Saturday, September 29, 2007

Left out...

Decided to call my parents and talk to them before uni starts once again. After the phone rang for 2 minutes, I reached the voicemail. No one was home. I guess they went out to run errands again.

So I thought, why don't I call to Singapore where my aunts and cousins are at? Since the birth of my cousin sister's baby boy, my aunts flew to Singapore to take care of him and to visit my cousin sister at the same time. I called...after ringing for ever, the engaged tone was heard. Eh?

Oh! Should've called the landline, not mobile phone!! Dialled again, this time the landline phone. Hearing my cousin's voice at the other end makes me wanna burst out crying!! Finally, a voice that I've heard for years!! I miss everyone!! ='(

And as I expected, I called at the wrong time. They were about to go out. Everyone's happy over her newborn. I just feel sad. I'm happy that she's got her newborn but I'm sad because I'm not there to share it with her, with everyone. Suddenly I realised, it's time for me to grow up. When I was younger, I used to stick to my cousins cause they're the closes relatives to me. They are like my own sisters but now, 1 is married, the other 1 is busy working in Singapore...I'm no longer the youngest of all. Her newborn baby boy is.

Not that I'm sad because no one's gonna give me attention anymore. I'm sad because it's time for me to face reality. It's time to grow up. That's what I've been dreading. I wanna be a kid forever. No matter what, I know that someday I'll get married and have kids of my own. Now...I feel like I'm left out...I'm not even sure if my family remembers that there's a me here, in Australia, waiting eagerly to go back home...

*sob* Feel like crying...I guess, when a person gets married, that person will have to live her/his own life with her/his spouse. It's funny how sometimes I just wanna grow up and sometimes I wanna be a kid forever. ARRGGGHHHH!! Emo-ing again..which is not good at all!!

It' ok...I must cheer up!! Going to the beach for my friend's 19 birthday...but it's so freezing cold!! =S I think I'll juz freeze to death...


Friday, September 28, 2007

I feel like dancing

Just came up after watching So You Think You Can!! I feel like dancing already!! It's true what Leonard said the other day. He said life is too short, learn whatever you wanna learn when you still can. So, dancing will be one of the things I wanna do in life! I'm 19, still young...even my parents started learning ballroom dancing at 50+? See? We're never too old to do anything =)

I wanna dance!! But I'm not an expressive person...I can't move when people are around. Basically, I don't really express my feelings when people are looking. >.< This is really bad...I'm always amazed by dancers, how they can dance like no one's looking with full of energy and vibe! It's just so...WOW!

Oh well, gonna learn ballet when I get back home...hopefully I don't get too distracted in sleeping until I forget about dancing XP

Oh boy, it's late...


High School Musical 2

I'm hooked onto High School Musical 2!!!!

I know it's not as good as the 1st one but I'm still a sucker for high school romances! =P So far I've watched HSM 2 for 4 times already XD

So romantic ok?! OK, maybe not THAT romantic...but still...I just wanted to cry when Gabriella wanted to break up with Troy and when she sang that break up song (Gotta Go My Own Way).

I'm stuck in one of my fantasies again!! I think E is right, I'm still stuck in the past...not fully grown up yet...still searching XP I WANNA GO BACK TO HIGH SCHOOL AND GET MYSELF A HIGH SCHOOL SWEETHEART!! <3

Gotta Go My Own Way
I’ve got to move on and be who I am

I just don’t belong here
I hope you understand
We might find our place in this world someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way

And when Troy sang a duet (Every day) with Gabriella...WHOA!! So romantic!!!!

Every Day
Once in a lifetime

Means there's no second chance
So I believe that you and me
Should grab it while we can

Make it last forever
And never give it back

I know the acting kinda sucks and all but WTH, this show is for kids anyway! =D


Thursday, September 27, 2007


...I don't know where to start.

