome the fear for cockroaches...what if my future husband's afraid of it too?! LOL~ then both of us are doomed! =D well, at least if i've overcome my fear...i can protect my husband if he's afraid of it =P haha...lucky him huh?

crazy day

today was simply crazy...

haha..come to think of it, it was insane!! (yeah yeah...i know crazy and insane have the same meaning)

anyway, today involved alot of snatching, laughing, screaming (haha...when laughing), perli-ing etc...

kinda lazy at this moment...but juz to let u know how those verbs were involved...haha

remember that guy who is matchmade to me? let's call him C...

my friend took my hp, and typed a msg saying 'i love u forever!' she showed it to me and said "i sent him this u know?" i SCREAMED! i thought she did that for REAL! O.O *sweat* then she kept laughing non-stop...only then i realised she was only kidding me! phew~

another guy friend took my hp and took C's pic and put it as my hp wallpaper! what the?! yes....i screamed again...i was traumatised!! =S it was nightmare!!

then i dunno y...ok, i'll not get into THAT topic again...

all in all...i had a good laugh today...although it was crazy!!

i'm very sure...

...that i don't like that guy who is matchmade to me...i used to THINK i like him...but not anymore...he's totally the opposite of the guy i'm looking for =P haha...i believe in fairy tales...one day my prince will come...LOL...

anyway, one less problem d now...phew~

having a malaysian studies exam next wed...sheesh...i hate studying malaysian history...haven't started studying yet...=S

nothing much to talk about here...later!

confused...=S

i'm VERY VERY confused right now...was chatting with a college friend on msn...she told me the funny things that happened during their group outing at gurney plaza today...and the guy who is matchmade to me by practically EVERYONE in college went along too...

and...i feel...kinda sad/down/unhappy/upset...dunno...i don't know how to describe how i feel...cause i AM EXTREMELY sure that i DO NOT have any feelings for him k?!

hmmm...maybe it's juz me...musn't think too much...mid-term exams coming up SOON! i'm really happy with myself today (i mean...yesterday)...i didn't have an afternoon nap! and i nearly finished all my maths exercises! hooray for me! =P

i took out my high school autograph book and read...i realised that i was a very very cheery person who enjoys laughing in school...and i think i've changed a LIL...well, maybe because the ppl in college are different from the ppl we got to know in high school...yeah, from now on, i'll find my old self back...

p/s: may...i felt totally myself the other day...=) muakz!

exposed!

lol...i was talking about my identity...

a 'friend' of mine found out i have a blog and even linked it to his!! O.O

p/s: haha...nothing much to update...later!

PISSED

*sigh* no mood to update lately....

anyway, today...i actually couldn't hide my feelings anymore...i showed my friends that i was pissed...

yeah...pissed!! pissed of what one of my friends said...i thought friends are suppose to accept u for who u are...and even though we're different, i always try to accept them as who they are...but now i know how our esl lecturer feels...no one's appreciating it!

but then again...i juz kept quiet...didn't wanna say anything in case i say the wrong thing that will ruin our relationship...it's funny how ppl take u as a joke when u're cheery and all...but once u show them that u're unhappy about something, they think u're scary...

to hell with them...now that i think about it again...i feel so pissed...i'll still keep it inside of me...no point telling anyone...

it's not that the friends i mix with are bad...in fact, they're quite nice...BUT i can NEVER NEVER share my innermost feelings with them...cause they simply cannot understand how i feel...they juz shrug my problems off like a fly...

p/s: will continue next time...can't get my thoughts straight...sheesh!

feeling bad

ok, i feel so bad for calling someone bitch....haha...so not me eh?

and of course i didn't say that in front of that person....

she got on my nerves....and i couldn't supress my anger any longer...so i whispered "bitch" into my friend's ear =P

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA....

anyway, she deserves it...i don't feel bad anymore...=D

worthless

i haven't been updating my blog for a very very very long time...it's almost dead...

the reason y i've not been updating is because too much had happened since the last time i updated...and i wasn't in a mood to blog...

now i feel so pressured by neverending assignments! i can hardly breathe...

my IT project proposal is due this fri but i haven't done it yet...

Biology Human Awareness Essay due next mon...haven't started yet...

and i have to study for this chem test on mon too...=S

suddenly i feel so lost among my friends...

meaningful presents

from the 7 dwarves...haha...nah, juz kidding!

from my GF (haha...good friend) cute huh? my star sign =P

p/s: oh...cakes...i've eaten one...forgot to take pic...the other one is still in the fridge =D

NIGHTMARE!!!!

I CANNOT BELIEVE IT!!! OH MY GOD!!

YESTERDAY I VISITED MY FRIEND'S BLOG...AND ONE OF HER PICS POSTED WAS WITH HER BF (I THINK, WELL THE GUY'S HANDS WERE AROUND HER WAIST, DUH!) AND U KNOW WHAT I DREAMT LAST NIGHT?!?!?!!?

EEEEWWWWW...IT BRINGS THE CHILL DOWN MY SPINE WHEN I EVEN THINK OF IT!! OK, HERE GOES......*deep breath*

I WAS IN CLASS...BENDING OVER DOING SOMETHING...THEN A GUY (i dunno who, don't ask) CAME AND F*****G HUGGED ME FROM BEHIND...AAAAARRRRRGGGGHHHHH!! IF THAT HAPPENED TO ME IN REAL LIFE, I'LL JUZ F*****G TURNED AROUND AND KICKED HIM IN THE GROIN!!! =S OH MY GOD...I GUESS I LIKED THAT GUY THAT'S WHY I DIDN'T KICK HIM ANYWHERE NEAR HIS GROIN...THE TEACHER GAVE ME THIS DISGUSTED LOOK...O.O

LUCKILY IT WAS ALL A DREAM!! NEXT TIME I SHALL NOT LOOK AT PICS OF PPL HUGGING OR KISSING OR WHATEVER! MY GOODNESS...WHAT A NIGHTMARE!!

i'm already 18!

oh my...time really flies...i've turned 18!!!

yesterday (5th of May a.k.a. my birthday), i went to college at 11am till 1pm......at college, my friend gave me a present - a custom-made keychain and a piece of paper, signed by 7 of my friends (prasana, yin fei, shaun, melvin, aaron, daniel and khong) and their birthday wishes written at the back...it was very meaningful =) i had been receiving birthday sms's since 12am on 5th of may...i even received an sms from a friend at 7am in the morning!

decided to postpone the movie marathon my friend and i planned to the day after...so i went home for lunch...after lunch, as usual...i felt so sleepy...so i went to have a nap...woke up before 5pm and went to college again at 5pm...

i felt like a beauty queen on parade when i walked into college...haha...as i was walking up the stairs...ppl were wishing me happy birthday...i had to thank them one by one =P so funny...then when i pushed open the door to the classroom....my other friends wished me happy birthday...swee en, chun yeong, boon han and shu xian gave me 2 slices of cake (from secret recipe! yum!) and the next thing i know was they (my friends) started to sing the happy birthday song! my goodness...i NEVER EVER experienced that sorta situation in my life...i felt so pai seh...haha...not used to being in the spotlight and all...i actually ran out the classroom =S that's so ungrateful of me =( well, u can't blame me right?! i really didn't know how to react...was extremely touched though =')

after college at 7:30pm, i had a birthday dinner together with my family and my aunt's family... at midlands court restaurant in 1-stop...whoa! the food was great! i stuffed myself sooo full i could explode...haha...nah...juz kidding =D went home and quickly put those 2 slices of cake into the fridge...i ate one of the cakes at night while watching the tv show my mom recorded (cause we went for dinner) the raspberry yogurt cheese cake was yummy!!! *hmmm*

although i had college on my birthday, but nevertheless, my birthday this year is considered the best birthday i ever had!! my friend (yes u, tst) even called all the way from jap 5 mins before my birthday ended to wish me happy birthday!! haha...really sorry ya...i didn't know what to say...i had a hoarse voice and was speechless =P really appreciate it...not forgetting...my bro called from russia before tst did...awww...

