Decided to call my parents and talk to them before uni starts once again. After the phone rang for 2 minutes, I reached the voicemail. No one was home. I guess they went out to run errands again.
So I thought, why don't I call to Singapore where my aunts and cousins are at? Since the birth of my cousin sister's baby boy, my aunts flew to Singapore to take care of him and to visit my cousin sister at the same time. I called...after ringing for ever, the engaged tone was heard. Eh?
Oh! Should've called the landline, not mobile phone!! Dialled again, this time the landline phone. Hearing my cousin's voice at the other end makes me wanna burst out crying!! Finally, a voice that I've heard for years!! I miss everyone!! ='(
And as I expected, I called at the wrong time. They were about to go out. Everyone's happy over her newborn. I just feel sad. I'm happy that she's got her newborn but I'm sad because I'm not there to share it with her, with everyone. Suddenly I realised, it's time for me to grow up. When I was younger, I used to stick to my cousins cause they're the closes relatives to me. They are like my own sisters but now, 1 is married, the other 1 is busy working in Singapore...I'm no longer the youngest of all. Her newborn baby boy is.
Not that I'm sad because no one's gonna give me attention anymore. I'm sad because it's time for me to face reality. It's time to grow up. That's what I've been dreading. I wanna be a kid forever. No matter what, I know that someday I'll get married and have kids of my own. Now...I feel like I'm left out...I'm not even sure if my family remembers that there's a me here, in Australia, waiting eagerly to go back home...
*sob* Feel like crying...I guess, when a person gets married, that person will have to live her/his own life with her/his spouse. It's funny how sometimes I just wanna grow up and sometimes I wanna be a kid forever. ARRGGGHHHH!! Emo-ing again..which is not good at all!!
It' ok...I must cheer up!! Going to the beach for my friend's 19 birthday...but it's so freezing cold!! =S I think I'll juz freeze to death...