Love is selfless

因为爱他，所以希望他幸福就算不能跟他在一起。这就是所谓的真爱吧！^_^

我可能不会爱你

啊！终于看完了《我可能不会爱你》！结局我早就猜到，只是看到程又青和李大仁绕了这么一大圈才在一起真的为他们有点担心。嘻！看到他们终于结婚，我也感动得落泪。至少，李大仁对她十多年来的感情终于得到回报。

我说过，希望我的另一半是我的好朋友，或者至少认识了一段时间的朋友。每个听到这个的人就会跟我说这是不可能的事。但我还是坚持相信！

以下就是李大仁求婚的片段。不浪漫也可以很浪漫。没有人特定浪漫一定要昂贵的花朵或戒指，对不对？




After not having work for a day, I feel so refreshed and full of energy. *sigh* But the moment I woke up this morning for work, that feeling of dread came rushing back again. Well, at least I should be happy that I managed to stay awake the whole afternoon so that I can sleep earlier at night. Really really really really need to readjust my biological clock. Irregular sleeping times is making me age sooner than I should!

Thanks to my blog, I've been able to let out some things that I shouldn't keep inside. It's doing me good, since I don't have to rant to anyone. Anyway...signing out! Talk soon.

XOXO,
Me

大男人

Disclaimer: The content of this blog post is merely what I think, not directed to anyone in particular.

今天一早就跟我朋友的男朋友聊天。他呢，也是鼎鼎有名的大男人, 跟我朋友 (L) 交往了有四年。虽然 L 有时候会在我们面前控诉他，但是她脸上每次就是洋溢着幸福的光芒。我们看了也感受到那种幸福，跟着她一起说男朋友的“坏话”。哈哈！

在我这么多男生朋友里面，我看出了三种大男人：
1. 非常大男人，他对别人特别好，但就是对女生的家人不好的那种；
2. 浪漫型的，处处都会为女友着想，有好的总会跟女友分享，连找工和学习的地点都会以女的为主；
3. 隐藏式的呵护，在背后做很多关心女生的事情，女生的基本需要都照顾得很齐全，连对女生身边的朋友也一样照顾，但是死爱面子不说好听的话，处处为女的着想，虽然有时会让女的觉得被受控制。

有一次跟一位第二类大男人的男生朋友出去，不知道谈到什么，他说我绝对顶不了大男人。我当时给他的答案是要看是什么样的大男人吧！L 的男朋友就是第三种大男人。他会顾及我朋友的衣食住行。有很多人跟我说过，有一次 L 的朋友大失恋，有做傻事的倾向，L 的男朋友赶紧到她家去，确定她没做傻事，还苦口婆心地劝她，让她把她的混蛋前男友放下。还有一次我们去旅行，L 的男友联络不上她，明明就很着急却骂了 L，两人脸黑黑的。从中真地看出来他很担心她却没有好好表达。

其实，两人在一起虽然一方会用他自己的方式去爱、去表达并不代表他没你想象中爱你，只是看你有没有感受到罢了。既然两人相爱而在一起，那就应该紧紧抓着彼此不放才是。如果说受不了一些事情，那为何当初又可以接受？一个人应该很清楚自己要的是什么，能够接受什么，而不是在一起了才来说无法忍受什么。这样分手的时候真的会伤了明明就很爱你、关心你的那个人。也许当初能够接受的理由就是心里深处总希望对方会改变，但是事实就是对方很有可能是不会改变成你喜欢的那种人。很多时候情侣间都是少了沟通吧，才会导致两人之间很多问题的出现。

虽然很多身边的朋友都催我找个好男人，但是我觉得当个单身的女生也不错。看着这么多情侣的例子，我也更加了解自己所想的、所要的。这样一来，现在的我可以充实自己，调整自己，建造一个比以前有更自信的独立女性。当我找到对的的时候，我会加倍珍惜，也省下了许多不必要的心痛和伤痛，给未来的他最好的我！所以，请不要再催我了，终身大事是急不 得的。

希望每个情人终成眷属吧！就算现在还没找到，相信将来会找到！

XOXO,
Me

I know I should be studying...

