Friday, September 30, 2005

He's beautiful

James Blunt - You're Beautiful

My life is brilliant
My love is pure
I saw an angel
Of that I'm sure

She smiled at me on the subway
She was with another man
But I won't lose no sleep on that
'Cause I've got a plan

You're beautiful. You're beautiful
You're beautiful, it's true
I saw your face in a crowded place
And I don't know what to do
'Cause I'll never be with you

Yeah, she caught my eye
As we walked on by
She could see from my face that I was
Fucking high
And I don't think that I'll see her again
But we shared a moment that will last till the end

You're beautiful. You're beautiful
You're beautiful, it's true
I saw your face in a crowded place
And I don't know what to do
'Cause I'll never be with you

You're beautiful. You're beautiful
You're beautiful, it's true
There must be an angel with a smile on her face
When she thought up that I should be with you
But it's time to face the truth
I will never be with you

p/s : this song's very significant to me...cause after feeling sad i saw my crush's pics of him and his gf...i heard this song TWICE my case...all the 'her' and 'she's are replaced by 'him/his' and 'he's =D i LOVE this song!! oh, and 'man' becomes 'woman'... =P

i'm speechless!!

i know u guys who r reading this would scold me for being so naive...

but i don't care!!! i'm saying this....cause this is MY blog!!

i juz went to visit my friendster page AND the new feature which shows u updates that r made by ur friends on the page? showed me that my crush has juz added new photos so as curious and as excited as i was...i quickly visited his page only to find pics of him and his gf!! they weren't making out (a good thing...since young ppl love making out, dunno y...), they weren't doing anything disgusting...BUT because of that it's like totally romantic!! juz a normal hands-around-the neck pic...their cheeks were close sweeeeet! awww...i felt sad but happy at the same time...i'm glad the person i like is so, u know, not as disgusting as those immature guys nowadays? =D this proves i have good taste =P

p/s : u may think i'm faking this...but no...y would i? i'm so happy for my crush and his gf...they've been going out for a year (or more?) now...cause if their love doesn't last...that would definitely mean something, RIGHT? *wink* [if u're too dumb and think that if their love doesn't last i'll grab him...NO!! u're so wrong! what i mean is...either they don't love each other enough/he's a playboy/he's not good enough/his gf is not good enough/i have bad taste. hahahaha...i was sad a min. ago, but now i think they make a really perfect couple!!

Monday, September 26, 2005

memories and blogs

was looking at my crush's pics a few mins ago...and suddenly i'm overwhelmed with mixed feelings...and some memories actually flashed back...(not that we've been together before...mind u!)

the memories were about:
how i got to know him
how we talked on the phone for hours
how i would bump into him (at the club or mall)
how i would get so excited when i see ANYTHING that has got to do with him (his nickname, his club no. etc)
how i would go borrow the exact CD he watched/borrowed
how i would try to get some info from his best friends (=P)
how i would visit his friendster page everytime i online
how i would get so excited when i see him online (even though he's in away/busy mode)

*sigh* memories....i'm gonna graduate (from high school) in less than a month and he's probably going overseas to further his studies...and i haven't been bumping into him much lately because of our own studies...

the other day i borrorwed 'legally blonde' from the club and after watching it i thought to myself : i wonder if he's borrowed this CD i checked the 'thing' at the back of the CD...and my heart was beating so fast it felt like it was gonna jump out of my mouth!! he borrowed that exact CD in April 2003! i stared at his club no. for quite a while before i came back to huh?

oh well...i've been visiting an Asian Australian woman's blog lately...and i love her blog!! she's so consistent in updating her blog and the layout of her blog is all designed by she herself...she's really down-to-earth...and her life seems really fun although she's married with 2 adorable kids!! (she posts her kids' pics on her blog) =D so cuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuutttte!!

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

The Ring

i juz watched The Ring with my parents last night till midnight...and i think it's a pretty good least it has got a STORY behind it...some sort of mystery...compared to The Grudge (Ju-On). Maybe ppl may find my passion for supernatural stuff weird..hehe...but anything out of ordinary fascinates me!! And i often imagine myself investigating weird the death of several ppl after listening to Gloomy Sunday and the tape which causes ppl's deaths 7 days after watching it. I can't stop thinking of the scenes in The Ring as there are several scenes which i still do not i think i'd better surf the net to find out.

p/s : to anybody who's reading this post and have watched The Ring, could u tell me the exact story behind that tape? i don't get the 'anna morgan and the horses and her daughter, Samara' part...thank u!