too bad i didn't take any pics...i think it's quite a waste...cause pics last forever...oh well...i still can't believe i'm 18...someone please wake me up...see that pic?! i've grown so much over the years! it feels so surreal......

pre-birthday celebration

if u think it's something grand...think again =P

well...it was juz lunch...my friends gave me a treat...at a nasi kandar stall...i'm so touched ok?! i mean, my birthday...never got treated by a friend / friends before leh...my first time...

after class at 3pm, i went to 1-stop with my friends to play some games?

i'm not really a game person...i used to be la...when i was younger...haven't been to game arcades since God-knows-when...i felt like a princess...haha...the driver (a guy friend) would keep asking me 'birthday girl, where do u wanna go??' =D i didn't wanna go to 1-stop initially, i felt like going for a movie...and go home...perfect! but in the end i decided to go la...

honestly, when i reached fun zone...oh my God...i felt so old...i didn't feel like playing...i thought the noise there was too loud...the smell of cigarette was juz overwhelming...ARGH! i even brought my school bag there...

ok, i admit it...i did enjoy myself eventually...

now

i

feel

so

shitty

u know y?? cause i was trying so hard to keep a distance from them...then today during maths, i had an 'honesty session' with N...and got to know that they sincerely wanna celebrate with me...the story about y we had an 'honesty session' is kinda long...will elaborate it one fine day...

anyway, i'm really really touched and didn't regret having lunch with them...=)

sick =(

*sigh* i'm sick....

3 days ago i woke up having difficulty swallowing my saliva...so i drank LOADS of water for the past few days, hoping to prevent myself from falling sick...unfortunately, i had a runny 2 days ago...so i thought "ok, this is another allergic thing...it'll go away real soon" but NO, yesterday my runny nose got worse...my head felt heavy by 10pm...i went to bed at 11:30pm, which is sooo early...because usually i sleep at 12am or 1am...

whoa, as i'm typing this entry, my head's pounding and i can't stop sneezing! =((

i hate having runny noses...u know y?? because i look really awful when i have a runny nose...=S
as if loud sneezing is not enough, i have to sound like a trumpet when i blow my nose! well, some ppl may ask me not to blow so loudly...but hey, how does the mucus come out if i don't blow hard enough? =P right?! anyway, i'm not sure if it's stress or health problems...tonnes of pimples are appearing on my face =S (according to experts, pimples appear on ur face when some certain organs are not functioning well)

oh yeah, i'm sick...so i gotta sleep early today as well...goodbye.

something to cheer myself up =D

this pic was taken unintentionally!

see how happy we were in that pic? i still remember...a whole bunch of us people purposely went to McD's to snap pics!! we were laughing so loudly...like nobody was watching...that was 2 years ago...now we can hardly meet up because of our tight schedules...

i don't wanna grow up yet!! may...i know u'll say u look stupid in that pic =P we all do...don't worry...hehe~

gloomy monday

the sky is so dark outside, i think it's gonna rain any moment now...and i'm indoors, listening to coral sea by jay chou and lara...*sigh* the combination of both makes me quite depressed...

right now, i'm hoping this year would end soon...i hate college =( i hate the ppl (especially guys) and the work loads...it's driving me crazy...there's gonna be a bio test tomorrow on macromolecules and i haven't finished studying...my mind starts to wander whenever i'm on a subtopic which needs alot of thinking and info-processing =S

today's my friend's 18th birthday...and because i have to study for bio test, i couldn't celebrate with her...ARGH! our plans! before may we were planning to celebrate each other's birthday together...now...*sob* *SIGH* and i'm so not looking forward to my birthday this fri...y? because i'm having difficulties on who to celebrate with! 18 is a meaningful age to me...i dunno y...it juz is O.O

have i mentioned that i'm so proud of myself? will blog about y i feel proud of myself after my bio test....

work

i'm starting to hate my life as a student....=(

chem lab report - yet to be editted
annotated biblio - done
study for bio test - shit! haven't started
maths - haven't started
preliminary outline - haven't started

*sigh* i'm off to do maths...hopefully my mind will be more alert...

when will this all end??

confirmed...

it's PMS =D

hehehe...anyway, since college started, i feel like i've changed...

i'm more focused in class now...haha...

i haven't been talking much this whole week...

i have been craving for all sorts of yummy food lately! =P

oh, one thing...i've learnt not to procrastinate...i really hope this lasts...=)

i change my mind

haha...i change my mind about this week...

this week is totally shitty!!

so much work is due next week, on the same day some more!! =S

let's see, what do i have to do?

chem lab report, chem social relevance report, annotated bibliography, maths, esl preliminary outline and study bio!

p/s: i think i'm having PMS, i don't laugh much these days and i'm always hungry AND i don't feel like talking/chatting...=)

not shitty

haha...i used to dread mondays...cause shitty things happen on mondays...eg. tests, homework, depressed etc. all on mondays!

yesterday (monday), i was dreading to go to college, because i know shitty things would definitely happen....yesterday, there was supposed to be a chem test and lab practical...luckily everything turned out ok...wasn't great, but ok, at least not shitty....but i kinda got irritated by my chem lecturer who actually scolded us 'idiots' at the top of his lungs! i lost count of how many glassware were broken on that day in the lab =S

then the test was postponed to a day later (today) because my chem lecturer had to 'explain' to us how to do the chem lab report...noticed these - ' ' ?? i still have no idea how to do my chem lab report...oh! the test...i'm not even sure if i can pass >.< for the 1st question, i got only one sub-question correct...sheesh...and i left 12 marks blank because i have NO IDEA what to write...i admit it, i didn't really study that subtopic...=P

i hope this whole week is non-shitty....=D

end of break

*sigh* 1 week has come and gone...tomorrow morning i'll have to wake up early for college...

although i admit i didn't do REALLY productuve things, but i think i didn't waste my break, because i actually made full use of my break to spend time (and laughing) with my friends, catch up with sleep, do maths AND study for chem test....which is tomorrow...

however, this week didn't juz fly by...and i'm glad...oh! i forgot one thing...i finished watching a korean drama series with my mom...18-year-old bride! it was entertaining, hilarious AND most importantly, ROMANTIC!!! hehe...i'm so gonna watch it again after my final exam =P did i mention that the main actor is sooooo entau?! *sigh* i think i juz melted =D

i haven't been treating myself well enough lately...sleeping after midnight, not eating according to normal time etc. but fortunately a few days ago, i've been sleeping before 12am =) and usually during holidays i'll drink lesser water because i don't sweat much...now i drink water every one hour...haha...even my urine is clear! HAHAHAHAHA....grossed out yet?

anyway, my aunt's been commenting on my complexion...she says i look 'green'...which isn't a good thing at ALL...so...i've decided to : drink more water, eat more fruits and have sufficient sleep! i hope i can do it what college starts again...

this entry is so pointless...

yesterday i had an interesting conversation with a friend of mine, J.
she misread my personal msg (I wanna drift away with u...).
she thought i wrote "I wanna drift away from u..."
she sent me a msg - "how?"
i answered her - "huh?"
she said - "i want too"
well, i didn't know she misread it, so i told her - "haha...sorry, u're not the right person for me to drift away with"

it seems that she hasn't gotten over her bf....and it took me by surprise 'cause i thought she has finally moved on...she said she feels empty without her bf (or ex??)
wow...i never felt empty without anyone...even i don't feel empty without A =))

this was how our conversation went (E's me):
J : let me ask u a question
E : yeah?
J : do u ever wish u had a bf?
E : err...haha...no
J : do u feel jealous seeing ur friends with bfs?
E : no...
J : wow...
E : i believe i'll find mine someday
J : r u not curious how it feels like having one?
E : nah...no point rushing into a relationship, unless u really really love that guy and u guys are compatible
J : such a positive attitide!
E : i believe u can too...
J : how do u do that?
E : be content with what u have
J : be content...it's hard la...

i think i bored my 'readers' to death (if i even have) with this boring entry...

oh well, before i sign off...juz wanna tell everyone out there...never feel empty...cause God fills us to the brim with His Great Love...知足常乐，懂得感恩...常常喜乐!

should have slept

hmmm...i should have continued sleeping this morning...my friends asked me to go to the library today to discuss some chem assignments stuff...and it turned out the library wasn't open...

sheesh...i'm yawning as i'm typing this entry...

anyway, i lost the enthusiasm to type adee...hehe...

so sleepy!! wanna go have a nap adee...