...but I suddenly had a thought.

LOL

This may sound stupid.

I was reading my friend's blog and she was blogging about high school romance that sorta stuff.

And it got me thinking!

I'm 20!

I will never get the chance to experience what high school romance is all about!

No more high school sweetheart.

No more innocent "I like you because I do" sorta feeling!

No more butterflies in my stomach.

OMG...I'm getting old!

But I haven't outgrown my love for silly romantic movies. =P

Everytime I watch a movie with high school romance in it (eg. high school musical/any taiwanese idol drama series), I'd be fantasising myself as the female lead character.

*slaps self*

Before I go, just finished watching Notting Hill (I know, I'm extremely outdated) and oh my God! I loved it...but I know movies can't be real and never can be.

I love the ending song though. Enjoy!

The original version is not available for embedding so here's the remix. Not bad too! Almost similar =)



OK, gotta run!

XOXO,
Me

A Dating Guide for Women: "Man Talk" Translation

Was having one of those study breaks and I came across this article on Yahoo!

I found it rather interesting so I copied and pasted it here. =)

Sometimes it's not what men say, but it's their actions that are significant. It is necessary for women to learn to interpret men's roundabout way of communicating with them.

Here are 10 things that men say and do, and what they really mean:

1. He starts talking about how crazy all his single friends lives are, and then he tells you that he doesn't miss it at all. What most women will think if they hear this, is that he misses those days. This is not true. He says this because he is looking for confirmation that you feel exactly the same way. He also wants to communicate that he's ready to take the relationship to the next level.

2. Since you recently took him to your family's house for dinner, he can't stop talking about how much fun he had with your brother. What he means here is that he really likes your family, and wouldn't mind being a part of your family.

3. He teases you about things like how clumsy you are or about how you put smiley faces in every one of your emails. What he's really telling you when he does this is that he really likes you a lot. Remember that men are just giant boys... we tease the ones we love and ignore the ones we don't.

4. A man tells you he needs his space. So what does this mean to you? It means that you need to ignore him and not call him. Men love the chase. By not calling him, he'll start calling you and wondering what happened.

5. A man says that he really wants you to meet his parents. What does this mean in man talk? He's telling you that you are his girlfriend, and that he is ready to take it to the next level by getting you involved with his family. This brings us right to the next bit of man talk.

6. When a man calls you and says, "I want you to meet my friends on Friday night," this is as big as meeting his parents. He's introducing you to his pack. It means that he thinks you are attractive and sexy, and he wants to show you off to his friends.

7. After sleeping over at his house several times, he tells you that the next time you sleep over you should bring some things to make you feel more comfortable and a change of clothing. In man talk, that is basically telling you that he's wondering what it would be like to live with you. He also wants your things around.

8. You have plans with him on a Sunday, and you find out that he passed up floor seats to his favorite basketball team to keep those plans with you. What does that tell you in man talk? It tells you that he's hooked... and that you are his girlfriend.

9. He is watching one of your favorite shows on a night you're not together, and he calls you afterwards to talk about it. In man talk, what does this mean? By doing this, he's telling you that he pays attention to you, and he's interested in learning more about you and sharing more things with you. Men generally do not choose to watch "Project Runway" on their own. If we're watching your TV shows, we really like you.

10. He tells you, "I've cleaned today." What this means in man talk is, "I spent the day doing something I dislike more than anything." You need to realize that when a man says this to you, he really likes you. To most men, cleaning the house is just about the worst way he can spend a day.

p/s: what do u think? rather interesting and true huh? But I'm not too sure about the words I coloured in white though =S

XOXO,
Me

Finally....

...I've finished reading Shopaholic Ties the Knot!

Well, I wanted to finish it so that I could return it to the library and concentrate on my revision.
Her books are all so entertaining...

