Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Tagged by Merry Maree XP

Instructions:Remove one question from below and add in your personal question, making it a total of 20 questions. Then tag 8 people from your list. List them out at the end of the post. Notify them that they have been tagged.

1) At what age do you wish to marry? Anytime after 24 and that I'm able to have kids before 30.

2) Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket? Anywhere except places that I've been to

3) What’s your favourite thing to do? Read a book/online/facebook-ing/sleeping/daydream

4) Do you think money can buy happiness? Depends on the circumstance

5) Do you believe you can survive without money? Yes, if people actually donate/sponsor me food =D

6) What are you afraid to lose the most? My soul

7) If you win $1 million, what will you do? I'll save them all up in the bank to earn interest

8) List out 3 good points about the person who tagged you. Kind, soft-spoken and funny.

9) If you have only one wish, what will you wish for? More wishes! (Khoo, 2008) [See?? I reference ok?! don't say i plagiarise ah! *blek*]

10) If you could rewind time, would you? Yes, definitely!

11) What’s your ambition? To be a psychologist, a wife and mother =)

12) What’s your favourite song at the moment? David Cook's Always be my baby <3

13) If you can teleport once, where would you go? North Pole!

14) What do you think is the most important in your life? God, my family and friends, health and education.

15) If you could undo one mistake in the past, what would it be? Not lose temper so easily.

16) If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change? Not to be judgmental.

17) What music have you been listening to recently? Love songs, romantic songs, whatever you call them XD

18. What is the one thing you cannot do but you wish you could? Dance!!

19) Sushi or Steamboat? Sushi.

20) If you knew that you would die tomorrow, what would you do 24 hours before that? I would personally write letters to my loved ones with words of encouragement and to let them know that they meant something to me.

I tag: Pras, YF, Jennifer, Yee Huey, Shaun, Joyce, Xin Yi and Alison.

Thursday, July 17, 2008

It's time to breakaway

Guess where I'm going! =D See you guys soon~


Friday, July 11, 2008

Just ramblings

Warning: Do NOT, I repeat, do NOT proceed if you're prone to giving negative comments!

Hah, I know no one likes a whiny post but I'll whine all I want cause it's my blog anyway. Just need a place to express myself.

All I wanna do now is this:

I wanna cry and whine and complain and kick and scream! I don't know what's wrong with me these days. After recovering from this mysterious illness (No coughing, no sore throat, no mucous whatsoever, no fever, had diarrhea twice in 1 night, feel sleepy all the time and depressed) I have no appetite to eat anything at ALL! =( Everytime I crave for something, I don't feel motivated to go and satisfy my craving. Y? Because it's so damn freaking cold outside! So, I have to settle for something like instant noodles? OK, so instant noodles aren't that fact, sometimes I crave for them. BUT when I start eating my 1st mouthful, I feel like vomitting immediately! o.O At this point, I do sound like a pregnant woman eh? Nevermind that. So, I feel hungry and I eat...but I do NOT feel like I've eaten anything at all! My stomach feels empty and not only that, it feels like something's grinding my stomach and I feel like vomitting again! *SIGH*

Now tell me, won't you miss your mummy if you were in my shoes?! I know I do...I miss the times when I used to be sick back home. All I needed to do is lie in bed and sleep and sleep and dearest mummy'd take care of my meals, be it plain oats with cream crackers, porridge, milo with nestum or simply chicken soup. ='( I'm sure most of you have experienced that feeling of being taken care of. If you don't, then I'm not sure if I should feel sorry for you. ANYWAY, back to my ramblings. The thing is, you see, when you're sick, you feel like life's been sucked outta your body and you don't even feel like budging, what more cook?! So I had to survive on my breakfast bars and my instant 3-in-1 black sesame & oat drink for that 1 miserable day cause I didn't feel like moving! I tried going to the kitchen and cook but it was sooooo cold! I just felt like curling up under my blanket! Since I was able to get outta bed feeling less cold than before, I thought I've recovered completely but... ='( Today, I thought maybe I could be more "independent" and cook myself porridge. What do you know?! That stupid damn freaking rice! So hard to cook! Argh! It's brown rice and it's got husk as the outer layer and the last time I cooked porridge, I had to stand there and stir and add water and stir and add water for 1 whole freaking hour! So this time I started cooking at 5:30pm, thinking that maybe it'll cook before 7pm so that I can eat it as dinner but NO! The stubborn as a...nevermind. It just won't cook! I started cooking at 5:30pm and ended up eating at 7 something! By the time I finished cooking, I had no more energy left!! *faints*

