Monday, February 27, 2006

AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH happens everytime!

today's already sunday, my last day of my semester break...great...and i haven't finished doing loads of stuff...ok...not loads la...i managed to finish most of it yesterday cause i was panic-stricken...o.O

for days i've been reminding myself to remember to post my NS deferment letter...and guess what, i got my letter yeserday telling me to go 'serve the country' this coming 19th of March...AHHHH! oh no, i must send in my deferment letter quick! or else....>.< fine of RM2000 (or was it 3000...ah, who cares) or jail!

hmmm...i went out with a guy friend last thursday evening...and surprisingly, i enjoyed myself ALOT! never felt so comfortable with a guy before...haha...had a great time laughing in the cinema...and during dinner was memorable la...about the topic we were on the other day about realising my crush isn't who i really like...well, i guess it's hard to get over him la...and besides, he keeps me from being distracted by other guys. LOL =P

anyway, tomorrow i'll be dead meat...y? cause i've got a bio and chem test tomorrow! i've started studying chem...but not sure i'll be able to finish it tonight...and bio, i studied like 2 weeks ago...and i haven't finished studying that too...ARGH! i'll stay calm.....calm....

Saturday, February 25, 2006

yo friends who know me out there!!

hehe...please do visit this

i'm so anxious to find out how ppl find me =P

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

girl friends rock!'s a continuation of my last post...

it's weird...that FUCKER was juz a passer-by to me but nearly all my girl friends sms-ed and even called me to ask how i'm doing after, u know, finding out that FUCKER's true colours... and surprisingly, i didn't feel hurt at all...seriously...i guess he meant nothing to me la...that's y...

haha...but the funny thing is, i feel like i juz broke up with my boyfriend...haha...because of those calls and sms's...pls la girls! don't have to be worried about me...i'm ok! he's NOTHING...i've got my other crush remember? the one i've been drooling over for the past 5 years?!

guys...they're superficial

girls who agree with me, say YEAH!

i juz came back from gurney watching a movie with my girl friends...and i finally found out the horrible truth...well, come to think of it, it's a beautiful truth....

the guy i thought who liked me is so damn FUCKING superficial...and i'm glad i got over him before i found out...

yes, vulgarity's never my thang, but yeah, i'll say it one more damn FUCKING time! he's FUCKING superficial!

y? what happened u'd ask...

we (my friends and i) juz finished watching Big Momma's House 2 and on the way down, my friend, A, told me that the FUCKER has a crush on her...well, it's not that that made me mad...he used to have a crush on my other friend, S too...who happens to be in our group...ok ok, i don't know how to say this, the story goes like this:

last thursday, my friends and that FUCKER's gang went for tennis club...then FUCKER's friend was teasing him about his crush on S...then that night, FUCKER sms-ed A asking her if she heard...and she said 'yeah...good what...S's a nice girl' and he went 'i don't really like her...i used to have this teeny-weeny crush on her...not anymore...i've got a crush on someone else...' so A asked him 'how come?' he went 'cause this other girl is prettier' (did u 'hear' that?! PRETTIER) and so A went 'u don't like a person because she's pretty...u like someone because it's her personality u like...'

see?? whoever fell for the FUCKER is the world's stupidest person (yeah, i know, no such word as 'stupidest' SO? SUE ME!!)

and the thing is, FUCKER has been sending her sms's alot...although he already knows that she already has a boyfriend...guys *rolls eyes*

now y am i mad? because i'm the last to know this! my friends were actually waiting for me to get over him first before telling me...they thought i was totally into him...which was true for a few weeks...until i realise i'm totally crazy over my crush...and Thank God..really...i'm over that SUCKER! oh no, he's FUCKER, oh whatever that ends with a '-ER'

not only THAT that made me mad...there's this guy in their group who already has a gf for 3 years? and i was envious of their relationship and all...HAH! wrong! he has this crush on S too...which , according to my friend, is very obvious to the whole class...not that it's wrong for him to have a crush...i juz...ARGHH...hate guys so much!

i thought i'd get over the anti-guys thingy i had in primary school...but now i guess....i'm back to that...yeah...until miracle happens and show me that guys are not jerks after all...and i promise my girl friends...let's organise an Anti-Valentine's Party next year! YEAH!! friend asked me this question : one day if u get to be with ur crush, would u still be that crazy over him?
well, my answer is, i dunno...i cannot predict the future...but i'm sure i'll love him with my whole heart...since i've been waiting for years now...i guess even if he cheats on me...i know i'll still be there...until one day i can't take it anymore...and swear that any guy who doesn't know how to appreciate me...will regret...*winks*

to prove that guys are superficial? that FUCKER commented i look prettier with my contact lenses...BAH! and after hearing that comment, i wore glasses the next day!