The ending of this book was simply romantic!
Not just the ending actually, the way Luke proposed to Becky was romantic too but...

OK, I'll just shut up and show u the ending...
I'm melting to the ground!!

"Becky Bloomwood, I love you."

"I'm Becky Brandon now, remember?"

"There's only one Becky Bloomwood. Never stop being her. Whatever you do. Never stop being Becky Bloomwood."

Tell me, isn't that the most romantic thing a guy could say to his wife?!

XOXO,
Me

My Best Friend's Wedding

Well, due to Pras' influence, I finally borrowed My Best Friend's Wedding DVD from the State Library and watched it. I'm having mixed feelings right now...

It's a very old movie and I remember watching it with my parents...but somehow, I got the plot wrong..LOL So, now I finally know what the movie is ACTUALLY about! XD

Anyway, yeah...It says "Julianne fell in love with her best friend the day he decided to marry someone else!" What do you think of that? Remember my previous post, about being jinxed with guy friends? Hah! After watching that movie, I'm convinced that I'll actually end up like that. Cause you see, I used to believe that the opposite sex can be best friends and not fall for each other but now I don't! Cause you see, in my opinion, girls are always at the "losing end" (Joo 2008). We tend to fall for our best (guy) friend first and if we do, it's so hard to win a guy's heart. If a guy falls for his best (girl) friend, it's easier to win her heart. I don't know, that's what I think...

All in all, I only have 1 thought right now...that is I don't think I can ever get married. LOL The reason is simple. I wanna get married to my best friend. But, best friends don't always end up with each other...and who knows? Maybe one day my best friend will get married and I would have to be his maid of honour and tell him goodbye. ='( Period.

XOXO,
Me

Dear John

The title of this post is the title of the book I just finished reading. Yes, I was considering whether to finish reading it or not but I finally did. *sigh* It's always like this. Whenever I feel down/depressed, it has to rain...

I read it on the bus, this time not caring whether anyone's looking...cause I just cried like nobody's business!!!! The book simply left me with a hole in my heart, a heartache. ='(( I think I'm starting to love Nicholas Spark's books. His 2 books - A walk to remember and The notebook - were made into blockbuster movies and I loved them!! Although I enjoyed the books more than the movies cause the books made me cry like a baby whereas the movies did not totally portray the stories in the books. Now I'm hoping that Dear John will be made into a movie cause I know I'll cry my heart out.

I used to be completely naive about love. I thought things too simply. I used to think that as long as 2 people are in love, nothing matters and that they'll eventually be together...boy, I was wrong!! Now I have a totally different perspective of love! How do you define love? It's so subjective I don't even know where to start! Reading Dear John really makes me dwell in John's (the main male character) feelings. Everything he felt, everything that he went through etc. And I CANNOT imagine if I was in his shoes, losing the girl he loves to the girl's childhood friend, and seeing her with her wedding ring....Why?!?! When I read this:

When she released my hand, I saw her wedding band glinting on her left finger. The sight of it doused me with a cold splash of reality.
She recognised my expression. "Yes," she said, "I'm married."

I felt like stabbing myself!!!! =S I can literally feel his heart breaking.

The girl's (Savannah) husband, Tim, had this disease and the doctors weren't sure if he could make it. During John's visit to the hospital, this is what Tim said to him:

"You still love her, don't you? It's OK, I already know. I've always known. I can still remember Savannah's face the first time she talked about you. I'd never seen her like that. I was happy for her because there was something about you that I trusted right away. That whole first year you were gone, she missed you so much. It was like her heart was breaking a little bit every single day. You were all she could think about. And then she found out you weren't coming home and we ended up in Lenoir and my parents died and...You always knew I was in love with her too, didn't you?"

I nodded.

"I thought so. I've loved her since I was 12 years old. And gradually, she fell in love with me, too."

"Why are you telling me this?"