OK...I start from last Friday =P

I baked a cake and rolled sushis last Friday. It was easy baking a cake. All I had to do was mix the ingredients until it's smooth and then transfer the mixture into a erm...mold and put it into a preheated oven! =D However, the cake came out looking looked like a volcano >.< Looks don't tasted great! HAH to all those who are laughing at me now!! *blek*

It was my first time making sushi. Well, not exactly made made, but...fine!! I ROLLED a sushi for the first time...=D It was quite messy...rice sticking on my fingers and at the same time had to make sure no rice sticks on the seaweed outside =S I seriously disappointed myself. The first thought that comes to my mind is: I can never be a housewife!!!! Such a failure, man! But it's ok...cause this is my first time. P2 was teasing me of never gonna be a good housewife and I said I'll find a guy who can cook. What she said next made sense too. Guys who know how to cook expect their wives to know how to cook as well. True...very true.

While rolling sushi's, P2 kept mentioning P, which was quite weird cause everything seemed to fall into place. Like how guys know how to cook expect their wives to cook or guys who know how to cook are difficult cause they're picky in their food. That's just super weird. Not only that, P2 will tell me out of the blue, "Don't (fill in verb), P (fill in like/dislike) eating (noun)" XD

It was really fun though...E was responsible of cutting the sushi and she found quite a few with only rice and without any fillings...oops~ We ate those without fillings =P I think I'm sick of sushi for the meantime.

2 nights ago I watched High School Musical 2...been waiting for it to be out for ages!! Awww~ So romantic!! Sometimes I wish I'm back in high school and I have a boyfriend...haha...high school sweetheart <3 Like what C said "High school love is the purest and sweetest" Just one of my fantasies...I'm getting old!

Anyway, went out with J yesterday morning to get J2 her birthday present which falls on this Friday. We had no idea what to get her so I suggested we make her a big birthday card with photos of her memories stuck in it =) We set off to Lincraft to buy cards and then we went back to J's place to save some photos into my pendrive and memory card to be developed in one of the shops at Rundle Mall. We were so scared that J2 would see us with our big cards cause then it wouldn't be a surprise anymore. J made sure that J2's not home then she called me to go up. Oh yeah, J and J2 are housemates.

After choosing photos to be developed, we headed to 3 Store to develop the pictures cause E went there to develop before and it was instant. Unfortunately, the machines at 3 Store were out of order. Therefore we headed to Harvey Norman, the one introduced by J. Oh boy, we had a hard time figuring out how to use those darn machines!! I think we took half an hour just to choose and edit our photos. =.= Technology...

And it took us by wasn't instant. So we had to go for our lunch and come back to collect the photos. When there are too many choices, it's hard to decide. J and I took like 10 minutes to decide on what to eat and so we went to Southern Cross. I thought maybe I should settle for some Tandoori cause it makes me feel at home so we did. The curry turned out to be super duper salty!! *faints* Luckily I brought water, if not I would've died of dehydration.

Collected the photos and wow!! They're so nice!!!! I love hard copy photos....memories start to rush back to me! Excuse me for the boring style of writing. I'm not in the mood for creative writing...LOL J and I were so excited to do art and craft!! Haven't done it for ages...Thought it would be really quick to make a birthday card...little did we know...we took more than an hour to make it cause we couldn't come up with ideas for the captions of the photos. =S 9 photos were developed but 3 couldn't fit in so I took home 2 myself and J took 1.

ARRGGGHHHH!! Wasted too much time today....later!


Tuesday, September 25, 2007

3 in 1

Hmmm...let's see. I haven't been feeling very well since last Thursday. I keep having this headache that makes me feel like my head is gonna be blown off any moment!! ARRGGGHHHH! I don't know why, but I never had headaches in my life. This is the first time...Insisted not to take any medicine cause I believe in recovering naturally =P However I broke my no-medicine policy on Saturday night.

On Saturday, I woke up at 6:56am because P wanted to leave at 7:45am to the leadership workshop kairos at Marketplace Church which ends at 5pm. To cut a long story short, I'll just tell the main points. There was this "game" which requires us in a group to do different things. For me, I had to do duck walk. So I ended up having sore thigh muscles =S Going down the stairs and sitting on the toilet seat are a pain for me now! >.< Anyway, I reached home at 6pm, had a massive headache so I went and had a nap until 6:30pm which is dinner time. After having my dinner, I thought that it wasn't good to sleep right after a meal, so I listened to songs and online for a while until 8pm.