Death

What is death?

Does it mean that that someone is forever gone?

Or because of death, that someone forever lives?

*SIGH*

I woke up today feeling quite happy, when my friend msged me on msn, telling me that Kai Loon had died in a road accident this morning...at 3am...

Kai Loon was very close to my friend. She got to know him at Air Itam Methodist Church...and I got to know him during a church camp in 2001...I wasn't really close to him...but it is too overwhelming to know the person u know can actually leave his family and friends behind...

I was shocked...no tears, no nothing...my friend on the other end of msn was still crying...she told me she couldn't concentrate on her lectures the whole morning...and i totally understand...I told her everything happens for a reason, although i'm not quite certain what the reason is...I told her he'll be better off staying at the Lord's side...

I know that God has a bigger plan for us...we must put our trust in Him...

May Kai Loon rest in peace...I'm sure he'll be dearly missed by family and friends...especially his younger bro, Kai Tit...

achievement? =P

for the past few days...i've been getting up late...after 11am!

well, it may not be something unusual for some ppl out there...but it's sooo not me!!

i never wake up after 11am! and yesterday i woke up at 12pm to realise i've got a 'date' with my friends at 1:30pm! haha...i ended up reaching there late...nearly 2pm...nvm la..they can wait =D

today i woke up before 10am!! yahoo!! and i SWEAR i'm gonna sleep before 12am tonight...have to take care d...hehe...and besides, having enough sleep keeps ur skin radiant and healthy!=)

whoa! i juz looked at my comp clock, it's only 11:11am! so early...hehe...after posting this, i'll go bathe and do something productive!! i'll blog again tomorrow...to tell 'u guys' if i did anything productive today...

no more going out today! ahhh....home sweet home...

oh! before i go...i wanna share the lyrics of my favourite song with everyone!

Imperfect Girl

I don't have a perfect smile
maybe I'm just too shy
I'm not a beauty queen
on covers of magazines
that's something you can't deny
I got my own style

So what you see is what you get
A girl of no regrets

I'm not ideal - I'm quite absurd
I'm just an imperfect girl
I rise above this perfect world
I'm just an imperfect, imperfect girl

I wouldn't be classed as cool
I have to bend the rules
Maybe I don't fit in
I didn't always win
that's something you can't deny
I'm happy with my own style

So what you see is what you get
A girl of no regrets
I'm not ideal - I'm quite absurd
I'm just an imperfect girl
I rise above this perfect world
I'm just an imperfect, imperfect girl

It's all just make-believe
The standards that we hear
It doesn't have to be
A perfect world, a perfect world

I'm not ideal - I'm quite absurd
I'm just an imperfect girl
I rise above this perfect world
I'm just an imperfect, imperfect girl
I'm not ideal - I'm quite absurd
I'm just an imperfect girl
I rise above this perfect world
I'm just an imperfect, imperfect, imperfect girl

p/s: this song is so me! haha...but if u think i have low self-esteem...u're wrong! *winks*

Ice Age 2 rocks!!

OMG!! it was damn hilarious!!!

i love it sooo much!

i laughed so much today watching that movie!! =D

p/s: laughter is the best medicine...

crazy =D

AH!! haha...i had a fantastic time yesterday with my girl friends...

I was supposed to meet Eva at McD's at 1:30pm but she called me earlier to tell me that she would b later, so haha...i went a lil later lo =P when i was in my mom's car on the way to Gurney Plaza GP), i saw Peace's friend, Arveen crossing the road to his car....wearing his beach wear as usual! HAH! And later my other friend Prasana told us he has fever! lol...he certainly didn't look like he had a fever to us...

Anyway, I met up with Eva at Coffee Bean and we walked to McD's together to have lunch. As we were about to take our order, a guy went "a large coke pls". Wah! My friend and I turned around to stare at that whoever it was...eh?! It was Sudeep and Aman (Peace) who we got to know at the Cancer Relay for Life thingy...i was kinda happy to see Aman though...he's like forever so soft spoken and nice...as for Sudeep? HMPH!

Prasana told me that she could make it for our outing but then yesterday morning she sent me an sms saying she couldn't make it d because she has a whole list of chores to do...=( so sad la...then when i was on the way to GP, she called and asked me what time were gonna meet up! YAY!

At McD's, i had loads of fun laughing, laughing and laughing!! My goodness, the whole restaurant was filled with our laughter!! =D It felt real good...laughing like nobody's looking...oh yeah, Sudeep and Aman AND another girl, Moga (who's also studying in the same college as I am) were sitting at a corner...luckily there were dustbins to cover their faces! LOL...then halfway through our lunch, Prasana came!! yippy!!

I'm getting impatient here...hehe...usually i don't relate stories from the beginning till the end...so i'll skip a few 'scenes' =P

We watched 'reincarnation' which is a jap horror movie...hehe...instead of being scared, my friends and I were laughing the whole entire time! The guys at the back row thought they could scare us by touching us...not exactly touch la...like there's this one time before the movie even began, i felt someone touching my hair but i juz combed my hair with my fingers anyway...haha...then my friend leaned forward and said to us "hey, if u feel anyone touching u, don't be scared ok? it's juz the guys behind us" HAH! very funny...didn't scare me at ALL...instead there was this guy 2 seats away from me...he was sooo afraid, when the sound effects changed, he would cover his face with his hands...and say "SHIT!" HAHAHAHAHA so funny!!

The second movie we watched that day was When a Stranger Calls...it wasn't THAT scary...but it kept everyone in the cinema in suspense...my friends and i actually joked around when we were watching that movie...cause there was one scene when the girl called 911 to report that there's a guy calling her...bla bla bla...then the guy on the other end of the phone...his voice was soooooo ermmm....attractive? =S dunno...i commented to them that he's so cute! haha...and they were like "what?! u're hitting on a guy whom u don't even know how he looks like?!" =)) i liked his voice alot though...*sigh*

*FAST FORWARD*

The 3 of us went to Domino's to have our dinner...we shared on half-and-half regular pizza..yummy! 1 side aloha chicken, 1 side chicken pepperoni...hmmmm!

*FAST FORWARD*

hehe...really losing my patience =P
I HAD A GREAT TIME LAUGHING AND FOOLING AROUND AND NOT CARE ABOUT PPL STARING AT ME!!! WOOHOO!! HEHE....I BET LOADS OF PPL THOUGHT I'M CRAZY....

made up my mind

i've made up my mind NOT to go for sleepover at my friend's place....

juz don't feel like it...ARGH! i suspect my aunt's visiting anytime again....

hmmm....and yes, i must do productive things this break! i swear!

at least have to study for the chem test after break!!!

i'm weird

i think something's totally wrong with me...

last week, my friends and i were talking about having a sleepover at one of my friend's place...and i was kinda looking forward to it...but today when i got the sms's from my other 2 friends about the sleepover, i suddenly don't feel like going anymore...

long before my break, i was planning to do some productive stuff this break so that i won't regret after the break....*sigh*

yeah, i guess i've made up my mind not to go...

p/s: everything i do depends on my mood...when i'm excited over something now, i may not be tomorrow...=S

bad and good news!! =D

ok, today i went shopping with my parents at pranging mall....for pants!! =D i realised i've been buying skirts this year...and i guess skirts are not that suitable for me...hehe...

bad news
my butt and thighs are getting bigger! i know u'd be going "don't be silly! u're so thin!" i know i AM thin but my butt and thighs are as huge as a tree trunk! i used to wear size S jeans...now...*gasps* lol...M! even M is tight!! so u know what? i can't wear boot cut jeans no more...i'm going for straight cut...

good news
straight cut jeans suit me perfectly!! =D and i'm soooo in love with those 2 pair of jeans (not jeans...pants) that i bought this afternoon!! i love the fabric and colour! =) i was gonna give up on shopping for pants...but phew! luckily i found those 2...for this whole year, i swear to myself not to buy anymore clothes...

since we're on this shopping topic, haha...honestly i hate shopping...i only shop when i need to...because i hate trying out clothes...so troublesome...
yay! now i don't have to go shopping anymore...=)) YIPPY!!

sigh of relief...=)

this photo was taken last december outside sentosa island

i don't know y...i suddenly feel so relieved!!!!
no more that heavy weight on my chest....i can finally breathe! *INHALES*
haha...since i'm in such a good mood...i'll post a pic of me today =P

p/s: to the 2 ST's, u guys are soooo lucky...have ur own private room some more!!! and i see u guys are doing fine so far...i'm happy for u...

random stuff...