hey, sze may...if u're reading this, wanna go out someday and dress up like goths? hehe...i so wanna try! wear all black, highlight our hair blue and put on black eyeliner! hehe....=D and maybe dark lipstick and nail polish too!!

i hope this is my last post about guys (excluding my crush =P) guys are soooo not worth it la! ka si!! GIRL POWER!

oh, talking about girl power...i so wanna get a tattoo on my arm...a small one...with japanese kanji on it saying girl power! hehe...but then...the thought of the pain makes me cringe...=D

p/s : right now the only thing i wish for is that my crush will have a fabulous relationship with his gf...not based on looks...but the heart....good luck!! love ya!

Tuesday, February 21, 2006


right now, my crush is online on my msn list...but i'm not sure if i should send him a msg...

everything's ok...i guess

yeah, u've guessed it...about my crush, AGAIN =P

juz visited his page a min. ago...i guess he's not having a prob with his gf after least i think so...good for him!! a guy like him shouldn't have any problems in a relationship (don't ask me y! that's what i feel la...)

Monday, February 20, 2006


last night i went to bed at 12am...and because i slept for 3 hours in the afternoon, i find it hard to fall 12.45am, i got my friend's sms (if u're reading this, yes, it's u!) telling me that my blog inspires her! wow...i was kinda surprised and happy at the same time...haha...never thought my blog could be inspiring? =)

well, from now on u can visit my blog to find out what i'm up to =P

OMG!! yesterday i sooo regret not going to the edu fair which was held at PISA!! my friend told me she saw my crush there!!! =.=" i realise that it's always my friends who see him, not me...well, it's good though because i sent him a msg thru msn yesterday afternoon and immediately he went i guess he was away at the edu fair...phew! i thought he was avoiding case u think i'm paranoid...well, kinda...but it's because i suspect there's a prob going on between him and his gf, so i kinda sent him a msg saying 'hey, how's everything going? is everything fine?' hoping he could spill his heart out to me...

oh, forgot to tell the whole world! i'm so over that guy in my course! he's juz another lil crush...nothing compared to my 5-year-long crush! =D i know i sound mean...hehe...yesterday i woke up and the very first thing i did was deleting all his sms's!! without any hesitation...i felt so relieved after that!

hereby i wanna dedicate a song to my crush (haha...)

Going Crazy - Natalie

Ever since the day you went away you left me lonely and cold
My life just hasn't been the same ohh baby, nooo
When I looked into your eyes the moment that I let you go
I just broke down (down)

Baby if I ever get the chance to be with you again I would sacrifice
Cuz the feeling that I feel within
No other man would ever make me feel so right
It's nice to smile when I get your phone call at night
But I'd rather have you here with me, right next to me
I miss the way you hold me tight

I gotta let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world, for you I'd do anything

[Chorus 2x]
Thats right baby I'm going crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me
I'm in love with you baby

Break it down now
I'll tell you what I feel
From the moment that I met you it's been so damn real
My heart seems to skip another beat
Everytime we speak, I can't believe I feel so weak
Tell me that you really need me
and you want me and you miss me
And you love me I'm your lady
I'll be around waiting for you
I'll put it down be the woman for you

I'm falling so deeply, crazy over for you
I'm calling, calling out to you what am I going to do?
It's true, no fronting
It's you and no other i can no longer go on without you
I'll just break down (down)

I gotta let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world, for you I'd do anything

[Chorus 2x]
That's right baby I'm going crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me I'm in love with you baby

Thursday, February 16, 2006

Valentine's Day...

well, yesterday was valentine's day (fei4 hua4!) and being the single as i was...i wasn't even bothered by what day it was and how i was gonna spend my night...actually i did plan to go for a dinner and a movie with an old friend of mine in high school....but due to the bio test the next day, i decided to cancel the 'date' to study at home...

anyway, i was a lil bothered by my friends though...u see, i mix with 3 other girls who have been having bf's their whole lives (juz exaggerating a lil...but it's kinda true too la...if u get what i mean) so, let's call them A, B and C.

A : she has a bf who's gone for NS and her bf is like the best in the whole wide world...y do i say that? haha...well, her mom likes her bf very very much! they are like 'engaged' d...he gave her an 'engagement' ring...A even claimed that he ties her shoe lace when they go they're talking, all of a sudden he'll kneel down to tie for sweet right?!