"Because it wasn't the same. I know she loves me, but she's never loved me the way she loved you. She never had that burning passion for me, but we were making a good life together. Then I got sick, but she's always here, caring for me the same way I'd care for her if it was happening to her. Yesterday, when you came in, I saw the way she was looking at you, and I knew that she still loved you. More than that, I know she always will. It breaks my heart, but you know what? I'm still in love with her, and to me that means that I want nothing more than for her to be happy in life. I want that more than anything. It's all I've ever wanted for her."

"What are you saying?"

"I'm saying don't forget Savannah if anything happens to me. And promise that you'll always treasure her the same way I do."

"Tim..."

"Don't say anything, John. Just remember what I say, okay?"
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Outside the hospital, when John bumped into Savannah. The part which made me tear like crazy!!

"Were you going to come say good-bye?"

"I don't know. I haven't thought that far ahead."

"What did you and Tim talk about?"

"You should probably ask him that question."

"So this is good-bye?"

"Yes, I think it is."

"Can I write to you?"

"I'm not sure if that's a good idea."

"I don't understand."

"Yes, you do. You're married to Tim, not me. He's a good man, Savannah. A better man than me, that's for sure, and I'm glad you married him. As much as I love you, I'm not willing to break up a marriage for it. And deep down, I don't think you are, either. Even if you love me, you love him, too. It took me a little while to realise that, but I'm sure of it."

"Will we ever see each other again?"

"I don't know but I'm hoping we don't."

"How can you say that?"

"Because it means that Tim's going to be okay. And I have a feeling that it's all going to turn out the way it should."

"You can't say that! You can't promise that!"

"No, I can't."

"Then why does it have to end now? Like this?"

A tear spilled down her face, and despite the fact that I knew I should simply walk away, I took a step forward to her. When I was close, I gently wiped it away. In her eyes I could see fear and sadness, anger and betrayal. But most of all, I saw them pleading with me to change my mind.

"You're married to Tim, and your husband needs you. All of you. There's no room for me, and we both know there shouldn't be."

As more tears started flowing down her face, I felt my own eyes fill up. I leaned in and kissed Savannah gently on the lips, then took her in my arms and held her tight.

"I love you, Savannah, and I always will. You're the best thing that's ever happened to me. You were my best friend and my lover, and I don't regret a single moment of it. You made me feel alive again, and most of all, you gave me my father. I'll never forget that. You're always going to be the very best part of me. I'm sorry it has to be this way, but I have to leave, and you have to see your husband."

As I spoke, I could feel her shaking with sobs, and I continued to hold her for a long time afterward. When we finally separated, I knew that it would be the last time I ever held her. I backed away, my eyes holding Savannah's.

"I love you too, John.

"Good-bye."

And with that, she wiped her face and began walking toward the hospital.
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Love is just too complicated!! Both of them still love each other but...somehow she also loves her husband...I know her love for both of them is different...OMG...I'm going round n round in circles! I can't get my thoughts straight. Before I end this pointless post, take a read:

I finally understood what true love really meant. Tim had told me - and shown me - that love meant that you care for another person's happiness more than your own, no matter how painful the choices you face might be.

I lead my life feeling that something is missing that I somehow need to make my life complete. I know that my feeling about Savannah will never change, and I know I will always wonder about the choice I made. And sometimes, despite myself, I wonder if Savannah feels the same way.
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I end up typing such a long post...but I just have to share this story with the whole world!! =') I wonder if I would make the same choice as John did...*sigh*

XOXO,
Me

2nd post of the year

I still can't believe it's already 2008!! 2007 just flew by and I couldn't wait for 2007 to end because I felt so left out in a new place and underwent loads of unnecessary stress. Loads have happened in 2007, which when I come to think of them, they were nothing, no big deal. So, this year I'll turn 20 in May! The big 2!! O.o Oh no...time is ticking away, and I'm becoming older and older each year. So, should I change the title of my blog, or what?? Cause in fact I am a teenager at heart. Hmmm...

Anyway, was just thinking...