Was sleeping very very soundly when someone knocked my door at around 10pm. Well, because of my famous pyjamas, the first question that guy, X, asked me was, "Why aren't you in your pyjamas and you're sleeping already?" when I opened the door. I just simple replied, "Headache". O.O The next moment I know was he asked me to wait and I went back to bed, wrapped up in my blanket and he came back with a glass of lukewarm water and a Panadol. I told him I didn't wanna take any medicine but he insisted so I took it and swallowed it with lukewarm water. Everything was a blur...I think I remember him asking me to take Vitamin C the next morning or something.

So, many may be asking what's the "3 in1" in the title for XP 1. headache, 2. sore thigh muscles, and 3. time of the month!! *sigh* Being a girl is sometimes tough. But thank God that since I came here, no more cramps for me during the time of the month =) So it was all ok... I don't think I'll be updating my blog so frequent now as I'm starting to panic. Exams are just around the corner and deadlines are nearing.

p/s: I realised that blogging is a really good way to keep friends updated! =) I will try to blog whenever I can. Miss and love you guys!


Friday, September 21, 2007

Falling sick

Woke up yesterday morning feeling my throat being tight. Tried to utter a word but no sound came out...after clearing my throat twice, a coarse voice was heard. Didn't feel like talking the whole day, felt so miserable. =(

Today, I had yummy egg for breakfast. However, I didn't feel as happy as I would have been. >.< Still miserable that my throat is tight. My body keeps screaming to be wrapped up in my blanket; my eyes try to shut themselves every second I try to read my novel. I feel like dying!!!!!

*sigh* Planned to start studying today. Hopefully I am able to after my nap...


Thursday, September 20, 2007

Summer Holiday Mood XP

Am chatting with a Penang friend who has gone back to Penang for her holiday.

Hehe...since I'm having my semester break now, my mind wandered to summer holidays which is at the end of the year!

Things I wanna do during summer holidays:
  1. Learn ballet (adult class of course)
  2. Learn a language
  3. Learn how to play the guitar
  4. Arrange my photos in an album
  5. Eat every kind of hawker food before coming back to Aus
  6. Sleep
  7. Find a part time job (doesn't matter if the pay is low)
  8. Get a haircut before coming back to Aus
  9. Practise swimming (hopefully)
  10. Watch at least 1 drama series
  11. Shopping (never liked shopping but I have to shop for stuff cause stuff here is expensive)
  12. Meet and catch up with old friends
  13. Learn driving!!
So far I've got 13 things to do during summer holidays! Wheeee~


Wednesday, September 19, 2007

Fate of Ee Lin's Hand

Last week I think it was Wednesday, I woke up and found the back of my hand feeling extremely itchy, so I scratched it but it got more itchy so I scratched harder until it bled a little, which you can see on the right side of my hand in the picture. The mark on the left was caused by this burn I got while buying hot food at the uni cafeteria =S

According to Esther, my hand looks like Doraemon's =.=
(She couldn't stop laughing at it while persuading me to see the doctor!)

The second day, I decided to put on a band aid just in case I found it itchy and started scratching it again

On the 3rd day, the swollen has already subsided

I totally regretted seeing the GP!!! Ok...nevermind. No point crying over spilt milk. That's it...for those who are curious about my hand. =P


Tuesday, September 18, 2007


Woke up early today despite sleeping late the night before. Had a quick breakfast again with M and off I went to the city to see the GP. Didn't want to go at first but my mom insisted I go although the swelling on my hand has subsided because she said, "Just in case" -.-

The GP heard what I had to say, had a look at my hand, typed some stuff on his laptop and it was over. All he said was, "It might have been a spider bite, it looks OK now. Tell you what you should do, go to the mall, buy a surface spray, and spray on the walls in your room, just in case spiders or other insects are lurking around" =.= Oookkkaaayyy...No prizes for guessing right how much he charged me. A freaking amount of AUD46.10!! What's that 10 cents for anyway?! ARRGGGHHHH! I should have just be prodigal and not heed my mom's advice! That's like what...RM138.30!! With that amount, I can pay for half of Linkin Park's concert tickets!! I decided not to go for the concert cause 1. my mom didn't allow cause it's expensive, 2. I felt guilty spending so much, and 3. it's AUD99.90 (RM300) for a ticket!! All 3 reasons are related to $$$ and I had to pay what, RM48.30 after claiming back AUD30 from OSHC! =S

*sigh* Enough about $$$...though I seem stingy, I don't care anymore! It's time I learn how to say NO to temptations and start saving. No spending unless it's on food or something necessary. Hopefully next year my lecture schedule would not be so tight and so I can work!! Well, not 100% because of money that I want to work though. Been wanting to work and experience how it's like working since finishing SPM, but never gotten myself to.

