Valentine's Day...

well, yesterday was valentine's day (fei4 hua4!) and being the single as i was...i wasn't even bothered by what day it was and how i was gonna spend my night...actually i did plan to go for a dinner and a movie with an old friend of mine in high school....but due to the bio test the next day, i decided to cancel the 'date' to study at home...

anyway, i was a lil bothered by my friends though...u see, i mix with 3 other girls who have been having bf's their whole lives (juz exaggerating a lil...but it's kinda true too la...if u get what i mean) so, let's call them A, B and C.

A : she has a bf who's gone for NS and her bf is like the best in the whole wide world...y do i say that? haha...well, her mom likes her bf very very much! they are like 'engaged' d...he gave her an 'engagement' ring...A even claimed that he ties her shoe lace when they go out..like...when they're talking, all of a sudden he'll kneel down to tie for her...so sweet right?!

B : her bf is her childhood friend and is studying (and/or) living in aus...and they've been together for at least 1 year i think...not sure...anyway, they broke up on the sunday before valentine's day...

C : she's seldom single...and alot of guys are after her...she even got 9 guys asking her out on valentine's day! well, she juz broke up with her bf a week ago...

so, what about them? lol...i don't hate them or anything...it's juz that for the whole day, A's been saying 'this is the worst valentine's day ever!!!' and B, she was like so depressed...and the other 2 was like so engrossed with their 'valentine's day'...and everything i say juz wouldn't make her feel better...then C, she's been looking forward to the romantic dinner...i juz couldn't stand it!!! haha...not because i don't have a date la...

oh, and because that guy...in my previous post...who i thought i liked...i think he hates me...so i told this friend of mine...and we made a bet. if he ever opens his mouth to ask me out/confess/whatever-that-has-got-to-do-with-Vday on valentine's day, then i'll lose the bet by chia-ing her ice cream...and since i think he hates me so i was really confident in winning the bet...

the day before, we thought it was His birthday because he told a friend of mine a day before that it was his birthday the next (haha...get what i mean?) and so we bought him a card and he wanted us to chia him baskin robbins' ice cream!but after that when i reached home, i sms-ed him and actually persuaded him to chia!

so...back to valentine's day...(haha..i know, it's confusing) he planned to chia all of us (my friends and i + his friends)after class...my friends asked me..and i wasn't sure to say yes or no...cause i still wanna win that bet i had with my friend...so i wanted to see if he would actually ask me...=P then C kinda helped my other friend to win the bet! she wrote a note telling that guy's friend, D to ask him to ask me! get it? haha...and D got the wrong msg and asked me if i wanted to go...C turned around and started giving him faces...haha...that was y i knew! and that D still didn't get the msg! he asked me for the 2nd time! and C was like 'wei...u chia meh?y u ask?!' it was hilarious la!! then THE guy opened his mouth! oh gosh...i wish he hadn't!! 'u wanna come with us for baskin robbins??' ARGHHH!! i lost!!! i can't believe it!!! then i said 'ok lo....' =/ yeahla...then he dropped all of us (me and my friends and 2 of his friends) back...

end of my valentine's day...lol...it was funny la overall...=D being single rocks too! *wink*

i guess...

i'm having PMS...

i don't feel like talking, eating etc..

the other day i helped my group members type the assignment and i was so pissed that they didn't check it BEFORE i typed...but only AFTER i've printed all 8 copies for them! (of course i didn't show that i was pissed) typing this out juz made me angry again...BAH!

i was watching my korean drama halfway when my dad came in and switched it off! (i had to stop it to have my lunch) and the worse thing is the cd player inside my parents room is kinda cacat...so i can't find back the time where i stopped...

p/s : no mood to check this post too....don't care about the grammatical errors....