I was talking to a friend about C, only then I knew how much I've hurt him. I guess it was my fault I rushed into a decision and now I can't turn back time. C and I used to be very close too. Close to the extent that we could talk about some taboo stuff. Come to think of it, he's an extremely accepting guy. So this time when I came back for my summer holidays, I msged him to ask if he's back in Penang. I thought that we could meet up, like what old friends do. Little did I realise that he doesn't wanna be my friend (at least that's what I think based on how he treated me). So, N's friend is C's best friend and so N's friend told N that he was really really hurt. And it suddenly hit me that I never tried to feel how he felt that time. *sigh* Maybe it's a lesson learnt.

...if I'd rather not know what N's friend told N or know it and be a little depressed over it?

=S I'm a confused girl and always will be.

XOXO,
Me

I've been tagged by Liz

RULES:
1. The tag victim has to come up with 8 different points about his/her perfect lover.
2. Have to mention the gender of his/her perfect lover.
3. Tag eight other victims to join this game and leave a comment on their blog.
4. If you are tagged the second time, there is NO need to do this again.
5. Lastly, and most importantly, HAVE FUN DOING IT.

I have to list down the 8 qualities of a guy that make him my man. Of course, I have to be more realistic. So here goes...

1. A sense of humour - I don't mind if he's lame, as long as he makes me laugh.
   Of course too much lameness will make the magic fade away. So...I prefer that he has every kind of humour in moderate XD I quote M, "a guy who has a sense of humour already scores 30% over a hundred".
2. Not afraid to communicate - Communicate, in the sense that he can share his feelings and thoughts with me and vice versa...so that we can be honest with each other. In other words, there's trust between my man and I, something like the one between my BFF and I =)
   
3. My source of strength - When I fall, he'll be there to give me words of encouragement and inspiration. Or even better, he doesn't have to say anything and I'll know that he believes in me to stand up on my own again (something like what Liz said in her blog). And when I need to be weak once in a while, he'll be there for me to run into his warm embrace. The most important thing of all is that he must always remind us of our faith - Lord our God is our ultimate source of strength.
   
4. Knows how to act at different times - My man has to know when to be mature or immature. I want a guy who can be immature with me when we're having fun but can be mature when he's dealing with serious stuff.
5. Complements me - A guy has to complement me. For example, although we have different personalities but we complete and get along well with each other perfectly!! (well, not perfect-perfect, but perfect...u know what I mean)
6. Space - Although we spend time doing things together, I hope that my man and I could give each other some space once in a while...for me to hang out with my girl friends and him with his guys.
7. Able to romance me - I don't ask for the super romantic, expensive restaurant kind...but the little things he does every day that makes me feel loved. He doesn't have to realise that he's doing it. =)
   
8. Since everyone says looks count, I'll just say that he has to be taller than me (my head must reach at least his shoulder XD), not too bad-looking and is not too skinny/fat.

I tag:
Prasana
Maree
Shao Thing
Kazu (if he ever reads this, which I doubt)
Esther Tan (which I doubt she'll ever see this)
Ghee Leng
Jennifer
Sze May

XOXO,
Me

Ain't it funny?

Supposed to be studying psychology, yes.

Instead I chatted with a friend....

Isn't it funny that whenever we have something we don't appreciate it, but when we lose it then we see the value and regret not appreciating it.

Some people search for true love....but what exactly is true love?!

When we think that we've found our true love, it turns out otherwise.

I admit that I can't wait to find my one true love (in human sense), but at the end of the day, God has my life planned out perfectly...therefore I don't have to worry about anything.

My friend, J2, who is seldom single is constantly searching for the one...she said she can't help but feel phobic because of her failed relationships.

Aren't those failed relationships suppose to be lessons learnt?

This whole "love" thing is so complicated for some, but so simple for some...

One of my friends, M, once said...how big is the probability for 2 human beings to actually love each other?

I think it's hard...it's either 1 loves the other first or vice versa.

What's my point of typing this post? I dunno...LOL

It just amuses me how different people view relationships.

