i don't even know who i dedicate the above to...because i'm so confused...so now i swear to myself that i'll not think of 'these' kinda things anymore...i SWEAR!!!
from now on...i'll only blog about my life...and nothing else...my life is too short, i don't wanna waste my life thinking and being confused over such matters...after all, i'm already 18...although i'm not prepared to grow up yet...i have to! next year's gonna b my turn to go into university already...wow...time flies...haha...in a blink of an eye...i'll be a married woman with 2 kids! LOL...
now i'm cracking myself up! =D
haha...sometimes before i fall asleep on my bed, i'll imagine myself in 10 years' time...how i'll look like or how my future husband look like, how many kids i'll have, what kinda job i'll b doing etc...sometimes i even imagine myself in a bikini on a sunny beach overseas! lol...so funny...last year in high school, my friend and i planned to go to Gurney Plaza to try out some bikinis...haha...cause we were so curious how we look like in bikinis...but we haven't done that yet...we haven't seen each other for months already! hope that someday we'll get to do that...and laugh our heads off! i remember in form 4, our young eng teacher came over to talk to us...and she went 'u girls are still young, if u get the chance...try on some bikinis...i remember when i went honeymoon with my husband, i wore bikini...now i think cannot adee...everything start to sag...' we were sooooo dumbfounded!! that was y we decided to do juz that in form 5 =) i know my parents will freak out if they ever find out...i guess most of my friends will freak out too...now that's the fun part! doing something that will make everyone go O.O =D
wait a min, i thought i was feeling down? haha...halfway through this post...it became a happy one...so typical of me...
i'm trying to get all the thoughts that have been stuck in my head for quite sometime out...so that i won't feel so burdened...sometimes i juz wish i had gone back to study form 6...because i hate studying in a co-ed school...i hate it loads! guys are sooo...ARGH...they're immature and wu-liao not even funny! and do u know how it feels when everyone teases u with a guy u do not like (not that i jie yi)? they always end up liking my pretty friend, which makes me look so stupid if anyone ever finds out...
oh my god...i'm so emotionally unstable now...something's bothering me...but i can't type it out here...i guess i can't tell anyone about it...*SOB* ='(
listening to Jay Chou's qing tian...