Ladder 49

yes...i'm overwhelmed with emotions again...

this movie is really touching...and sad....

i cried...

p/s : i think i should restrain myself from watching too much sad movies...*sniff*

Memoirs of a Geisha

watched it with my family yesterday evening...

was too overwhelmed with emotions...so wasn't in the mood to update...

i LOVE the movie!! it's so sad....but then i'm quite happy for Sayuri in the end...at least the one that she truly loves loves her too....

my friend told me that the ending in the book is different though...she said it's sad...well, now i'm not sure whether to read the book...*sigh*

well, i cried at the end...so touching...*sniff*

Words i should confess daily

I am a child of God
God is my Abba Father-my Daddy God!
God loves me just the way I am
God lives in me and I live in Him
I am a person of infinite worth
I have been created unique in every way
It is OK to love myself and take care of myself
I am created by God for every good work
God has called me and chosen me as His own
God is changing me every day to be more like Him
I am a person of great purpose and destiny
I am given talents, gifts and abilities by God
I am able to achieve great things in God
I am abounding in grace and hope
I am blessed- empowered to succeed in life
Greater is God in me than the devil in the world
I don't have to be afraid of anything for God is with me
Every bad habit I have is losing control over me
Even my enemies are at peace with me now
God is thinking good thoughts about me right now
God is planning the paths that will lead me to my purpose
I have visions and dreams from the Holy Spirit regularly
I am led daily by the Holy Spirit
I will walk in good health and live a long life
I love Jesus wholeheartedly
I love people fervently
Jesus loves me forever

Chinese New Year

wow...i've been in college for more than 3 weeks d....i think..

anyway, i'm fitting in alot more better now...

ok, that's not the point, the point is, i have this bio report on human cheek cells and onion cells!! and i don't have the slightest idea where to start!! -.-" AND our bio lecturer never smiles...really, NEVER!

oh God...i'm not in the mood to blog...i'm still deciding on whether i should like someone...haha...yeah, i decide..i don't let my heart get its way! =)

I wonder....

I was telling my friend,N, about my crush the other day at college...and i showed her his printed-out picture from the comp. (shhh...i stole his pic from his friendster page...=P) anyway, she went 'WAH...i never knew he's sooo cute! no wonder u still like him after so many years!'

I wonder if i like him for his looks...because for one, i didn't know how he looked like when i started having strong feelings towards him...and i dunno y...the sound of his voice juz makes me float! He's sooo cute when he speaks broken chinese/hokkien (he's eurasian).

Then, my friend asked me if i cried when i found out that he's already been taken, i answered 'no' and she said 'ohhhh...then u're juz having a crush on him la...u don't really like him wan....' This has made me ponder too...do i have to cry to show that i really like someone?? because i'm not very a 'crying person'...

And one more thing, if i only like him for his looks, i guess i'd grow tired of his looks adee since it's been years and there are thousands and millions of cute guys everywhere (including my college)! N asked me if i have the urge to want him...haha...and i was like 'errr...yeah, guess so' The reason i gave her that answer is because i want him but i can't have him! He's taken remember?! And if i keep 'wanting' him...i'd only break my own heart...rite?

But for now, i'm still holding on......maybe one day.....

update

i've been in college for 3 weeks already...and i guess i'm still trying to fit in...

i miss the days when i juz get out of bed and pull out my uniform from the cupboard and off into the shower! now...i think of what to wear...cause i have limited amount of clothes and bottoms...so i try to mix and match them so that i won't look like i don't change/wash my clothes...argh!

oh...and i was kinda nervous cause...ok, i admit it! i haven't mixed around with guys for like years! as u know, i was in an all-girl school...so...i was kinda scared la...dunno how to mingle with ppl of the opposite sex and all...i know u're laughing at me now...=( BUT the good news is...luckily some of them made the first move to talk to me...if not, i'll juz pretend they're not there...and hope silently that they don't think i'm lansi or anything. hehe...=P

another thing is...i kinda forget that some ppl were from eng/malay school...during the 1st week, i kept speaking chinese with everyone until that someone tells me he/she doesn't understand at all...-.-" now i kinda force myself to speak in eng...haha...unless that person speaks to me in chinese...but i was kinda surprised/shocked that my friends say i don't sound like someone who's chinese educated...=D is that good?