After seeing the GP, I headed to the State Library. I wanted to borrow Hopeless Romantic once again cause I haven't finished reading it when I returned it but I couldn't find the book. *sigh* Wanted to read the ending of a romantic story...=P So, I thought maybe it's time for me to read those classical books (e.g. Pride and Prejudice, Sense and Sensibility etc.) but I couldn't find them either. Suddenly I was in the mood for thrillers, so woohoo~ I borrowed 2 books by Sidney Sheldon and a chick novel by Sophie Kinsella.

Was reading "In the mirror" by Sidney Sheldon on the bus on the way home (it's rather funny calling Hosanna my home, cause it's not exactly my home >.<). Nearly missed my stop! When I looked up and saw the majestic building of Hosanna Heights, my heart skipped a beat and in a split second, my butt got off the seat and my hand was reaching for the button to ring the bell! Phew~ Didn't want to walk uphill if I'd missed the stop!!

Holidays is the time when I have time to myself to reflect upon my life, myself and stuff around me. It is also the time when I'm more sensitive to comments cause I know that I'll be able to reflect on them when my mind is not occupied. While having lunch, P came down with his bag. There weren't any people sitting at the table he used to sit at, so he put down his bag on one of the chairs at the table I was sitting at. Then I was talking to this guy X and X suddenly teased me (I couldn't remember what) so I said, "Stupid X!" Out of silence, P said I should not call people stupid. I wasn't offended and wasn't sure if he said it seriously or jokingly though but it got me thinking.

When I call someone stupid, I don't really mean stupid stupid, but just an expression. And when I say it, it doesn't mean that I'm angry or what, it's just how I express myself. Maybe, just maybe I do offend people unconsciously, but I do not call people I'm not close with stupid and people who I'm close with know that I don't mean what I say. So, what should I do about this? Restrict myself from saying the things I'm used to saying? Or, just restrict myself when I'm around certain people? Sometimes I feel I can't satisfy every single person. I just wanna be the bubbly and happy-go-lucky person I used to be. On the other hand, I want to be this perfect girl, which I know is quite impossible. At times I want to grow up as soon as possible (part of the reason is to show P I'm not that immature girl he thinks I am) but I just can't. It's not time's not meant to be that way. I'm proud to say that I'm mature in some ways though. =)

A friend let me listen to this japanese song entitled "I remember you" sung by Yui and I think I'm addicted to it...=S One more song to my addicted song list. Haha~ It's only Monday and so much has happened. Hmmm...I think this holiday would be quite eventful ;)


Monday, September 17, 2007

Beautiful Sunday....

Woke up later than usual to go to church. Had a quick breakfast of toast bread with butter (yum yum!!!!) and 2 glasses of milk. Off we went!

I think today's message was really good...=) It was about loving God more than the world...

Came back and the first thing I did was to go online XP Managed to catch up with 2 of my high school friends...and as usual, we have a little girl talk...hehe~ and it led to our usual question - Have boyfriend already or not? =D and my usual answer - No

I'm soooo excited to know my friend's "love" story though...cause this time when I asked our usual question, her answer wasn't No, but Dunno *nyahaha* She's gonna tell me the story after her exams!! Woohoo~~ Can't wait...suddenly I realised how we've all grown up...*sob* Everyone's getting attached one by one...*giggles*

Beautiful sunday reminds me of this song by Daniel Boone:

Sunday morning, up with the lark
I think I'll take a walk in the park
Hey, hey, hey, it's a beautiful day

I've got someone waiting for me
When I see her I know that she'll say
Hey, hey, hey, it's a beautiful day

Hi, hi, hi, beautiful Sunday
This is my, my, my, beautiful day
When you say, say, say, say that you love me
Oh, my, my, my it's a beautiful day

