Sunday, July 09, 2006

confessions

sigh...

tell me...y life has to be so cruel to me?!

it happens all the time...ok, not exactly the same thing all the time...but when it comes to having crushes on guys..it does happen all the time...

take C for instance...when i finally gave up liking him (crush), his friends planned a huge prank to play on us...during lunch last thurs...it was as if we were a couple...everyone purposely left a place for me next to him...which wasn't the worst thing that happened that day...the worst things were my friend on my left kept pushing me to knock into him...which i think was totally rude!! then the girls opposite us were snapping our pics away without my permission!!

ARGHHHH...i was stuck there...with them...all 10+ of them...laughing at me...sheesh...and that idiotic guy, C didn't do anything to stop them...u know how it felt that moment?? it felt like i was living a nightmare...everybody's pointing and laughing at me...but no one's there to save me! i nearly nearly cried...to be honest...but then i know crying because of this is sooo not worth it...and crying's never my thing...so i sucked it up and put up a brave front...

what i felt was a mixture of emotions! anger + humiliation + scared + unknown feeling
i called a few friends of mine...hoping to be more calm listening to their voices...but no one answered my call...it's either they're in class, or they're in choir practice...*sigh*

then the next day (Fri) he 'kinda' confessed to me on msn...he typed "i luv u"...=S WHAT?!? when i'm still pissed?!? please! i'm sooo over him...now he tells me that!? what a great time...i thought i saw wrongly...so i asked "huh?" and he went "nth nth nth nth" phew~

and today...i got to chat with my bestest high school friend on msn...and the guy she likes confessed to her! if only mine is also like that....=( i really hate guy issues...can't a girl have some peace?! =S

p/s: right now, i'm dreading monday to come...because that's the day i'm gonna see him again...in college...we're friends..we're cool...i've gotta remind myself this...phew~wish me luck! whoever's reading this...

6 comments:

pink positive!! said...

yo..chill...treat it as a prank too~!...if u join in the fun and laugh with them, i bet they have nothing else to talk and perli about!!..

like me for instance, i was "coupled" with some guy i barely know, and the rumuor spread faster than lightning~!...but i just join in the fun, take it as a joke and casually....

so no worries!!...it's all gonna be alright~!!

*bout the confessions thingy..just treat it as a joke too~!....i bet if he really likes u, he'll try harder and more romantic ways to tackle u, right?...

i'm just an sms away....[sorry for not answering ur call...:S] but i'm oways there for u~!.. *winks*

Mickell said...

hope everything's fine with you now :) I wish i can re-live my days of teen angst. Ha, ha, ha...! :D

Lin Whatever! said...

well, it wasn't only teasing...and i DID laugh about it...but that day wasn't juz teasing...there were PUSHING and SNAPPING of pics! =S sheesh...but luckily i'm over it already...the people involved in the prank didn't acknowledge me today in college...probably afraid of me because i was mad...i didn't show i was mad though...u know how it feels when u try to laugh it off...but u can't...and then u feel like ur tears are gonna flow down any min...that was how i felt...but no guy is worth my tears =) i'm ok already! haha...see how fast i 'recover' =P

Lin Whatever! said...

mickell: oops...been quite occupied to reply ur e-mail =) haha...well, i haven't been losing my temper for a long long time already...it felt so good that day...losing my temper at home, when i was telling my friend about what happened! =D

queenlyd said...

hey.. guess wat? the exact same thing happened to me in hsc too!.. hmmm.. there was this guy that they keep spreading rumours abt us being together.. and they also forced him to sit beside me once and took pictures.. lol.. well, at least he was resisting unlike C..
so dun get mad/upset over it ok? i guess this kinda thing happens to someone in every college year? cheer up.. besides.. i think there shud be a little truth to C liking u.. ;)

Lin Whatever! said...

queenlyd > haha...well, he does...and i used to like him...but then i'm quite happy being friends with him...so...i hope nothing ever changes =) thanks for letting me know i'm not alone...lol