*smacks forehead*

*sigh*

Disclaimer : i'm not trying to show off my eng or whatever whatsoever....juz trying to let out my frustration when chatting with someone who's juz not following the conversation, or rather doesn't understand at all!

this is the actual conversation (nicknames are replaced to protect the person's identity or something like that! BAH...)

HIM was asking me if i'm going overseas after my SAM program...the blanks after 'says' are those irritating emoticons...eg. 'oo' and some annoying face pops up in the conversation window...arghh...

HIM says:
after tat u going oversea
ME says:
nope...not yet
HIM says:

HIM says:
sure got one target wan mar
HIM says:
tell me la
HIM says:
hehe

he didn't ask! how was i supposed to know that he wanted me to tell him! i mean, it's not a big deal really, but i've been facing this kinda 'prob' for ages ...they sound like i do not wanna tell them anything...like i'm super secretive...well, if u wanna know something, ASK! don't go 'tell me la...' what's with the 'la'?! don't they know how to use it?! i guess malaysians have this tendency to misuse those 'ma's, 'la's and 'lo's etc...

ME says:
well, u didnn't ask
HIM says:
y
ME says:
y what?
HIM says:
y u said u didnt ask
ME says:
well, u didn't ask...that was y i didn't tell u
HIM says:
now i asking u mar

u tell me...did he ask?!?! NO....grrrr...didn't wanna answer him...but i was trying to be friendly

HIM says:
hehe
ME says:
KL > UK
HIM says:
er
HIM says:
go kl then go uk
ME says:
what do u think??

that 'what do u think??' was supposed to be in a sarcastic tone...*sigh* instead, he gave me his innocent opinion...

HIM says:
la
HIM says:
go uk can learn many things
ME says:
yeah
HIM says:
so
HIM says:
go ahead la
ME says:
hehe
HIM says:
how many year
ME says:
1 / 2
HIM says:
kl 1/2 n uk 1/2
ME says:
UK 1 OR 2 years
HIM says:

HIM says:
wat bidang u wantted to study
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- END OF STORY -

long time no 'see'

Your Ideal Marriage Proposal Is

A Christmas proposal, with lots of snow and city lights.

What's Your Ideal Marriage Proposal?

Your Toes Should Be Blue

You're a little out there, but that means you take guys to a place that's out of this world! Your ideal guy: Zany, hilarious, and totally unpredictable. Stay away from: Anyone who has to get up for work in the morning

What Color Should Your Toenails Be?

Your Aura is Blue

Your Personality: Your natural warmth and intuition nurtures those around you. You are accepting and always follow your heart. You in Love: Relationships are your top priority, and this includes love. You are most happy when you are serious with someone. Your Career: You need to help others in your job to feel satistifed. You would be a great nurse, psychologist, or counselor.

What Color Is Your Aura?

Well, i haven't been blogging much lately...i don't think i'll ever blog again...unless i'm really free...cause college has started and the latest i reach home is already 7pm...even if i go online, i only check my mailbox, some interesting blogs and see who's online in msn...so...i now pronounce that this blog of mine is half dead =P

Freaking out

honestly...i'm starting to freak out already...

tomorrow's gonna be my 1st day at college! *SCREAMS* so terrified k? for once i'm not going to school, seeing familiar faces...and worst of all...there are guys too!! *shudders*

i never liked making new friends...not that i don't like new friends...i said i don't like MAKING new friends! ok ok...calm down...i mean when i'm all by myself with no one to talk to, i'll talk to myself non-stop!! and i'm so nervous cause college is like alot more serious than school....

anyway, gotta stop here....help me!!

The Hopeless Romantic

i took a love quiz while chatting with my crush halfway...juz got curious...wanted to find out what my love quotient is..

the title says it all...

i'm the hopeless romantic...