My housemate, Jennifer, says that I'm not ready to live independently yet. The thing is, how do you define "independent"?? It's kind of subjective don't you think?! I mean, I can but I choose to miss my mom. So does that mean I'm not independent? I sure am living "independently" because I'm doing everything on my own. Because I'm FORCED to, not because I'm ready or anything. How do you even know if you're ready or not? =S After catching up with M, a friend from the hostel I stayed in last year, I realised both M and I are quite similar. Both of us need human touch. We need to be able to talk to people. I think that's one of the reasons why I'm so depressed. I don't have anyone else to talk to except Jennifer. It's not that I don't like talking to her or anything but I don't wanna keep bothering her with my stuff. Believe it or not, I've only learnt how to bottle up my feelings since I came here. Never back home. I used to blurt everything to mom when random thoughts cross my mind. Or my brother...used to annoy the hell outta him.

P once said to me "being independent doesn't mean you have to be lonely". And I so agree on that! I mean, I used to think if you're able to be alone, entertain yourself, live life alone, do things alone, you're independent. It's so NOT! It's called depressing! =( And I also realised something else about myself. I love to be surrounded by people. People whom I can talk to. People whom I can laugh with. I don't enjoy walking down Rundle Mall alone, looking at people passing me by. I only enjoy it when I've been surrounded by people for too long. Hah, but I haven't been surrounded by people for months now! All I need is some human touch!! If it means going out and roaming the streets alone, I'd rather stay in my room all day and read or surf the net.

OK, I admit it. I miss the life in Hosanna. Not the place, but the people, the company! Those were the days when I could just walk outta my room and into any of my friend's room!! When I'm stressed, I could just look for them to relieve stress and it actually works! At least I never always stayed in my I stay in my room most of the time...I think even the walls are laughing at me!

As I'm typing this, I just wish I could walk to the sink and vomit!!!! Hate the feeling of nausea. o.O I can just go on and on and on...enough. I'm starting to feel sleepy..

Me =(

Thursday, July 10, 2008

I'm not alone.

Well, thank God I woke up today feeling myself again! Didn't feel as cold as 2 days ago. =) Was bored so I decided to blog hop. And I came across a kindergarten friend of mine! We kinda met each other again 2 years ago under a very funny (in a weird way) circumstance. I still have that kindergarten class photo sitting on the piano back home in Penang.

Anyway, I've learnt alot from her blog. About life, God and ourselves. I always thought that I was the only one struggling through university life. Reading her blog is freaky cause it's just like reading my life out of her blog. Last year, I used to blog about how I cannot be myself in Australia because I always feel out of place and it's not where I belong. Guess what?! She feels the same way too! "Probably because there is the familiarity of the environment and friends in Penang." is what she wrote. I feel exactly the same!

She also stated that it's not the place where she's studying in that is unpleasant to live in, but because of the stress that needs to be coped that is unbearable. Well, come to think of it, it's true. Adelaide is a nice place to live in, but because of the stress assignments and exams that are piled upon us make it feel like it's an unpleasant place to live in.

One of my weaknesses is that I'm unable to let go of the past and move on. I ponder on one thing too long and too often that sometimes I fail to live the present. Remember the post about Tuck Everlasting? Now I'm afraid of not living life to its fullest. So, hopefully, from now on I shall embrace every moment of my life and not think about the past.

Hope I'm making sense here. =) Anyway, got loads to do today.


Wednesday, July 09, 2008


Another emo post. Don't say I didn't warn you.