You Are A Professional Girlfriend!

You are the perfect girlfriend - big surprise! Heaven knows you've had enough practice. That's why you're a total pro. If there was an Emily Post of girlfriends, it would be you. You know how to act in every situation ... to make both you and your guy happy.

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?

You are Ready to Date Again

If you're not out there already, you should be. Your ex is long gone from your heart, and you are ready for another relationship. Any guy you meet gets a clean slate - and no emotional baggage. Congratulations, you've gotten completely over him. Now, on to a better guy :-) It's time for you to start dating! Post your photo and profile on a bunch of personals sites. Before long, you won't have any more lonely Saturday nights.

Are You Ready To Date Again?

wait, i don't even have an ex! LOL....this is hilarious

You Are A Relationship Doormat!

Surprise, you ruin relationships. Bet you didn't see that one coming :-) While you're a nice, understanding, and caring girlfriend - you don't put your needs first. And deep down, it's probably because you worry about getting dumped. So speak up for yourself, weed out the losers sooner, and you'll find a guy that *deserves* you.

Do You Ruin Relationships?

...

我要你知道
在这个世界上永远会有一个人在等著你
无论是在什么时候
无论你在什么地方
反正总会有这样的一个人
~ 表妹吉祥

i don't even know who i dedicate the above to...because i'm so confused...so now i swear to myself that i'll not think of 'these' kinda things anymore...i SWEAR!!!

from now on...i'll only blog about my life...and nothing else...my life is too short, i don't wanna waste my life thinking and being confused over such matters...after all, i'm already 18...although i'm not prepared to grow up yet...i have to! next year's gonna b my turn to go into university already...wow...time flies...haha...in a blink of an eye...i'll be a married woman with 2 kids! LOL...
now i'm cracking myself up! =D

haha...sometimes before i fall asleep on my bed, i'll imagine myself in 10 years' time...how i'll look like or how my future husband look like, how many kids i'll have, what kinda job i'll b doing etc...sometimes i even imagine myself in a bikini on a sunny beach overseas! lol...so funny...last year in high school, my friend and i planned to go to Gurney Plaza to try out some bikinis...haha...cause we were so curious how we look like in bikinis...but we haven't done that yet...we haven't seen each other for months already! hope that someday we'll get to do that...and laugh our heads off! i remember in form 4, our young eng teacher came over to talk to us...and she went 'u girls are still young, if u get the chance...try on some bikinis...i remember when i went honeymoon with my husband, i wore bikini...now i think cannot adee...everything start to sag...' we were sooooo dumbfounded!! that was y we decided to do juz that in form 5 =) i know my parents will freak out if they ever find out...i guess most of my friends will freak out too...now that's the fun part! doing something that will make everyone go O.O =D

wait a min, i thought i was feeling down? haha...halfway through this post...it became a happy one...so typical of me...

i'm trying to get all the thoughts that have been stuck in my head for quite sometime out...so that i won't feel so burdened...sometimes i juz wish i had gone back to study form 6...because i hate studying in a co-ed school...i hate it loads! guys are sooo...ARGH...they're immature and wu-liao not even funny! and do u know how it feels when everyone teases u with a guy u do not like (not that i jie yi)? they always end up liking my pretty friend, which makes me look so stupid if anyone ever finds out...

oh my god...i'm so emotionally unstable now...something's bothering me...but i can't type it out here...i guess i can't tell anyone about it...*SOB* ='(

listening to Jay Chou's qing tian...

shitty week

my week has been shitty as i have said before...but it hasn't gotten any better...now i feel so uncomfortable with my friends...the only thing they talk about is their bf's and relationships as i have said it before in one of my previous posts...

today....
we went to kfc at 1-stop to have lunch...we had girl talk as usual...about u-know-already...usually i quite enjoy having girl talk with my girl friends...but today, i juz feel lost...and out of place...it's like they don't even give me a chance to voice up my opinions...maybe...i said juz maybe, cause i never had one....and never was in a relationship...so?? oh well...ok, then after college we went for a movie with the title Below Eight...about dogs la...aiyah...me the emotional one didn't cry even a tear...whereas my 3 friends who always call me sentimental...cried like hell...ok la...not like hell...but the other 2 nearly used up all the tissue papers...clearly, there's something wrong with me!

another thing that makes me feel out of place is...i'm not as girlie as they are...they're like those popular girls in college whereas i'm not (not that i care really) but i really HATE guys who see only pretty faces! and sometimes i feel insulted when guy(s) praise me when i look good because it's juz the clothings i wear they praise!! IF i ever get a bf...it's the ugly side of me he should fall for...and not the pretty side (if i ever have that side)...BTW, i've decided to go back to becoming the old me...that is a girl who's not afraid of anything and who wears pants ALOT! =P since i have quite a number of skirts...i'll take turns wearing them la...i wanna buy more pants!!

let me digress from my shitty week a lil...
i think pretty girls do have alot of benefits...like they can get their way ALL the time...and it doesn't even matter if they act like a 'dumb blonde' because ppl will still simply love them to bits! *eyes rolling* (yes i'm talking about my friend...but she's not that dumb la..although she acts like a dumb blonde sometimes) oh! and even if a pretty girl is already taken, the guys will juz try to pursue her anyway...and today i got the shock of my life, y? because we were trying to 'abandon' (in case u're too blind to notice the inverted commas, it was a minor joke) one of our friends (yes, she's pretty) during lunch and this guy who is kinda famous for not being gentleman stood up for her! WOW....*sarcastically* sheesh!! GUYS are soooooo SUPERFICIAL la...

speaking about guys! i HATE this guy in my class la...he's sooooo damn RUDE ok?! can't he speak in a nice tone...or AT LEAST act nice a lil? i noticed when he talks to my pretty friends he's not THAT rude...ARGH...i'll describe today's incident briefly...lazy to elaborate

ok, usually my 3 friends and i would sit in a row of 4...but because today our was class was slightly smaller, there were seats in 3's available only...so i decided to let my 3 friends sit together and i sit next to that rude guy...ALVIN...i do hope he sees this! he was sitting on the most left seat and the seat next to him had bread crumbs (or was it something else...anyway, it's dirt la) i 'transferred' the bread wrapper to that dirty seat, and he threw it back!! and with a loud voice (loud enough for the whole class to hear him) he 'said' to me : OI! THROW IT IN THE DUSTBIN LA, Y THROW HERE?!' ARGGHHHH i juz wanted to dig his eyes out with my pen i tell u!! was so pissed i used a slightly louder voice telling him that that chair is already dirty anyway!! after all, i did plan to throw it into the dustbin later...SHEESH! and u know what!? he actually has a gf! BAH! what is this world becoming to?! i am SO SURE that they won't last long! i know, i sound very bitchy right?! this is gonna be my first and last bitchy post! cause bitchy is sooo not me! *SIGH*

i know this post is getting longer and longer...because i've been keeping it all inside of me...so today, i'm gonna let it all out...

shit! i've forgotten what i was about to type...sheesh! will type it when i think of it...but if my mood turns better d i'd probably juz not type it out la...i'll type a happy post then!

p/s: i actually feel alot better now after chatting with a guy friend of mine...what the heck...i typed so long adee...juz read la! haha...

how are u doing?

hello...this post is for the 2 ST's who left for japan yesterday night....

how are u guys doing? is everything going well? r u guys missing home already??