"no matter where the rainbow goes, you'll be chasing it, with flowers, candy, and a song in your heart"

well...i think this is the most accurate one so far....*sigh*

in a mess

honestly...ANYONE who is reading this...do not hesitate to leave me a comment ok?? 'she' in this post needs some advice...

ok, i'll be very frank as i'm not in the mood to type alot (confused with college options)...

it happened when she was 10, a 12-year-old boy, T, confessed his feelings for her...she had feelings for him too at that time, then a year later, he moved to another state...so they kinda wrote letters to each other...he even called her...she STILL had feelings for him until she was 12...she had a huge crush on A until this day (she's 17 this year)...then, this year T came to visit her on the night of christmas eve...over the years when they were apart, he often dropped hints telling her that he still feels the way he did years ago...she juz simply ignored them...afraid to face reality...she juz shrugged them off and often left clues telling him that she treats him as a friend and nothing more...one day when they went for a movie...he gave her a gift...but knowing that by accepting his gift, he might get the wrong message, she insisted that she didn't want the gift, but he said that she'll understand once she accepted the gift...and she didn't even tell him that she didn't feel the same way he did already...so..in the end...she didn't accept his gift...did she do the right thing?? should she juz ask him what he thinks she's thinking??

anything at all...juz drop by and tell me what u think she should do....and not do...anything!

Dancing

i feel like learning how to dance!! i never liked dancing....maybe because my aunt and my mom used to frighten me with those pinches the ballet instructor would give if u make any minor mistakes...this, i'm not sure as i've never learnt dancing before...

but now, i feel like dancing!! 1st i wanna learn ballet...then maybe...juz MAYBE someday i'll learn ballroom dancing...the only prob is u need to have a partner for ballroom dancing ....

actually...i got my inspiration by watching 'Innocent Steps', a korean movie...yes...u've guessed right!! it's about dancing...i didn't like ballroom dancing either until i saw that actress dance so gracefully...because the ballroom dancing i usually see...the adults dance very roughly and hiao-ly...and they yao2 too vigorously...but she...wow!! i fell in love with dancing!!

ahhh...i don't know what to say...but i hope i'll still have time when i start college...

it's christmas....but i don't feel at all extraordinarily happy or thrilled...in fact, i feel a lil disturbed...confused...

i can't decide on which college i'm going to...i think time really flies...i still can't accept the fact that i've graduated from high school!!

my neighbour (who lives on the 3rd floor) juz dropped by his rabbit for me to care for since he's going to ipoh and will b back tomorrow afternoon...so cute ok?! and its fur is as white as snow...it's no wonder my neighbour named him Snowball!

hehe...so excited to get to play with his rabbit...but i'm a lil nervous though...not sure if it'll hop here and there...haha...

so...going for lunch at my aunt's now...later!

hmmm....

i bet no one missed me...anyway, i've been enjoying my holidays by doing nothing here in singapore...living at my cousin's...so i can do whatever i want (well, not exactly) like shopping (more like window =P) and hanging at home watching TV...

the other day i was chatting with an old friend from primary school...a guy actually...who i used to argue with ALOT...i hated him then...and vice versa...lol...then he told me that primary reunion juz passed a couple of days ago...come to think of it, i've only been to our primary reunion once...cause most of the time the guys juz wanted to meet some pretty girls...those more popular ones...so i thought "what's the point?" but then this time i'm kinda disappointed that i couldn't make it (cause already in sg)...as i really really haven't seen those guys for a long long time now...(don't misunderstand k?!) it's juz that i used to be so anti-guys...and i even made alot of guy enemies during primary school...but now i chat to this particular guy who i loved to tease alot...hehe...but still...maybe i'm not that disappointed too...hehe...according to another guy who went...they paid for RM45 for a ermm...buffet lunch and BBQ dinner at night...and i dunno...he claimed that it wasn't as nice as he had expected...so...hehehe...=P

ahhhh....i love it here...not because i love the place...but because i've left all my thoughts back in penang...my worries, my fears, my everything! actually i haven't been thinking of my crush much until i heard a love song that day...*sigh* and about college applications too until my mom kept reminding me that i should start thinking about it adee...so, i guess when i go back tomorow, everything will come back to me again...now i'm considering whether i should send my crush a christmas card...since i've been sending him festive cards (including his birthday) for the past 3 years...but it's different now...he has found the girl of his dreams...

enough about my crush d...don't wanna think about him too much d...must focus on other stuff...since i'm STILL on the topic of my crush, =P i'm so proud of myself!! haha...cause during that period when i was sitting for SPM, i hardly thought of him, and even if i did, i shrugged him off to the back of my head! so proud of myself k?!

haiyah...anyway...loads of stuff that i wanna write la...but gotta get going d...so...till next time!