Birds are singing, you by my side
Let's take a car and go for a ride
Hey, hey, hey, it's a beautiful day
We'll drive on and follow the sun
Makin' Sunday go on and on
Hey, hey, hey, it's a beautiful day

Hi, hi, hi, beautiful Sunday
This is my, my, my, beautiful day
When you say, say, say, say that you love me
Oh, my, my, my, it's a beautiful day

Hi, hi, hi, beautiful Sunday
This is my, my, my, beautiful day
When you say, say, say, say that you love me
Oh, my, my, my it's a beautiful day

It's a classical oldie...<3


Sunday, September 16, 2007


This post is an outdated post. Was supposed to post it yesterday but was too occupied...

Anyway, woke up from a nightmare yesterday morning!! =S It was super duper scary!! Nothing about ghosts and ghouls but it was the worst nightmare that I ever had!!

Was back in high school. My friends and I were carrying out some chemistry experiment in the lab. We had our own set of apparatus and because my friend didn't have enough test tubes, I lent her mine. Then the teacher said we had to finish our experiment by that day itself and I haven't because of insufficient test tubes. My friend felt bad so she offered her sandwich to me. I didn't want to accept it because then she wouldn't have anything to eat for lunch. However, after much persuasion, I took it and gave it a bite. It tasted sooooooooooooo yummy!!! When I put down my sandwich after the first bite, the sausages in the sandwich started moving! O.o Half of me thought that there might me something alive in it; half of me didn't wanna think about it because it was so yummy!! I asked my friend why the sausages were moving and she gave me an illogical explanation which I believed. After my second bite, I sensed something extremely wrong so I went to the back of the lab, near where the dustbin was, and threw the sandwich on the floor. O.O Walaueh!! Out came all the white-coloured, fat, juicy worms!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *SCREAMS* Thank God I haven't swallowed any of the sandwich! I was still chewing on it....I spat out the sandwich as well....EWWWWW~ So freaking gross....*vomits*

I thought my day would go downhill after that. In fact, I was dreading Friday the whole week simply because I had a quiz on that day which I did not finish preparing AND it would be my first time being a backup singer at OCF =P Not that I'm not happy being a backup singer...but I'm!! Never done such things before...=S

Went looking for a GP with E and couldn't find it. well, not exactly, we found the place but we thought we got the wrong place so we went with L, P2 and M. Made an appointment for Monday morning 10:30am. Hopefully by then I don't need to go anymore. Was so hungry after that, so we went for Hungry Jack's!! Yum yum!! I had a cheese Whopper and it was super delicious...haven't had fast food for ages...After gobbling my Whopper, I rushed to uni for human physiology tutorial! *indigestion* hehe~

Now that Friday has come and gone, I'm proud to say that yesterday (Friday) was a pretty good day over all!! Very very content...It's amazing how God made things turned out just so perfectly. Totally out of expectations! My backup partner, P2, is an "old" backup singer...she was really nice in giving me advices and tips on how to sing...So thankful for her =) I really enjoyed myself although was a little nervous...WOOHOO~

Was super duper extremely happy and hyper last night...haven't laughed like that for ages!! Felt so goooooood. Went to bed with a smile on my face XD No dreams, no nightmares last night which is cool! M called me this morning at 10am to have breakfast with her. Now I'm sitting here while listening to my current favourite song Just So You Know XP and Human...lalala~

p/s: All the best to N for her STPM which is just around the corner!! I know you can do it, girl!! I still remember you were the one who motivated me during PMR year. LOL I didn't start studying until I saw you doing all those exercises! =P Miss you loads...*hugs* take care alright, you don't wanna fall sick during your major exam.


Thursday, September 13, 2007

Just so you know

Was in E's room talking when the song entitled "Just so you know" came on...We didn't talk for a few seconds. I was listening to the lyrics to the song:

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

Then she started laughing and said it suited my situation so much!! XD Well, it does...but I'm so content right now, not thinking about anything else anymore =) Right now I just wish we could be how we used to be. I miss having a proper conversation with him...Now I'm so afraid to see him because I don't know what to do or say =S I'll just end up saying something wrong again...and again...I'm not putting any hope in it...I'm just going with the flow...following the path God leads me to.