*sigh* do blog sometimes...so that i know what u (guys) are up to....i'm so emotional now...y leh?

dunno..maybe this week was juz plain shitty...everything went wrong....

=)

=S

y oh y...do i feel so down?
feels like i'm gonna drown...

wow...that rhymed! anyway, y do i feel so shitty?
dunno...could it be the chemistry practical on monday? i kinda made my lab partner become impatient with me...=(
or could it be i FEEL like i'm the only one being left behind in penang?
or could it be my friends and i juz don't really get along emotionally...like 'our' usual topic will be about their bf's and relationship stuff...
or could it be the joke Peace's friend played on me...that makes me THINK he's TRYING to MAKE me THINK he likes me...somehow i feel guys can hardly be trusted...like i FEEL that everything they do is juz a dare between them and their friends....well, it's not as serious as it sounds...cause he actually makes me laugh...and the main thing is i do NOT like him at ALL...so it's cool...it juz makes me wonder...that's all...
or could it be the assignments and lab reports that are thrown my way...
or could it be my life is not properly organised...
answers!! i need an answer!! ='(
or could it be hormones? =D
i doubt it has got to do with weather cause i simply do not care about weathers! UNLESS it's too HOT! =P

i dedicate this to u (guys)...

i guess it's juz the beginning after all...good luck guys!!

Yolanda Adams - I Believe

They said you wouldn't make it so far uh uh
And ever since they said it, it's been hard
But nevermind the nights you had to cry
'Cause you have never let it go inside
You worked real hard
And you know exactly what you want and need
So believe and you can never give up
You can reach your goals
Just talk to your soul and say…

(Chorus:)
I believe I can (I can)
I believe I will (I will)
I believe I know my dreams are real (know my dreams are real)
I believe I'll chant (Oh yea) I believe I'll dance
I believe I'll grow real soon and (That's why)
That is what I do believe

Your goals are just dancing in your soul uh uh
And you know that your moves will let them show
You keep creating pictures in your mind
So just believe they will come true in time
It will be fine
Leave all of your cares and stress behind
Just let it go
Let the music flow inside
Forget all your pain
And just start to believe

(Chorus:)
I believe I can (I believe I can oh yea)
I believe I will
I believe I know my dreams are real (All of my dreams are real)
I believe I'll chant
I believe I'll dance (I gotta dance)
I believe I'll grow real soon and (ooo)
That is what I do believe

Whoa oa oa YEA…
(Music break)

Nevermind what people say
Hold your head high and turn away
With all my hopes and dreams
I will believe
Even though it seems it's not for me
I won't give up
I'll keep it up
Look into the sky
I will achieve all my needs
I will always believe….OoOo

(Chorus 2x)
I believe I can I believe I will (I can)
I believe I know my dreams are real (I got strength)
I believe I'll chant I believe I'll dance (I gotta dance)
I believe I'll grow real soon and (watch me watch me watch me)
That is what I do believe (I do believe in me)
I believe I can I believe I will (oh yea)
I believe I know my dreams are real
I believe I'll chant I believe I'll dance (I gotta dance)
I believe I'll grow real soon and
That is what I do believe (I do believe! yayeeyay)
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i know the lyrics are kinda exaggerated...but it's a very inspiring song! so this goes out to the 2 ST's who are leaving penang tomorrow evening....good luck guys!

yay!!

i'm not sure y i put that as my title...BUT one thing for sure is i'm very happy!! i don't know y...hmmm...maybe because my 'aunty' went home d...or it could be because Peace is starting to act normal around me...

oh! and the most important thing is...i've already started working on my bio essay...so i don't have to rush at the last min! =)

i'm outta words to say...listening to 'Autumn Goodbye' by Britney Spears...

great and not-so-great...

*sigh* so much has happened lately...i'll tell one by one...so juz bear with me...

1
1st, i got to know this singh guy, Peace, from the cancer relay for life thingy...that day he asked me 'is ur dad a thief?' i thought i heard him wrongly, so i went 'huh?' he asked me that again, and i was like 'noooo...??' haha...then he did the funniest thing, he continued 'then who stole the stars and put them into ur eyes?' i BURST OUT LAUGHING! and now the funny thing is, i find his eyes really beautiful! hahaha...my goodness...then after a few weeks, during chem class, Peace's friend asked me from across the classroom if my dad was a thief! i was dumbfounded! i thought Peace told them (his friends) and i found out it was Peace's friend who also went to the cancer relay for life thingy told them! and now that Peace is also studying in the same college as i am, i kept being teased for being Peace's girl...- . -" nvm that la, but i actually thought Peace was avoiding me because when i smiled at him, he didn't give me any response...to cut short, he wasn't...and i'm glad =)

2
this i mentioned in one of my previos posts d...but i'll still say it anyway, because i'm still quite down...i won't be able to send my bro's best friend off to japan (to further his studies) because i have to hand in this important bio essay on that particular day...so sad la...dunno y...maybe it's because of hormones? lol...it can't be...i've been feeling sad i cannot send him off since right before my u-know-what? =D thank God i sms-ed him juz now...he told me he's the one leaving his hometown...haha...yeah, i guess so...i mean...i hope we'll still keep in touch! oh no...everybody's leaving, everytime when i juz got to know them better...or maybe got a lil closer...

3
i've been listening to sad songs lately, especially jay chou's songs...*SIGH*

4
i'm sick of guys...elaborate next time...

5
i think it's MS...ask me if u wanna know...=(

embarrassing!!

ok, i'm so lazy to type a long post, so i'll be really brief...here goes:

yesterday after watching a movie (I Not Stupid Too) with my friend, we went to Winter Warmers to have my dinner (my friend already had hers before the movie started)...once we have settled down, a waiter came over to i-forgot-what and i was taking out my membership card from my wallet when a strip of unopened plaster went flying to the floor...the waiter was already trying to pick it up for me when i bent down to pick it up and when he saw this, he stood up again AND because i thought he was gonna pick it up for me, i sat straight again...then the most embarrassing thing happened, when he went down on one knee to pick it up for me, i bent down at the same time and i knocked his head with mine! DAMN! i was soooo embarrassed! he said sorry, and i was rubbing (or massaging) my head...i juz shook my head...after that, when he came to take our orders, my goodness, my voice juz wouldn't come out! he couldn't hear me and went 'excuse me?' the reason y he couldn't hear me was i didn't look up! i didn't dare to...so damn embarrassing k?! and guess what? my friend thinks i was cute! my goodness...but i think he's not that good-looking and my friend kinda has the hots for him...haha...he was thoughtful too, my friend didn't order anything to eat (she only ordered a drink) so he brought her a set of fork and knife too! my goodness....i'm not sure if i'll ever step into that restaurant ever again! =S

still empty...

well, this is a continuation of the last post...as u can see from the title...

i'm emotional again...my bro's best friend is going to japan soon...and i planned to send him off...but unfortunately i have class on that day...what the??

well, i'm not only emotional because of that...but because it seems to me that everyone's leaving penang!! and i feel like i'm here all alone...nothing compares to the friendships i had in high school...no one in college really understands me...for instance, there's this one time i went out with a guy friend..and surprisingly i enjoyed his company alot!! felt so comfortable around him and all...thinking back on the funny stuff he did makes me laugh out loud, but my friends think i'm in love =.="' it's not like that at all...*sigh* can't a girl be happy? they hardly understand that it doesn't take a 'lover' to make me happy =S i can b happy with anyone i feel comfortable with...so now, i keep my innermost feelings to myself unless i can find someone who won't judge the way i feel so quickly...

still pms i think....i get depressed one min and happy the next...damn...

p/s: may, i feel alot better already compared to the last few days ;) thank u...u too, cheer up!

empty...

is it just the beginning, or is it the end?

i've been feeling quite empty lately...maybe it's juz PMS...

well, and i'm not very happy with my results anymore...i feel like i don't deserve to get such good results...juz lucky...nothing to be proud of...

maybe because i've been stressed out by loads of homework and assignments...*sigh* i should be doing my chem assignments now, but i'm juz too lazy...no mood...

oh God, i totally hate PMS!

p/s: congrats to TST!! u did great!! don't doubt urself...i don't know yst's results yet, but i bet u did great too ^_*

dreaming...