Monday, September 19, 2005

scary dream!

straight to the point!

last night i dreamt that:

my 5-year long crush's my neighbour and we were the best of friends day when we were outside our house eating, my friend who thinks i should tell him how i feel kinda indirectly told went like that -

MF - My friend
Me - Me, of course
A - my crush

A - so, hows life lately?
Me - great! u?
A - yeah...same here, gonna go out later *flashes me a smile*
Me - oh...have fun then! *flashes him a bigger smile*
MF - y don't u ask 'Me' to go with u?
Me - .....what...da...?!???
MF - well since she has a crush on somebody....
Me - ...???...
A - huh?
MF - *looks at Me* i thought ur crush's name is A ?
Me - *nervous laugh* what? i mean there are alot of A's in the world, right? no big deal!
A - (silently stands up and wears his shoes, preparing to go out)

that's my dream! scary right?! me, it was! i was so scared he wouldn't be my friend anymore!! haha...but as i'm typing this update now...he's online on my msn list, away....

Sunday, September 18, 2005

a suicide song? wow!!

i juz came across an update posted by my friend's friend (kryptos5) about a song which caused the deaths of several ppl after listening to the suicide song 'Gloomy Sunday' which was composed by a man after his breakup with his gf...something like that...and his gf committed suicide after listening to it when the song came out...

at first i thought it was juz a story....but then he (kryptos5) included a few web url's on his site and i went to visit it's true...and as curious as i was, i d/led the song...but lucky for me, i'm still alive, typing this post was sad...but not to the extent where i'll commit suicide juz because of a me it wasn't that was dragging...=P but i still find everything so surreal (about the suicides)...i guess those who committed suicide already had some things that had been bothering when they listened to it, it made them even more depressed...that's what i think...cause usually when i'm depressed...even the happiest song makes me more depressed...

haha...i'm not here to analyse their deaths though...but it would be really fun to investigate's very exciting to me!! i never knew ppl could kill themselves after listening to a's quite tragic actually......

Saturday, September 17, 2005

trials over...what's next?

i know i haven't been updating my blog for ages and i've said it before that i'm not gonna update it anymore...but i change my mind...i've been visiting a singaporean lady's blog for quite a while now...and i'm amazed that she updates her blog nearly every day and if possible, she'll post some interesting pics about the she posted a pic of the noodles she cooked for herself when she fell sick...etc.

so, what day is it today?'s the last day of my trial exam!!! yeah, i shouldn't be too happy...YET! there's a worse one to come in November! *shudders* BUT....i'm really happy it's over as i didn't do much preparation for my trials and i KNOW my results are gonna look F*****G horrible! *blush* i know, i never used the 'F' word before...but here, it's totally necessary..TRUST me!

well, some interesting stuff did happen though...let's see...i've forgotten which day but last week when i was about to cross the road opposite my apartment, a car stopped in front of me hence blocking my way...i was taken aback for a moment, all sorts of pics went rushing through my head, fearing somebody was gonna attack me and dump me in the middle of the road! lol...i know, i have a very wild imagination. anyway, back to the story, the window on the passenger's side wound down and the driver (a guy in his 20's or early 30's i guess) leaned forward and said 'xiao3 mei4 mei4 ah, zen3 yang4 qu4 kek lok si ah?' [translation : little girl, how do u get to kek lok si?] i was stunned he called me little girl! ok, so i wasn't sure how to get to kek lok si, all i know is that if u know how to reach air itam, u can reach kek lok i asked him if he knew how to go to air itam and he asked me how =.=" so i told him to look out for road signs to air itam and follow them...again he asked me if he needs to get to bandar baru first...i said i wasn't sure but once he reaches air itam then it shouldn't be a problem for him la...he said ' ok, thank u very much! (in chinese) ' and so i continued my 'journey' home! *wink*

a few months back when i was walking home, i saw a man with a walking stick from afar...i wasn't wearing my specs so i couldn't really see him clearly. he walked like a normal person (meaning he walked with a normal he was practically walking straigt towards me...that second i thought he was gonna pounce on me and attack i kept my cool and continue walking until i realised he was blind when he was a few meters away from me! i nearly walked straight into him! (or did he nearly walk straight into me?) whoa...what a relief that was!

i guess this is the longest post in my whole entire life...and the most meaningful one...hehe...i'm so glad trial exam is over!!! but i have to start studying REAL soon!

p/s : pls excuse my grammatical errors *wink*