Fell in love with this song...

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around, I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know

It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop


This emptiness is killing me
And I'm wondering why I've waited so long
Looking back I realize
It was always there just never spoken
I'm waiting here...been waiting here


p/s: semester break's coming REALLY soon...woohoo~ so looking forward to it...hopefully I'll be able to study 24/7 then XP yeah right...wish me all the best!!


Wednesday, September 12, 2007

Indescribable day >.<

How did my day start off?

Woke up reluctantly, realised that the books I borrowed from Adelaide Uni (AU) are already overdue so I msged P who's studying in AU if he's still home so that I could pass the books to him to return to the library.

While rushing down to the dining hall, I caught a glimpse of my umbrella outside my door and I was having a dilemma whether to take it or not but I didn't eventually cause I thought it wouldn't rain. How wrong was I!!!!! The day when I don't bring an umbrella, it rains!! =S Greeaatt...Had to walk half the journey to uni with droplets all over my sweater.

After Psychology lecture (which was pretty interesting by the way) I walked to the bus stop and thank God rain had stopped then. Managed to catch the bus...phew~ that means I get to use the previous validated ticket! *proud of myself*

During lunch, the food was ok...wasn't too bad with sweet chilli sauce =D although some thought that the noodles were crap. Anyway, I suddenly thought to myself after my nap "Hmmm...maybe I should walk to uni later to save money..." Well, cause usually on Tuesdays, I have to validate my ticket twice, which is quite a waste. What do YOU know?! My class ended early! =.= Uh huh...and I could've used my ticket twice if I hadn't walked to uni!! Great! It's alright...

So I thought maybe I could just walk home but I bumped into C, who's my bus-ride mate, at the bus stop. Yeah yeah, I guess you know what I was gonna do then. I waited for the bus with her and suddenly she turned around and asked me, "Do you have an extra red concession ticket?" O.O WHAT?! At that moment, I was like, "SHOOOOT!! No! I just remembered I didn't bring a new ticket!" *faints* I was hysterical (a lil exaggerating) cause I was supposed to save money!! Buying a one-way ticket is like what, RM6.00!! ='( C offered to pay for my trip but how could I accept?!! It's just not right! OK FINE!! I made a vow that I'll save money after my semester break!!! Gonna walk to uni, not buy food unnecessarily and not go out for entertainment (wait, how am I supposed to do that?! My friends are going to the cinema to watch Hairspray next week! >.<) *SIGH* We waited and waited and waited...I suddenly remembered that P comes home together with M2 so I asked her to ask M2 if P is with her!! She said, " need wan la! Not with her wan la!" I was thinking in my heart, "Yeah right!! They finish class together...they must be together!" When the bus finally appeared at the junction, I got all anxious =S I didn't know what to say or do if I do actually see P!! This was how our conversation went:

Me: C!! Help me see if P is on the bus!!
C: No...I only see M2
M: Are you sure?!?! Look carefully!
C: No la..I really see M2 only!
M: But the bus is so far...are you sure?! Look again!!
C: No...I'm sure he's not on the bus...

The bus stopped right in front of us and so we got on it and I didn't dare look around the bus just in case I see him >.< I know, I'm a coward...I think my heart was going to jump outta my chest was pounding so hard on my chest wall! After buying our tickets, the first person I saw was P!! Wanted to dig a hole and bury my head in it I tell you!!!! Half of me already expected it, but another half of me wanted to believe that maybe he's not on the bus...OMG...Didn't dare look at him in the eye...STUPID GIRL, C!!!!!!!!!

Now I'm typing this...another 3 minutes to dinnertime...HELP!! How do I face P?! =S

p/s: I know I'm overreacting...I just can't help it!! Any good advices from more experienced people?! XS


Pointless post

Was stressed over my assignment for the past week. Happy that I've submitted it in last nite through AssignIT...slept so soundly last night without dreams about assignments...

I'm wishing holidays would come soon, so that exams will come soon and end-of-the-year hols will be here soon...then it'd be time to fly home!!

Feeling sleepy all the time lately...@.@ Right now I feel like snuggling under my covers again.

p/s: It's 911 today. I never felt anything for the past years about 911 but I think now I know how those families who lost people they love feel...