woke up today...everything that had happened yesterday seems so distant...i still can't believe the results i got...whoa!

and 'great', i have college today...and only get to go home at 7pm! *sigh* i'm still in pyjamas...so, gotta go have a bath now...ciao!

p/s: sze may, u got me addicted to 'girl next door' too =P

on cloud 9!

on cloud 9

hehe...results are out!

well, although my results are not SUPER great...but at least they're better than i have imagined it to be!!!

i got 10A's including 1119!!!

got loads of A2's la...haha...but still A is A right?! =D

this can prove only one thing...that is dreams are the opposite of reality!!! =P and i'm glad....

ok, now i'm pissed...was chatting with a friend on msn...and she told me her results are not that good...and guess how many A's she got? missed one! that means she could've gotten straight A's but she missed one F****** 1!! sheesh! that's great already what!!!

i say mine is not super great cause super great is like straight A's...haha...but mine is only great...yoohoo!!

first time...

yesterday morning, i overslept for the first time since i've been waking up on my own....

i hit the snooze button several times until i turned it off....the phone rang so i got up and answered it...my mom was on the other end, asking if i was ready...i looked up at the clock, holy shit!! my class starts at 11am and it's already 10.50am i think...i panicked and told my mom i overslept...and so i had my fastest shower EVER! in 10 mins...i skipped breakfast...for the FIRST time (i never skip breakfast)

when i got into the car, my dad made me so mad...well, he asked me a stupid question...

D - dad
M - me

D: y did u oversleep?
M: i turned off my alarm clock...
D: so sleepy meh? (DUH!)
M: tired ma...i hit snooze several times and then i turned it off...
D: must be on the internet till 'late late' la!
M: i turned off the comp at 11pm ok!?

there u go...i hate it when parents make baseless assumptions...if yes, i was on the internet till late at night...i wouldn't feel so mad...but the fact is, i did not! i was simply tired...besides, it's my first time getting up without my mom waking me...i'm not used to it yet, duh! i can't juz get used to it overnight...that's crazy! anyway, i was so mad, i went out for lunch with my friends in college...and didn't say A word to my dad for the whole day...

p/s: note to self - never make baseless assumptions in the future when i have my own kids...it's juz plain annoying...

graduation photo

i look happy in this pic, don't i? i was laughing because my teacher 'pantang' 3 persons being in a photo, so i dragged my friend who's standing on my left to take this pic =P

since i hardly post photos on my blog...i guess it's time...=) but one at a time =P

most awkward moment EVER!

ok, so my college is supporting the cancer society thingy...so i'm supposed to go around collecting donations...

because i'm a last-min person, i suddenly thought of asking my neighbours for donations, since they live so nearby and i know them...hehe...

i went to the 3rd floor, after asking for donation from one house, i proceeded to my guy friend's house, also on the 3rd floor. i rang the doorbell, but the people inside took forever to open the wooden door... i waited and waited and waited...i nearly gave up when the wooden door suddenly swung open...and out came my friend's elder bro....half naked! *shrieks* followed by his gf (luckily fully dressed!) i was dumbstruck!

M - my friend's bro
m - me

M: looking for my bro is it?
m: (nodded)
M: he's not in
m: would u like to donate (was stammering!!)
M: for...??
m: (showing him the donation card in my hand) this cancer...thingy
M: ok, sure! (and he walked in to get the money)

as for me, i felt so damn awkward!! i stood behind the wall next to his grilled door...

M: y are u hiding over there? there u go...(was about to walk in)
m: no ah...oh, thanks...ermm, can u pls write ur name and sign...thank u!
M: (signing) u can juz write my bro's name la...

but his gf took the card and wrote it for me =P when M was done with the pen, he went 'hey, nice pen...thanks' and was walking in!

u know me la...i'm very 'straight' wan ma...so i thought he was seriously gonna take my pen and never gonna return it to me...then his gf was still there some more! i was laughing oh-so-awkwardly and saying 'thanks...but hey! that's my school pen!'

whoa! i quickly thanked him and RAN home once we were done! my goodness! but thinking back on it, i think it was hilarious...if only his gf wasn't there...i wouldn't have acted so weirdly...ARGHH! *smacks forehead*

THRILLED!

oh no oh no!!!
i'm so excited...not sure if i can sleep tonight!!
my dad's mom's (grandmother) bro juz called...and he's gonna chia us dinner tomorrow...and his (grandmother's bro) grandsons will b there too!! oh my God!! one of his grandson is like SUPER cute k?!
hehehe...i'm so gonna wear contact lenses tomorrow! =P
oh! not forgetting earrings! =D
LOL~ i know i sound shallow...but i don't get to see him often...only on CNY and some special occasions...*sigh*

while i'm still on the topic of him...hehe...during chinese new year..wow...i saw him and i thought i was gonna go breathless! so cute!! and then when we (my parents, grandmother, grandma's bro and his son and daughter-in-law and grandsons & I) sitting at a table talking...and he (the handsome one) sat opposite me! i didn't dare to look at him...haha...hope no one noticed that...so pai seh...

hehe...i can't stop laughing or smiling now...oh no...that's y i say it's nice being single and having little crushes on guys =)

p/s : i'm not really into guys...i'm juz into the thrill of having a crush on a guy...then get sick of it eventually *wink* oh, and the story about us sitting at the table...not finished yet...lazy to type...too happy! =P will talk more about it in the next post...IF i remember

terrible!

juz woke up a few mins ago...i had the worst nightmare ever!!

i dreamt that i got my spm results already...and i got miserable B's and an F9!! it was horrifying!! i dunno how to describe the dream...it was really weird...there weren't 11 subjects too! =S

i mean, how can i possibly get an F in spm...right?! i thought SPM was nothing compared to SAM! *shudders* if i get an F in spm what would i get in SAM then?! i don't even wanna think about it! damn those friends who have been mentioning 13th March to me! i was trying so hard to ignore it!

hope my results turn out otherwise, or else i'll jump from the world's tallest building!! =P i remembered having this dream when i was in std 3...i dreamt that i passed the PTS exam with flying colours and i was gonna skip std 4! turned out i was wrong...hope it's the case for my spm results too....

well...

took this photo after some drizzling (i think)

i came across 2 rainbows once, too bad they faded right before i could manage to snap them ='(

ok, i've decided to retype the post that got lost yesterday...

i'm not sure if i've mentioned this before...that i dislike having too much time doing nothing because my mind tends to wander...thinking and imagining all sorts of stuff...then i'll get all emotional...stupid huh? pls tell me i'm not abnormal!

then on the other hand, i think i'm suffering from MPD (Multiple Personality Disorder) because i can feel sad/happy/depressed/angry/frustrated etc. one min. after another...am i a psycho?! i even enjoy watching Happy Tree Friends...according to my friends, i'm sentimental, but i really enjoy watching horror and gruesome movies...=S it's not that i got numb watching them...i love to scare myself! then laugh about it...=D

FABULOUS!

lol...now u know this is definitely gonna be a happy post!!

juz got back from hanging out with my friend in high school (she brought her 13-year-old bro. along)....we watched 2 movies in a row...it was great! the first movie was Heirloom, a horror movie...i think. the second one was Casanova which was hilarious! really had fun laughing the whole entire time in the cinema...=D

heirloom....well, i like the story about the family keeping a child spirit or something....but then i didn't like the way they presented it....it was boring...haha, but my friend was sooo afraid, she watched the whole movie through her fingers =P it was funny...

after those 2 movies, we went for ice cream at Haegan Dazs!! my goodness...i didn't have to pay though =P my friend's mom gave us a treat...my friend ordered a Fondue, and we shared...it was heavenly!! the whole order looks like a steamboat...haha...instead of raw meats, there were ice cream balls, fresh fruits and cookies around it....and in the middle, there's grounded (?) nuts and chocolate syrup!! YUMMY!! from now on, i wanna fatten myself up!! =))

hmmm....it's great to catch up with old friends...since i've left high school, i keep feeling like hanging out with my girl friends from high school...hehe...i love all-girl gatherings...so nice...girl talk and everything, the company...juz makes my day! ;)

p/s : oh, i forgot to say this! haha....i got to chat with my crush 2 days ago!!! and i found out that he's really neat! oh my...so opposite of me! *blush*

why...