Hehehe~ as for me, I'm still stuck in fairytales XP

Gotta get back to studying!!!

XOXO,
Me

Just so you know

Was in E's room talking when the song entitled "Just so you know" came on...We didn't talk for a few seconds. I was listening to the lyrics to the song:

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

Then she started laughing and said it suited my situation so much!! XD Well, it does...but I'm so content right now, not thinking about anything else anymore =) Right now I just wish we could be how we used to be. I miss having a proper conversation with him...Now I'm so afraid to see him because I don't know what to do or say =S I'll just end up saying something wrong again...and again...I'm not putting any hope in it...I'm just going with the flow...following the path God leads me to.

Fell in love with this song...

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

[Chorus:]
Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around, I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know

It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

[Chorus]

This emptiness is killing me
And I'm wondering why I've waited so long
Looking back I realize
It was always there just never spoken
I'm waiting here...been waiting here

[Chorus]

p/s: semester break's coming REALLY soon...woohoo~ so looking forward to it...hopefully I'll be able to study 24/7 then XP yeah right...wish me all the best!!

XOXO,
Me

Part 1

During winter holidays, I read this book entitled "10 Commandments of Dating" and although never been attached or experienced any kind of love other than family love and friendships, I think it was a useful guide to searching my life partner...haha~

Just to share with my friends what I've read =P

I once came this phrase from a friend's blog...it kind of goes like this:
I dream that one day when my kid asks me who my first love is, I would be able to point across the living room and answer "there he is, sitting over there" to my kid.

Isn't that the most romantic thing ever?! =P Marrying your first love...or first boyfriend, whichever that applies to you.

Anyway, the 1st commandment is Thou shalt get a life.

By getting a life, it simply means that not being dependent on your girl/guy (whichever applies to you) 24/7. You should allow each other to have time for themselves. People who don't have a life will feel empty or insecure when he/she is not around their partner. Also, people who don't have a life would constantly call/msg their partner to know their whereabouts because they're afraid that they might cheat on them or that they're just simply possessive.

The 1st thing of getting a life is Get Grounded.

Embrace the fact that you are created in the image of God and have worth and value simply because you were born.

This value is unchanging and complete.

Worth, based on being in the image of God, does not fluctuate; it does not change regardless of your personality, performance, or possessions because it's based on the immutable character of God.

We are stamped with His image.

Since you are stamped with the image of the Priceless One, you are also priceless. That is self-worth. Accepting this is the key to be grounded.

Enough for today...I think today's "lesson" kind of reminded myself of my self-worth =) At times I tend to think too lowly of myself, which is not good at all...and also I shall learn how to forgive myself.

(to be continued)

XOXO,
Me

wrong or right?

i think i broke someone's heart deeply...someone who wants to be with me and accepts me for who i am...

it was all for the better...the both of us...=) i'm juz not ready to cross the friendship line...we were much closer when we were juz friends....

i hope he understands...

Another quiz about guys....=)

i juz took a Are u addicted to guys? quiz at www.teenmag.com

Results :

Guy Shy
Sometimes it's not easy dealing with the stresses of trying to have a love life! You may have a ways to go before you get onto easy street in this department, but you can improve your odds right now. Smile at guys. It'll help you relax. A friendly attitude brings the boys around in the same way that moths are attracted to light. Remember, the more positive energy you put out there, the better your results will be. Your confidence level will increase more and more. So, don't be shy, just say hi!

haha~ oh well...*speechless*

reminder to self: finals is in less than a month! JIA YOU!!!!

confessions

sigh...

tell me...y life has to be so cruel to me?!

it happens all the time...ok, not exactly the same thing all the time...but when it comes to having crushes on guys..it does happen all the time...

take C for instance...when i finally gave up liking him (crush), his friends planned a huge prank to play on us...during lunch last thurs...it was as if we were a couple...everyone purposely left a place for me next to him...which wasn't the worst thing that happened that day...the worst things were my friend on my left kept pushing me to knock into him...which i think was totally rude!! then the girls opposite us were snapping our pics away without my permission!!