Sunday, September 09, 2007

If tomorrow never comes...

...I'm sure I'd regret not doing the things I needed and wanted to do.

Just a few days ago, I suddenly got into one of my think-about-life modes. Was chatting with P and I got a LITTLE emo so I sent him a message wishing him all the best. As blur as he always is, he asked me, "all the best for what?" So I replied, "studies, friendship, life, present, future, good times, bad times, love etc." and he asked, "why suddenly say such thing..." I said, "cause u'll never know if there's a tomorrow...."

Apparently he got freaked out and sent my friend, E, a message to ask her what was up with me XP I just wanted the best for P even if I'm not the girl he's looking for in the future. I'm just so glad I got to know him as a really good friend, that's all.

The next day, I was in the mood to youtube. So I decided to look for the video to the song "Heaven" by DJ Sammy, which I set as my ringtone on my mobile. As I was searching for it, I stumbled upon this version of the song my friend, Prasana, sent me last year. It's a tribute to the 911 incident that happened in 2001 (i think =S). After watching it, tears actually rolled down my cheeks! *sob* I never wanna regret not telling the people I love that I love them. My parents came to my mind after that and I'm so thankful I have parents, parents who love me.

Yesterday night I got online and as I found my friend's name on my MSN online contact list, her personal message was: r.i.p. anthony
You know that something bad has happened when you see that 3 dreadful letters: RIP. Didn't manage to talk to her as I went offline early to go to bed. So I went online just an hour ago and I got her offline message saying that anthony's her friend she hasn't seen for a while. I don't know why but I had a feeling I needed to check her blog just in case she spilt everything there and yeah, she did. Overwhelmed by emotions again when I finished reading her blog.

It's true that friends make you who you are today, to a certain extent. My life wouldn't be the same if I hadn't known any of the people I know now. Was reading E's blog a moment ago as well and she said something about the world, truth and lies. How do we know if something is the truth or a lie, genuine or fake...And that some questions are just gonna be questions unanswered.

Too much has happened to the people around me... here's the tribute video to 911.

Friday, September 07, 2007

Pictures of us...

Michelle and I

The guys

Girl power!

The gay (?) XP

Cherry and Berry

That's where I wanna be...

Last Sunday, I dragged myself out of bed, had a quick shower and headed down to the dining hall to have a not-so-filling breakfast. I waited for my "chauffer" there to drive me to church but there wasn't anyone so I head back up to E's room to see if she's awake and yes she was. So I sat in her room talking...and suddenly they said the plan to go to be beach was on!! I decided to go to beach considering the fact that I need some relax time....

The weather was just nice...not too hot and not too cold. Of all clothings, I wore khakis cause I was lazy to change =P Had a quick nap before catching the bus to the city!! Woohoo~ I felt so happy that day...wasn't thinking much about P. L brought M's kite along as well to fly at the beach. The pic above (obviously) shows M's kite being flown by L2 and E. Sometimes I feel like I wanna be like the kite, but when you know that you're attached to a string and if the string breaks you'll definitely fall hard...which in this case is not very hard since the "ground" is the sand =S

The reason I feel like a kite is P keeps me hanging there...There's so many things that have been left unsaid. I'm not emo, don't worry. I've already made up my mind =) Beach...I'm so gonna come to you again after my exams...hopefully! I'll be back!! I really really enjoyed my day at the beach, eating yiros and having sauce dripping everywhere, feeling the sun rays on my hair, seeing couples whispering to each other, kids running around, and last but not least, us posing as "models" on the beach...HAHAHAHAHAHA~

I sometimes wish that life is always this simple...


Thursday, September 06, 2007

Upon request...

WARNING!! The following picture is NOT for the faint-hearted =D


My hairstylist and I (Esther was curling my hair and Michelle took over as Esther went for a shower)

So, Pras, Jenn, how's my hair?? Ignore my fringe please >.< doll ="P

p/s: Woke up today thinking of P. I've made up my mind to hold on, maybe, just maybe something good might happen. I promise myself that if I don't have the strength to hold on anymore, I'll let go. ^_*


Wednesday, September 05, 2007

Super duper extremely HAPPY!!!


