Sunday, January 29, 2006

Chinese New Year

wow...i've been in college for more than 3 weeks d....i think..

anyway, i'm fitting in alot more better now...

ok, that's not the point, the point is, i have this bio report on human cheek cells and onion cells!! and i don't have the slightest idea where to start!! -.-" AND our bio lecturer never smiles...really, NEVER!

oh God...i'm not in the mood to blog...i'm still deciding on whether i should like someone...haha...yeah, i decide..i don't let my heart get its way! =)

Thursday, January 26, 2006

I wonder....

I was telling my friend,N, about my crush the other day at college...and i showed her his printed-out picture from the comp. (shhh...i stole his pic from his friendster page...=P) anyway, she went 'WAH...i never knew he's sooo cute! no wonder u still like him after so many years!'

I wonder if i like him for his looks...because for one, i didn't know how he looked like when i started having strong feelings towards him...and i dunno y...the sound of his voice juz makes me float! He's sooo cute when he speaks broken chinese/hokkien (he's eurasian).

Then, my friend asked me if i cried when i found out that he's already been taken, i answered 'no' and she said 'ohhhh...then u're juz having a crush on him la...u don't really like him wan....' This has made me ponder i have to cry to show that i really like someone?? because i'm not very a 'crying person'...

And one more thing, if i only like him for his looks, i guess i'd grow tired of his looks adee since it's been years and there are thousands and millions of cute guys everywhere (including my college)! N asked me if i have the urge to want him...haha...and i was like 'errr...yeah, guess so' The reason i gave her that answer is because i want him but i can't have him! He's taken remember?! And if i keep 'wanting' him...i'd only break my own heart...rite?

But for now, i'm still holding on......maybe one day.....

Saturday, January 21, 2006


i've been in college for 3 weeks already...and i guess i'm still trying to fit in...

i miss the days when i juz get out of bed and pull out my uniform from the cupboard and off into the shower! now...i think of what to wear...cause i have limited amount of clothes and i try to mix and match them so that i won't look like i don't change/wash my clothes...argh!

oh...and i was kinda nervous cause...ok, i admit it! i haven't mixed around with guys for like years! as u know, i was in an all-girl was kinda scared la...dunno how to mingle with ppl of the opposite sex and all...i know u're laughing at me now...=( BUT the good news is...luckily some of them made the first move to talk to me...if not, i'll juz pretend they're not there...and hope silently that they don't think i'm lansi or anything. hehe...=P

another thing is...i kinda forget that some ppl were from eng/malay school...during the 1st week, i kept speaking chinese with everyone until that someone tells me he/she doesn't understand at all...-.-" now i kinda force myself to speak in eng...haha...unless that person speaks to me in chinese...but i was kinda surprised/shocked that my friends say i don't sound like someone who's chinese educated...=D is that good?

Sunday, January 15, 2006

*smacks forehead*


Disclaimer : i'm not trying to show off my eng or whatever whatsoever....juz trying to let out my frustration when chatting with someone who's juz not following the conversation, or rather doesn't understand at all!

this is the actual conversation (nicknames are replaced to protect the person's identity or something like that! BAH...)

HIM was asking me if i'm going overseas after my SAM program...the blanks after 'says' are those irritating 'oo' and some annoying face pops up in the conversation window...arghh...

HIM says:
after tat u going oversea
ME says:
nope...not yet
HIM says:

HIM says:
sure got one target wan mar
HIM says:
tell me la
HIM says:

he didn't ask! how was i supposed to know that he wanted me to tell him! i mean, it's not a big deal really, but i've been facing this kinda 'prob' for ages ...they sound like i do not wanna tell them i'm super secretive...well, if u wanna know something, ASK! don't go 'tell me la...' what's with the 'la'?! don't they know how to use it?! i guess malaysians have this tendency to misuse those 'ma's, 'la's and 'lo's etc...

ME says:
well, u didnn't ask
HIM says:
ME says:
y what?
HIM says:
y u said u didnt ask
ME says:
well, u didn't ask...that was y i didn't tell u
HIM says:
now i asking u mar

u tell me...did he ask?!?! NO....grrrr...didn't wanna answer him...but i was trying to be friendly

HIM says:
ME says:
HIM says:
HIM says:
go kl then go uk
ME says:
what do u think??

that 'what do u think??' was supposed to be in a sarcastic tone...*sigh* instead, he gave me his innocent opinion...

HIM says:
HIM says:
go uk can learn many things
ME says:
HIM says:
HIM says:
go ahead la
ME says:
HIM says:
how many year
ME says:
1 / 2
HIM says:
kl 1/2 n uk 1/2
ME says:
UK 1 OR 2 years
HIM says:

HIM says:
wat bidang u wantted to study


Wednesday, January 11, 2006

long time no 'see'

Your Ideal Marriage Proposal Is

A Christmas proposal, with lots of snow and city lights.

Your Toes Should Be Blue

You're a little out there, but that means you take guys to a place that's out of this world!

Your ideal guy: Zany, hilarious, and totally unpredictable.

Stay away from: Anyone who has to get up for work in the morning

Your Aura is Blue

Your Personality: Your natural warmth and intuition nurtures those around you. You are accepting and always follow your heart.

You in Love: Relationships are your top priority, and this includes love. You are most happy when you are serious with someone.

Your Career: You need to help others in your job to feel satistifed. You would be a great nurse, psychologist, or counselor.
Well, i haven't been blogging much lately...i don't think i'll ever blog again...unless i'm really free...cause college has started and the latest i reach home is already 7pm...even if i go online, i only check my mailbox, some interesting blogs and see who's online in now pronounce that this blog of mine is half dead =P

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

Freaking out

honestly...i'm starting to freak out already...

tomorrow's gonna be my 1st day at college! *SCREAMS* so terrified k? for once i'm not going to school, seeing familiar faces...and worst of all...there are guys too!! *shudders*

i never liked making new friends...not that i don't like new friends...i said i don't like MAKING new friends! ok ok...calm down...i mean when i'm all by myself with no one to talk to, i'll talk to myself non-stop!! and i'm so nervous cause college is like alot more serious than school....

anyway, gotta stop me!!