I wonder....

I was telling my friend,N, about my crush the other day at college...and i showed her his printed-out picture from the comp. (shhh...i stole his pic from his friendster page...=P) anyway, she went 'WAH...i never knew he's sooo cute! no wonder u still like him after so many years!'

I wonder if i like him for his looks...because for one, i didn't know how he looked like when i started having strong feelings towards him...and i dunno y...the sound of his voice juz makes me float! He's sooo cute when he speaks broken chinese/hokkien (he's eurasian).

Then, my friend asked me if i cried when i found out that he's already been taken, i answered 'no' and she said 'ohhhh...then u're juz having a crush on him la...u don't really like him wan....' This has made me ponder too...do i have to cry to show that i really like someone?? because i'm not very a 'crying person'...

And one more thing, if i only like him for his looks, i guess i'd grow tired of his looks adee since it's been years and there are thousands and millions of cute guys everywhere (including my college)! N asked me if i have the urge to want him...haha...and i was like 'errr...yeah, guess so' The reason i gave her that answer is because i want him but i can't have him! He's taken remember?! And if i keep 'wanting' him...i'd only break my own heart...rite?

But for now, i'm still holding on......maybe one day.....