WORST day of my life

*sigh* it's 12:32pm now...was gonna meet my friends at the cinema 32 mins ago...but i'm sitting here typing this entry....=(

ok, it all started out like this:

i was sooo eager for this day to come as i never hung out with some of my friends before...so we decided to go for a movie marathon today...so, i asked my friend if i could borrow her digital camera battery charger so that i could charge my battery and use it today!! *fast forward* so my friend dropped off her battery for me this morning...when i was in the bathroom...i was kinda excited...*fast forward* my mom was waiting for me downstairs to take me to gurney plaza...and i was trying to wear my contact lenses cause my glasses were at the shop...so i tried my best to wear them as quickly as possible...i couldn't get the right one in..i started to tremble a lil...my fingers sweating....then, my lens dropped...and gone! i couldn't find it!! my mom even came upstairs to help me find it! after searching high and low, the lens was nowhere to be seen...i couldn't possibly go on a movie marathon without perfect eyesight! i won't be enjoying my movie to the fullest! besides, i'll be wasting my money (ok, my parents' hard-earned money) so....i had to tell my friends that i couldn't make it! *SCREAMS*

ok ok...since i'm not going out today...i'll clean my room, throw out unwanted stuff...and...watch DVD...*sigh*

what i've learnt today : never get to excited about something cause i'll end up being more disappointed....(juz excuse my grammar!! so devastated....) =((

p/s : i feel so guilty to make my friends wait for me for half an hour...if it wasn't for me, they're probably watching the 12:15pm show adee!

*GASPS*

AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!

i juz saw my crush 10 mins ago!!!!!!

*breathe in...breathe out...*

phew! he walked right past me!!!!!
he was wearing a red shirt and blue baggy jeans (not that kinda extremely baggy jeans...but that cool type...i dunno how to describe it! in other words...he looked good in it and didn't look like some gangster...GET IT?!) *inhales*


he was with a friend...i couldn't see properly (stupid me! should've worn my contact lenses!!) i think his friend was a guy...cause 'he' looked really tall and skinny...with long hair! (ick!) not only long...but tied like this....

(minus the curls n flowers...)




i'm not sure if he saw me....but i think he looked at me for a split second!!! o.O since he was busy talking while walking with his friend...i turned around to see if he was with his gf...to my relief..NO, or else my heart would've stopped beating there and then! i haven't seen him for ages....we used to bump into each other at the PSC...*sigh* memories =P i could still remember the first time i walked up to him and asked him if he was the person i thought he was...when he nodded...i juz walked off!! =S was too nervous! that was like in 2001...

i'm hoping he didn't see me though....cause i wasn't properly dressed....not that i dress when i go out...but really...my clothes were hideous....trust me on this!! i'm not that kinda girl who dresses when she goes out...so if i tell u that my clothes r hideous....believe me! to add salt to the 'wound', i was wearing a very childish 'winnie the pooh' old shirt and a 'half-shorts-half-skirt' full of teddy bears! ARGH!!

i hate to bump into him during the hols....cause now i have loads of time to think about him...could someone pls slap me?! =) oh...i forgot to mention...i bumped into him at gurney plaza...

meaningful

快乐是我的，不是你给的

hehe...finally!! spm's over and i'm outta that school for good!

but i'm not thrilled though...because i kinda 'celebrated' yesterday d =D

anyway, gonna watch a comedy to laugh until my sides ache...ciao!