AAAARRRRGHHHH...this is ******* frustrating!!!

i poured out all my emotions in a post i typed a min. ago...and now it's gone!

so, now i'm overwhelmed with FRUSTRATION...that post...will type it when i feel that way ever again...=(

failure...lol...

FIRST time ever in my life...i got a guy friend a birthday gift (a t-shirt BTW), it doesn't fit him!
-.-"

i know, it's not a big deal actually, but see, i have this habit, if i get a gift for someone, i would really hope that person could actually use/like it! like...the perfect gift! u know...haha...and i would give the person the best!

oh well, i dunno how to put it into words and i feel sleepy now...so...hope u get what i mean...=P

Maybe...

haha...i was thinking about the conversation i had with a guy friend of mine the other day...and so i'm typing this post...

maybe the one for me was beside me all along, but i was too blind to see? or maybe because i still won't let go of my crush, that is y i cannot move on....or maybe my crush IS the one for me, all i have to do is wait for the right time and place...or maybe...*sigh* i dunno...alot of maybes...

and because i'm listening to "Till i get over you" by christina milian, i'm thinking to myself....would i feel the same way that she feels in the song if i'd get over him someday? oh well, i'm rather happy and thankful that i'm not that crazy over my crush anymore...yup, i think this is good for me...and the guys in my college...ARGH...haha...nah, none catches my eye anymore...

my post sounded sad in the beginning, but now, it's a happy post! =D and right now, i'm very focused with my life...haha...but too lazy to study...at least i'm focused right?! =P

so, here's the lyrics to Christina Milian's 'Till I Get Over You'

Woke up today thinking of you
Another night that I made my way through
So many dreams still left in my mind
But they can never come true
I press rewind and remember when
I close my eyes and I'm with you again
But in the end I can still feel the pain, every time I hear your name

::Chorus::LyricsCafe.com::
The sun won't shine since you went away
Seems like the rain's falling every day
There's just one heart, where there once was two
But that's the way it's gotta be,'till I get over you

{Verse 2}
Walked through the park, in the evening air
I heard a voice and I thought you were there
I run away but I just can't escape
Memories of you everywhere
They say that time will dry the tears
But true love burns for a thousand years
Give my tomorrows for one yesterday
Just to know that I could have you here

{Bridge}
When will this river of tears stop fallin'
Where can I run so I won't feel alone
Can't walk away when the pain keeps callin'
I've just gotta take it from here on my own
But it's so hard to let go

p/s: oops, before i go, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TST! (although i doubt u'll see this) although u get on my nerves sometimes....hahaha...glad to have a friend like u =P

AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH

haha...it happens everytime!

today's already sunday, my last day of my semester break...great...and i haven't finished doing loads of stuff...ok...not loads la...i managed to finish most of it yesterday cause i was panic-stricken...o.O

for days i've been reminding myself to remember to post my NS deferment letter...and guess what, i got my letter yeserday telling me to go 'serve the country' this coming 19th of March...AHHHH! oh no, i must send in my deferment letter quick! or else....>.< fine of RM2000 (or was it 3000...ah, who cares) or jail!

hmmm...i went out with a guy friend last thursday evening...and surprisingly, i enjoyed myself ALOT! never felt so comfortable with a guy before...haha...had a great time laughing in the cinema...and during dinner too...it was memorable la...about the topic we were on the other day about realising my crush isn't who i really like...well, i guess it's hard to get over him la...and besides, he keeps me from being distracted by other guys. LOL =P

anyway, tomorrow i'll be dead meat...y? cause i've got a bio and chem test tomorrow! i've started studying chem...but not sure i'll be able to finish it tonight...and bio, i studied like 2 weeks ago...and i haven't finished studying that too...ARGH! i'll stay calm.....calm....

yo friends who know me out there!!

hehe...please do visit this http://kevan.org/johari?name=Michellin

i'm so anxious to find out how ppl find me =P

girl friends rock!

haha...it's a continuation of my last post...

it's weird...that FUCKER was juz a passer-by to me but nearly all my girl friends sms-ed and even called me to ask how i'm doing after, u know, finding out that FUCKER's true colours... and surprisingly, i didn't feel hurt at all...seriously...i guess he meant nothing to me la...that's y...

haha...but the funny thing is, i feel like i juz broke up with my boyfriend...haha...because of those calls and sms's...pls la girls! don't have to be worried about me...i'm ok! he's NOTHING...i've got my other crush remember? the one i've been drooling over for the past 5 years?!

guys...they're superficial

girls who agree with me, say YEAH!

i juz came back from gurney watching a movie with my girl friends...and i finally found out the horrible truth...well, come to think of it, it's a beautiful truth....

the guy i thought who liked me is so damn FUCKING superficial...and i'm glad i got over him before i found out...

yes, vulgarity's never my thang, but yeah, i'll say it one more damn FUCKING time! he's FUCKING superficial!

y? what happened u'd ask...

we (my friends and i) juz finished watching Big Momma's House 2 and on the way down, my friend, A, told me that the FUCKER has a crush on her...well, it's not that that made me mad...he used to have a crush on my other friend, S too...who happens to be in our group...ok ok, i don't know how to say this, the story goes like this:

last thursday, my friends and that FUCKER's gang went for tennis club...then FUCKER's friend was teasing him about his crush on S...then that night, FUCKER sms-ed A asking her if she heard...and she said 'yeah...good what...S's a nice girl' and he went 'i don't really like her...i used to have this teeny-weeny crush on her...not anymore...i've got a crush on someone else...' so A asked him 'how come?' he went 'cause this other girl is prettier' (did u 'hear' that?! PRETTIER) and so A went 'u don't like a person because she's pretty...u like someone because it's her personality u like...'

see?? whoever fell for the FUCKER is the world's stupidest person (yeah, i know, no such word as 'stupidest' SO? SUE ME!!)

and the thing is, FUCKER has been sending her sms's alot...although he already knows that she already has a boyfriend...guys *rolls eyes*

now y am i mad? because i'm the last to know this! my friends were actually waiting for me to get over him first before telling me...they thought i was totally into him...which was true for a few weeks...until i realise i'm totally crazy over my crush...and Thank God..really...i'm over that SUCKER! oh no, he's FUCKER, oh whatever that ends with a '-ER'

not only THAT that made me mad...there's this guy in their group who already has a gf for 3 years? and i was envious of their relationship and all...HAH! wrong! he has this crush on S too...which , according to my friend, is very obvious to the whole class...not that it's wrong for him to have a crush...i juz...ARGHH...hate guys so much!

i thought i'd get over the anti-guys thingy i had in primary school...but now i guess....i'm back to that...yeah...until miracle happens and show me that guys are not jerks after all...and i promise my girl friends...let's organise an Anti-Valentine's Party next year! YEAH!!

oh...my friend asked me this question : one day if u get to be with ur crush, would u still be that crazy over him?
well, my answer is, i dunno...i cannot predict the future...but i'm sure i'll love him with my whole heart...since i've been waiting for years now...i guess even if he cheats on me...i know i'll still be there...until one day i can't take it anymore...and swear that any guy who doesn't know how to appreciate me...will regret...*winks*

to prove that guys are superficial? that FUCKER commented i look prettier with my contact lenses...BAH! and after hearing that comment, i wore glasses the next day!

hey, sze may...if u're reading this, wanna go out someday and dress up like goths? hehe...i so wanna try! wear all black, highlight our hair blue and put on black eyeliner! hehe....=D and maybe dark lipstick and nail polish too!!

i hope this is my last post about guys (excluding my crush =P) guys are soooo not worth it la! superficial....cheap ka si!! GIRL POWER!

oh, talking about girl power...i so wanna get a tattoo on my arm...a small one...with japanese kanji on it saying girl power! hehe...but then...the thought of the pain makes me cringe...=D

p/s : right now the only thing i wish for is that my crush will have a fabulous relationship with his gf...not based on looks...but the heart....good luck!! love ya!