ARGHHHH...i was stuck there...with them...all 10+ of them...laughing at me...sheesh...and that idiotic guy, C didn't do anything to stop them...u know how it felt that moment?? it felt like i was living a nightmare...everybody's pointing and laughing at me...but no one's there to save me! i nearly nearly cried...to be honest...but then i know crying because of this is sooo not worth it...and crying's never my thing...so i sucked it up and put up a brave front...

what i felt was a mixture of emotions! anger + humiliation + scared + unknown feeling
i called a few friends of mine...hoping to be more calm listening to their voices...but no one answered my call...it's either they're in class, or they're in choir practice...*sigh*

then the next day (Fri) he 'kinda' confessed to me on msn...he typed "i luv u"...=S WHAT?!? when i'm still pissed?!? please! i'm sooo over him...now he tells me that!? what a great time...i thought i saw wrongly...so i asked "huh?" and he went "nth nth nth nth" phew~

and today...i got to chat with my bestest high school friend on msn...and the guy she likes confessed to her! if only mine is also like that....=( i really hate guy issues...can't a girl have some peace?! =S

p/s: right now, i'm dreading monday to come...because that's the day i'm gonna see him again...in college...we're friends..we're cool...i've gotta remind myself this...phew~wish me luck! whoever's reading this...

end of break

*sigh* 1 week has come and gone...tomorrow morning i'll have to wake up early for college...

although i admit i didn't do REALLY productuve things, but i think i didn't waste my break, because i actually made full use of my break to spend time (and laughing) with my friends, catch up with sleep, do maths AND study for chem test....which is tomorrow...

however, this week didn't juz fly by...and i'm glad...oh! i forgot one thing...i finished watching a korean drama series with my mom...18-year-old bride! it was entertaining, hilarious AND most importantly, ROMANTIC!!! hehe...i'm so gonna watch it again after my final exam =P did i mention that the main actor is sooooo entau?! *sigh* i think i juz melted =D

i haven't been treating myself well enough lately...sleeping after midnight, not eating according to normal time etc. but fortunately a few days ago, i've been sleeping before 12am =) and usually during holidays i'll drink lesser water because i don't sweat much...now i drink water every one hour...haha...even my urine is clear! HAHAHAHAHA....grossed out yet?

anyway, my aunt's been commenting on my complexion...she says i look 'green'...which isn't a good thing at ALL...so...i've decided to : drink more water, eat more fruits and have sufficient sleep! i hope i can do it what college starts again...

this entry is so pointless...

yesterday i had an interesting conversation with a friend of mine, J.
she misread my personal msg (I wanna drift away with u...).
she thought i wrote "I wanna drift away from u..."
she sent me a msg - "how?"
i answered her - "huh?"
she said - "i want too"
well, i didn't know she misread it, so i told her - "haha...sorry, u're not the right person for me to drift away with"

it seems that she hasn't gotten over her bf....and it took me by surprise 'cause i thought she has finally moved on...she said she feels empty without her bf (or ex??)
wow...i never felt empty without anyone...even i don't feel empty without A =))

this was how our conversation went (E's me):
J : let me ask u a question
E : yeah?
J : do u ever wish u had a bf?
E : err...haha...no
J : do u feel jealous seeing ur friends with bfs?
E : no...
J : wow...
E : i believe i'll find mine someday
J : r u not curious how it feels like having one?
E : nah...no point rushing into a relationship, unless u really really love that guy and u guys are compatible
J : such a positive attitide!
E : i believe u can too...
J : how do u do that?
E : be content with what u have
J : be content...it's hard la...

i think i bored my 'readers' to death (if i even have) with this boring entry...

oh well, before i sign off...juz wanna tell everyone out there...never feel empty...cause God fills us to the brim with His Great Love...知足常乐，懂得感恩...常常喜乐!