8-) ---> =)

hehe...i finally got my contact lenses!!!

it was freaking hard to get the lenses to 'stick' onto my eyeball...cause i kept moving my eyeball..and i couldn't control the muscles of my eyelids...hehe...i kept closing my eyes! whoa! it was hard work getting them in!!

anyway, once they're in...wow! haha...i can see REALLY clearly!! and i couldn't feel anything there...now all i need is alot of practice!! =D i feel so excited...i dunno y =P

I SWEAR!

that i'll NEVER EVER cry because of a guy...

haha...this post is damn wu liao !

ok, anyway...i'm gonna start a beauty regiment...hehe...so i'm gonna :

• drink at LEAST 8 glasses of water a day
• exercise regularly
• sleep early
• try out some (hehe) natural beauty tips (ok...weird vocab)

i guess that's it kua...i woke up at 8am today to go for a morning walk at the botanical garden with my mom, aunt and cousin...hehe...i felt so fresh when i came home and showered! =D

i think...my mom's gonna take me to the optometrist's to check my eyesight and get contact lenses!! kinda excited...LOL...i'm sure my eye power has increased...*sigh*

Girls can live without guys u know?

well...to protect someone's privacy...i shall call her F...

i've been reading F's blog for a few weeks and almost all her recent posts were about how she's hurting inside because of a certain guy...blah blah blah....and many more...

i'm lazy to type out those pointless stuff, so i'll be very brief...

Y CAN'T U JUZ MOVE ON?!!?

ok, although crying definitely makes u feel better, but crying EVERY NIGHT to sleep?!
maybe because i haven't had a bf...but that's not the point...for me...i think i'm too egoistic to even beg him (if i have one, that is) to stay or shed tears for him! PUH-lease! if he doesn't want/like u...juz move on!! no guy is worth ur tears and the who is won't make u cry (i forgot the ACTUAL saying)

i've watched alot of movies that show girls crying over their breakup with boyfriends...*rolls eyes* i think that's juz plain dumb...don't u (i mean girls) have some dignity?! their are still alot of fishes in the sea and i'm sure u can find one that is truly urs! as for myself, i'm quite thankful i'm not that kinda girl who will break down because of some guy! Thank God! if i were like that, i think i wouldn't have handled my emotions that well (ok, not THAT well, but still...i think i handled quite well) =P

p/s : i'm not criticising the guys...but encouraging girls to move on!!! ARRGGGHHHH!!

CAN'T STAND GUYS!!

i'm soooo steaming hot right now!!

juz got off msn 'chatting' with one of the 'famous' ST's...

HMPH!now he knows how i feel when he voices pointless and rude comments to everything i say!!

AAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

i juz feel like strangling him!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm not sure if this happens to all the guys born in 1986 or juz him!!!

it seems to me that he has this PMS for guys!

*breathe in...breathe out...*

p/s : hmph!!! guys *rolls eyes* fai see choy ley! i wanna go study liao!! oh...if u happen to read this...yes, i am talking about U! and i never wanna msg/speak to u ever again!!

Fresh Air!

ahhhhh...i feel alot better today!! i can breathe properly!! =D

so...my plan for today : STUDY CHEM!!

well, i have 3 more subjects till i gain my freedom....but at the back of my head, there's a voice telling me...'aiya...3 more only...juz cincai sit for those three and get them over with!' but then another voice tells me 'NO...3 only...work hard!!' *sigh* i'm caught in between...i think i'm falling sick because of this la...can't sleep soundly at night...now i see a panda everytime i look into the mirror...(-.-)

my conclusion?? WORK HARD!! i MUST i MUST study today!!

ok, time to have breakfast...

lazy post

very lazy right now...hence the short phrases

had a runny nose the whole day...
couldn't do anything...
so...i didn't study AT ALL today...
ok i ran out of things to say...GREAT

oh, i juz remembered..

i have to sleep early *sniff* good night...