dilemma

right now, my crush is online on my msn list...but i'm not sure if i should send him a msg...

everything's ok...i guess

yeah, u've guessed it...about my crush, AGAIN =P

juz visited his page a min. ago...i guess he's not having a prob with his gf after all...at least i think so...good for him!! a guy like him shouldn't have any problems in a relationship (don't ask me y! that's what i feel la...)

inspiring

last night i went to bed at 12am...and because i slept for 3 hours in the afternoon, i find it hard to fall asleep...at 12.45am, i got my friend's sms (if u're reading this, yes, it's u!) telling me that my blog inspires her! wow...i was kinda surprised and happy at the same time...haha...never thought my blog could be ermm...so inspiring? =)

well, from now on u can visit my blog to find out what i'm up to =P

OMG!! yesterday i sooo regret not going to the edu fair which was held at PISA!! my friend told me she saw my crush there!!! =.=" i realise that it's always my friends who see him, not me...well, it's good though because i sent him a msg thru msn yesterday afternoon and immediately he went away...so i guess he was away at the edu fair...phew! i thought he was avoiding me...in case u think i'm paranoid...well, kinda...but it's because i suspect there's a prob going on between him and his gf, so i kinda sent him a msg saying 'hey, how's everything going? is everything fine?' hoping he could spill his heart out to me...

oh, forgot to tell the whole world! i'm so over that guy in my course! he's juz another lil crush...nothing compared to my 5-year-long crush! =D i know i sound mean...hehe...yesterday i woke up and the very first thing i did was deleting all his sms's!! without any hesitation...i felt so relieved after that!

hereby i wanna dedicate a song to my crush (haha...)

Going Crazy - Natalie

Ever since the day you went away you left me lonely and cold
My life just hasn't been the same ohh baby, nooo
When I looked into your eyes the moment that I let you go
I just broke down (down)

Baby if I ever get the chance to be with you again I would sacrifice
Cuz the feeling that I feel within
No other man would ever make me feel so right
It's nice to smile when I get your phone call at night
But I'd rather have you here with me, right next to me
I miss the way you hold me tight

[Bridge]
I gotta let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world, for you I'd do anything

[Chorus 2x]
Thats right baby I'm going crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me
I'm in love with you baby

Break it down now
I'll tell you what I feel
From the moment that I met you it's been so damn real
My heart seems to skip another beat
Everytime we speak, I can't believe I feel so weak
Tell me that you really need me
and you want me and you miss me
And you love me I'm your lady
I'll be around waiting for you
I'll put it down be the woman for you

I'm falling so deeply, crazy over for you
I'm calling, calling out to you what am I going to do?
It's true, no fronting
It's you and no other i can no longer go on without you
I'll just break down (down)

[Bridge]
I gotta let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world, for you I'd do anything

[Chorus 2x]
That's right baby I'm going crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me I'm in love with you baby

Valentine's Day...

well, yesterday was valentine's day (fei4 hua4!) and being the single as i was...i wasn't even bothered by what day it was and how i was gonna spend my night...actually i did plan to go for a dinner and a movie with an old friend of mine in high school....but due to the bio test the next day, i decided to cancel the 'date' to study at home...

anyway, i was a lil bothered by my friends though...u see, i mix with 3 other girls who have been having bf's their whole lives (juz exaggerating a lil...but it's kinda true too la...if u get what i mean) so, let's call them A, B and C.

A : she has a bf who's gone for NS and her bf is like the best in the whole wide world...y do i say that? haha...well, her mom likes her bf very very much! they are like 'engaged' d...he gave her an 'engagement' ring...A even claimed that he ties her shoe lace when they go out..like...when they're talking, all of a sudden he'll kneel down to tie for her...so sweet right?!

B : her bf is her childhood friend and is studying (and/or) living in aus...and they've been together for at least 1 year i think...not sure...anyway, they broke up on the sunday before valentine's day...

C : she's seldom single...and alot of guys are after her...she even got 9 guys asking her out on valentine's day! well, she juz broke up with her bf a week ago...

so, what about them? lol...i don't hate them or anything...it's juz that for the whole day, A's been saying 'this is the worst valentine's day ever!!!' and B, she was like so depressed...and the other 2 was like so engrossed with their 'valentine's day'...and everything i say juz wouldn't make her feel better...then C, she's been looking forward to the romantic dinner...i juz couldn't stand it!!! haha...not because i don't have a date la...

oh, and because that guy...in my previous post...who i thought i liked...i think he hates me...so i told this friend of mine...and we made a bet. if he ever opens his mouth to ask me out/confess/whatever-that-has-got-to-do-with-Vday on valentine's day, then i'll lose the bet by chia-ing her ice cream...and since i think he hates me so i was really confident in winning the bet...

the day before, we thought it was His birthday because he told a friend of mine a day before that it was his birthday the next (haha...get what i mean?) and so we bought him a card and he wanted us to chia him baskin robbins' ice cream!but after that when i reached home, i sms-ed him and actually persuaded him to chia!

so...back to valentine's day...(haha..i know, it's confusing) he planned to chia all of us (my friends and i + his friends)after class...my friends asked me..and i wasn't sure to say yes or no...cause i still wanna win that bet i had with my friend...so i wanted to see if he would actually ask me...=P then C kinda helped my other friend to win the bet! she wrote a note telling that guy's friend, D to ask him to ask me! get it? haha...and D got the wrong msg and asked me if i wanted to go...C turned around and started giving him faces...haha...that was y i knew! and that D still didn't get the msg! he asked me for the 2nd time! and C was like 'wei...u chia meh?y u ask?!' it was hilarious la!! then THE guy opened his mouth! oh gosh...i wish he hadn't!! 'u wanna come with us for baskin robbins??' ARGHHH!! i lost!!! i can't believe it!!! then i said 'ok lo....' =/ yeahla...then he dropped all of us (me and my friends and 2 of his friends) back...

end of my valentine's day...lol...it was funny la overall...=D being single rocks too! *wink*

i guess...

i'm having PMS...

i don't feel like talking, eating etc..

the other day i helped my group members type the assignment and i was so pissed that they didn't check it BEFORE i typed...but only AFTER i've printed all 8 copies for them! (of course i didn't show that i was pissed) typing this out juz made me angry again...BAH!

i was watching my korean drama halfway when my dad came in and switched it off! (i had to stop it to have my lunch) and the worse thing is the cd player inside my parents room is kinda cacat...so i can't find back the time where i stopped...

p/s : no mood to check this post too....don't care about the grammatical errors....

Ladder 49

yes...i'm overwhelmed with emotions again...

this movie is really touching...and sad....

i cried...

p/s : i think i should restrain myself from watching too much sad movies...*sniff*

Memoirs of a Geisha

watched it with my family yesterday evening...

was too overwhelmed with emotions...so wasn't in the mood to update...

i LOVE the movie!! it's so sad....but then i'm quite happy for Sayuri in the end...at least the one that she truly loves loves her too....

my friend told me that the ending in the book is different though...she said it's sad...well, now i'm not sure whether to read the book...*sigh*

well, i cried at the end...so touching...*sniff*

Words i should confess daily

I am a child of God
God is my Abba Father-my Daddy God!
God loves me just the way I am
God lives in me and I live in Him
I am a person of infinite worth
I have been created unique in every way
It is OK to love myself and take care of myself
I am created by God for every good work
God has called me and chosen me as His own
God is changing me every day to be more like Him
I am a person of great purpose and destiny
I am given talents, gifts and abilities by God
I am able to achieve great things in God
I am abounding in grace and hope
I am blessed- empowered to succeed in life
Greater is God in me than the devil in the world
I don't have to be afraid of anything for God is with me
Every bad habit I have is losing control over me
Even my enemies are at peace with me now
God is thinking good thoughts about me right now
God is planning the paths that will lead me to my purpose
I have visions and dreams from the Holy Spirit regularly
I am led daily by the Holy Spirit
I will walk in good health and live a long life
I love Jesus wholeheartedly
I love people fervently
Jesus loves me forever