I'm totally on cloud 9 right now!!! =D Someone bring me back to Earth, please.

After for like, what, 1 year of losing contact with A, A finally replied my e-mail!!!!!!!!!!!!! I always thought that A would never reply my e-mails ever again but I was wrong!!

I've always admired A for his maturity. To recall back 7 years ago, when I was only 12 and A was 15, A was nice and friendly to me although I was childish and annoying (maybe, sometimes). Honestly speaking I knew A through a friend whom I talked with on the phone 7 years ago. His friend gave me his phone number and as bored and "adventurous" as I was at that time, I called A up and we ended up talking for 4 hours! Still it was unbelievable that a 15-year-old teenage guy would even talk to a 12-year-old girl. (I was really really daring back then, calling up random people on my ICQ list to talk =P not anymore =S)

A can be considered as one of my role models. A is extremely independent and smart. A was the reason I tried so hard to improve my speaking in English (after leaving an international school and started speaking in Chinese). He taught me a lot of stuff, though not all directly. I used to be so happy whenever I see him online on my MSN list. Everytime I bumped into him at some shopping mall, my heart would skip a beat out of time and time would stand still. =D Old times...

I used to think if A actually knows I exist, but question no more, cause A does!! While checking my e-mail before dinner today, there it was!!! That familiar name I used to see in my e-mail inbox! A's reply! So he's been busy with study and work....

So I've moved on...I've come out of this fantasy world of mine and found P. Sadly, I think I'm in my own world once again...cause P doesn't seem to care. Half of me wants to give up, half of me thinks that anything is possible no matter how incredible. How I wish I can just live in my dreams where everything is perfect and I'll never get hurt by life's cold hard facts! HAIH~ Oh well, life's like this...and getting hurt is part of growing up as I'm a big girl now, no longer that naive 12-year-old.

Time to face reality, time to grow up and time to be strong!!

If tomorrow never comes, I hope everyone knows how much you guys mean to me and that I wish you guys all the best in everything in life! =) I know I'm starting to sound emo again...but really, you'll never know if there's a tomorrow...

p/s: I'm back to Earth, no more cloud 9...haih...=S Just made up my mind...someday we'll know...


Sunday, September 02, 2007

Saturday Morning

Woke up this morning with the feeling of just plopping down onto bed again and sleep -.-

Suddenly P came to my's been days since I last saw P.

It feels like P does not exist anymore...

Maybe P feels that way towards me as well.

Gotta do some productive stuff today!!

Gotta keep P out of mind =)


Saturday, September 01, 2007

Bad Day

Currently listening to Daniel Powter's Bad Day...cause obviously I had a bad day =(

It was nothing really big but...I just feel like a failure, unable to do anything right for once!

First I missed the morning bus because I had to go and take a quick shower, so was a lecture so it was alright, I could just read it off my textbook.

Then after lunch, I told myself that I can't miss my bus anymore so I prepared everything early. As I was walking out, I bumped into a friend who was washing his car, so I kind of stopped a few seconds to "talk" to him because he was "spraying" me with water...=S When I reached the top of the stairs of Hosanna Heights, there it was...the bus...drove pass me o.O ARRGGGGHHHH!!!!

And I thought to myself, missing 1 bus a day is enough!! So I practically ran to the other bus stop so that I could still reach uni in time for tutorial. Fortunately, the bus wasn't there yet so I waited there under the scorching sun! >.<

Reached for tutorial late, and realised that I forgot to bring my textbook!!! Tutorial handout was on the CNS (Central Nervous System) and were required to label the parts of the brain!!! What the....?!@#$%^& *sigh* Bad bad day...

Took the bus home alone...

However it wasn't a bad day after that =P Went to E's room and M, L and P were there. After deciding that we were going out to have dinner, L and P went back to their rooms to get ready. Suddenly E suggested to curl my hair so off we went to M's room to curl my hair ^_^ Seriously my hair was so curly I think I looked like a doll...

Woohoo~ =D I was so happy ok?! We had Korean food at Han Kuk Kwan in Chinatown. One of the waiters was so cute...hehehe~ That was M's waiter. According to E there's another cute

We were so full after that. By the time I finished my dinner, I've forgotten all about my bad day...=))