Fell sick yesterday evening...I guess I chose the wrong day to go to Glenelg beach. It was the day with the most rain and wind. See? My grammar structure is also weird. Don't even bother to think before typing.

Anyway, I hate being sick, especially during exam period and during the holidays! I thought I could enjoy my holidays now that exam's over, but no...had to stay home and rest because I feel cold all the time and it's freaking cold outside. =(

It's times like these I wish I was back home in Penang where mummy takes care of my meals. All I need to do is rest in bed. ='( Living independently is tough. I mean, I don't mind being independent but I miss being pampered and being cared for, you know? I guess I took my mom for granted. *sigh*

Not forgetting that daddy's a doctor and mom used to be a nurse, even if I get sick, I don't have to worry about a thing because I'll be in good hands. I know, I'm being emo...It's true what they say..You'll never miss the water till it's gone...something like that.

I'm starting to feel old. While watching Lizzie McGuire the movie, I felt like I was back in high school! Back to the times when my friends and I would talk about Hilary Duff in class and that was how I got to know my other friend, M.

Watching touching movies also makes me tear sooo easily. I wonder if something's wrong with my tear glands. How can?! I never used to can a freaking movie make me cry?! =S Wish I could eat porridge now...mummy!! T.T


Monday, July 07, 2008

What would you do...

...if you could live forever?

I know it's my holidays and I shouldn't be getting myself into whirlwind of emotions since I should feel free, happy and worry-less.

Somehow, I stumbled upon the movie Tuck Everlasting at the state library while looking for something to occupy my time during the holidays. And cause I've seen it aired on Disney Channel but never gotten myself to sit down and enjoy the movie, I decided to have it a watch since it's a Disney production and I'm sure Disney movies wouldn't be a disappointment.

And yes, it was not a disappointment at ALL! It was good! I've never cried like that since I was a baby! Not exaggerating...I just cried and cried and sniff and sobbed like nobody's business (thank God my housemate, Jennifer, was out...LOL I'm sure she would've heard me sobbing). Really, it really got me thinking: Would I ever want to live forever?

At times, I thought how scary it is, to grow older and older each year, and every year, everything changes for better or for worse, whether you like it or not. Sometimes I think to myself, how nice it would be to be young and free forever...don't have to grow up, be a responsible adult, carrying all the burdens in the world on our shoulders.

*sigh* But at the same time, I feel excited for the future, I wanna know what it would be like working, maybe getting married, having kids, know? And when you've fulfilled your dreams, I bet it'd feel great, looking back at pieces of memories of your life, knowing that you've lived life to the fullest. But what if we don't? What if we look back at our lives and regret the things we did or did not do or dreams that weren't fulfilled? It'd be so shitty, wouldn't it?

I'm not sure if I should tell the story of Tuck Everlasting here...maybe you guys can go read the book or watch the movie. The movie's based on an award-winning novel BUT you know how movies are, always somehow a little different from the book. Since I said the movie was great and made me cry like never before, I can assure you that the movies great! =)

It says on the DVD cover: If you could choose to live forever, would you?

And the most favourite quote from the movie is - You do not have to be afraid of death, but be afraid of not living.=')

The ending was ermmm...sad but good. I don't know how to explain..LOL I mean, good for her I guess but bad for him. OK, I'm babbling, a sign that says I should stop now. XP I'll probably tell the story another day...make sure whoever's reading this go and either read the book or watch the movie OK?! Oh! Before I forget *hehe* the male lead character!! He's sooo darn cute! Well I loved the female lead character too, she's Alexis Bledel who stars in Gilmore Girls.

Here are some production pictures from the movie =')

The DVD cover

Alexis Bledel as Winnie Foster & Jonathan Jackson as Jesse Tuck in Tuck Everlasting


Friday, July 04, 2008


Noticed the tear and the smile?

Sometimes it's so unbelievable that good, altruistic people still exist in our midst! Seriously, people nowadays are self-centered and selfish!

Reading this actually kinda blew me away!