Super duper extremely HAPPY!!!

AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!

I'm totally on cloud 9 right now!!! =D Someone bring me back to Earth, please.

After for like, what, 1 year of losing contact with A, A finally replied my e-mail!!!!!!!!!!!!! I always thought that A would never reply my e-mails ever again but I was wrong!!

I've always admired A for his maturity. To recall back 7 years ago, when I was only 12 and A was 15, A was nice and friendly to me although I was childish and annoying (maybe, sometimes). Honestly speaking I knew A through a friend whom I talked with on the phone 7 years ago. His friend gave me his phone number and as bored and "adventurous" as I was at that time, I called A up and we ended up talking for 4 hours! Still it was unbelievable that a 15-year-old teenage guy would even talk to a 12-year-old girl. (I was really really daring back then, calling up random people on my ICQ list to talk =P not anymore =S)

A can be considered as one of my role models. A is extremely independent and smart. A was the reason I tried so hard to improve my speaking in English (after leaving an international school and started speaking in Chinese). He taught me a lot of stuff, though not all directly. I used to be so happy whenever I see him online on my MSN list. Everytime I bumped into him at some shopping mall, my heart would skip a beat out of time and time would stand still. =D Old times...

I used to think if A actually knows I exist, but question no more, cause A does!! While checking my e-mail before dinner today, there it was!!! That familiar name I used to see in my e-mail inbox! A's reply! So he's been busy with study and work....

So I've moved on...I've come out of this fantasy world of mine and found P. Sadly, I think I'm in my own world once again...cause P doesn't seem to care. Half of me wants to give up, half of me thinks that anything is possible no matter how incredible. How I wish I can just live in my dreams where everything is perfect and I'll never get hurt by life's cold hard facts! HAIH~ Oh well, life's like this...and getting hurt is part of growing up as well...so I'm a big girl now, no longer that naive 12-year-old.

Time to face reality, time to grow up and time to be strong!!

If tomorrow never comes, I hope everyone knows how much you guys mean to me and that I wish you guys all the best in everything in life! =) I know I'm starting to sound emo again...but really, you'll never know if there's a tomorrow...

p/s: I'm back to Earth, no more cloud 9...haih...=S Just made up my mind...someday we'll know...

XOXO,
Me