B : her bf is her childhood friend and is studying (and/or) living in aus...and they've been together for at least 1 year i think...not sure...anyway, they broke up on the sunday before valentine's day...

C : she's seldom single...and alot of guys are after her...she even got 9 guys asking her out on valentine's day! well, she juz broke up with her bf a week ago...

so, what about them? lol...i don't hate them or's juz that for the whole day, A's been saying 'this is the worst valentine's day ever!!!' and B, she was like so depressed...and the other 2 was like so engrossed with their 'valentine's day'...and everything i say juz wouldn't make her feel better...then C, she's been looking forward to the romantic dinner...i juz couldn't stand it!!! haha...not because i don't have a date la...

oh, and because that my previous post...who i thought i liked...i think he hates i told this friend of mine...and we made a bet. if he ever opens his mouth to ask me out/confess/whatever-that-has-got-to-do-with-Vday on valentine's day, then i'll lose the bet by chia-ing her ice cream...and since i think he hates me so i was really confident in winning the bet...

the day before, we thought it was His birthday because he told a friend of mine a day before that it was his birthday the next (haha...get what i mean?) and so we bought him a card and he wanted us to chia him baskin robbins' ice cream!but after that when i reached home, i sms-ed him and actually persuaded him to chia!

so...back to valentine's day...(haha..i know, it's confusing) he planned to chia all of us (my friends and i + his friends)after friends asked me..and i wasn't sure to say yes or no...cause i still wanna win that bet i had with my i wanted to see if he would actually ask me...=P then C kinda helped my other friend to win the bet! she wrote a note telling that guy's friend, D to ask him to ask me! get it? haha...and D got the wrong msg and asked me if i wanted to go...C turned around and started giving him faces...haha...that was y i knew! and that D still didn't get the msg! he asked me for the 2nd time! and C was like 'wei...u chia meh?y u ask?!' it was hilarious la!! then THE guy opened his mouth! oh gosh...i wish he hadn't!! 'u wanna come with us for baskin robbins??' ARGHHH!! i lost!!! i can't believe it!!! then i said 'ok lo....' =/ yeahla...then he dropped all of us (me and my friends and 2 of his friends) back...

end of my valentine's was funny la overall...=D being single rocks too! *wink*

Saturday, February 11, 2006

i guess...

i'm having PMS...

i don't feel like talking, eating etc..

the other day i helped my group members type the assignment and i was so pissed that they didn't check it BEFORE i typed...but only AFTER i've printed all 8 copies for them! (of course i didn't show that i was pissed) typing this out juz made me angry again...BAH!

i was watching my korean drama halfway when my dad came in and switched it off! (i had to stop it to have my lunch) and the worse thing is the cd player inside my parents room is kinda i can't find back the time where i stopped...

p/s : no mood to check this post too....don't care about the grammatical errors....

Friday, February 03, 2006

Ladder 49

yes...i'm overwhelmed with emotions again...

this movie is really touching...and sad....

i cried...

p/s : i think i should restrain myself from watching too much sad movies...*sniff*

Thursday, February 02, 2006

Memoirs of a Geisha

watched it with my family yesterday evening...

was too overwhelmed with wasn't in the mood to update...

i LOVE the movie!! it's so sad....but then i'm quite happy for Sayuri in the least the one that she truly loves loves her too....

my friend told me that the ending in the book is different though...she said it's sad...well, now i'm not sure whether to read the book...*sigh*

well, i cried at the touching...*sniff*

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

Words i should confess daily

I am a child of God
God is my Abba Father-my Daddy God!
God loves me just the way I am
God lives in me and I live in Him
I am a person of infinite worth
I have been created unique in every way
It is OK to love myself and take care of myself
I am created by God for every good work
God has called me and chosen me as His own
God is changing me every day to be more like Him
I am a person of great purpose and destiny
I am given talents, gifts and abilities by God
I am able to achieve great things in God
I am abounding in grace and hope
I am blessed- empowered to succeed in life
Greater is God in me than the devil in the world
I don't have to be afraid of anything for God is with me
Every bad habit I have is losing control over me
Even my enemies are at peace with me now
God is thinking good thoughts about me right now
God is planning the paths that will lead me to my purpose
I have visions and dreams from the Holy Spirit regularly
I am led daily by the Holy Spirit
I will walk in good health and live a long life
I love Jesus wholeheartedly
I love people fervently
Jesus loves me forever