BAD + SWEET dream

BAD dream :
i only scored 3 A's in my SPM! -.-"'

SWEET dream :
i received an e-mail from my crush!!!!!! i was so thrilled in that dream, i thought i was dreaming and when i woke up, i WAS dreaming! ARRGGGHHHH!!

gonna sit for moral paper this afternoon at 2pm...*sigh*

sink or swim

how?! how?! how?! STPM's gonna be over soon....and i have like 3 more subjects after that....after doing add maths exercises the whole day today, i feel like throwing up...

i haven't been eating much these days...no appetite...maybe it's because of exams...*sigh* i need some motivation, really...i feel like i'm gonna break down any second...my heart beats real fast when it feels like it...sometimes i juz wonder if there's something wrong with me...y am i sooo nervous when everyone else can juz remain calm??? i think i'm suffering from a severe exam anxiety!

the rain has juz stopped...and i still can't get myself off the comp...cause i'm sick of sitting at my table...!!

i think i'm falling sick.....

i dedicate this song to myself :

Simon Webbe - No Worries

(I just know your life's gonna change)
(Gonna get a little better)
(Moving on the darkest day)
(I just know your life's gonna change)
(Gonna get a little further)
(Right up until the feeling fades)

So, is this how it goes,
Think you've come this far,
and then it'll show,
but that aint so, oh no,
you don't see where you are,
and if you don't wanna look back you'll never know,
cuz you think that you've been here
just treading water
waiting in the wings for the show to begin
but i always see you searching
and you try that bit harder
getting closer, oh yeah
to the life you're imagining

[Chorus]
(I just know your life's gonna change)
maybe not today, maybe not today,
but some day soon you'll be alright,
(I just know your life's gonna change)
turn the other way, turn the other way,
feels like luck is on your side,
(Just wanna live)
no worries, no worries,
(Don't wanna die)
no worries, no worries,
sing for me, sing for me,
we all need somebody,
(yeah you can sink)
no worries, no worries,
(or you can swim)
no worries, no worries,
sing for me, sing for me,
we all need somebody,

So, baby keep drifiting on
getting there aint just
selfless wasted time
seek and find, yeah
you're not that far from what you hoped
and wished for all along,
cuz you think that you've been there,
just treading water
waiting in the wings for the show to begin
but i always see you searching
and you try that bit harder
getting closer, oh yeah
to the life you're imagining

[Repeat Chorus]

I just know your life's gonna change
sing for me, sing for me,
we all need somebody...

p/s : i still don't feel any better...y does this happen to me?! i hate myself....

hehe...=D

i know i shouldn't be blogging so often as i'm facing my exams now...but because i juz had my breakfast and it's not healthy to go shower right after a meal, so i'll juz come here and let out a lil

hmmm...5 more subjects to go!! and i'm gonna do whatever i want! lol...not exactly WHATEVER

random stuff (things i wanna do after spm and things i like/dislike)

1. i'm gonna get contact lenses!!
2. gonna catch harry potter and the GOF (although i heard that even small details they failed to follow the book eg. the colour of the robes) oh well, juz wanna go watch, that's all...can't expect too much from it though...
3. throw away all my useless books (such as chinese? and ermmm malay?)
4. keep long hair!! (this is a sure thing...my hair is growing quite long d now...)
5. i dislike ppl 'whatever'ing in my face...in fact, i hate it...i juz try to restrict myself from exploding
6. i hate ppl poking my sides...so annoying
7. i hate ppl 'body-glove'ing me...
8. i love laughing until my sides or my cheeks hurt
9. i love daydreaming
10. i love staring blankly into space
11. i love sitting in the living room, flipping through astro channels all day!
12. i'm so gonna hang out with my friends after spm...
13. i hate ppl not taking me seriously when i really need them to...
14. oh!! i'm gonna rent loads and loads of korean drama series to watch after spm =D
15. i'll be dreading to receive news on which batch (NS) i'm going to =(
16. i'm gonna look for a part-time job so that i can buy a handphone! hehe...see first la...so much stuff to do...

i think my comp's going crazy...it keeps making this weird noise i'm so afraid it will explode...so...later!! (later as in...a few days later =P)

ARRRRGGGHHHH!! (part 2)

hehe...u can call me wu liao...i visited www.epitomemodels.com and i came across this ad looking for models between the ages of 14-22 (females)...then my heart nearly stopped beating when i saw THIS -> no height restrictions...!!! i couldn't believe my eyes...but as i expected, only for residents of Connecticut, Colorado, Vermant, Maryland, North Dakota and Puerto Rico...

*sigh* there goes my chance =D in case u're wondering if i wanna make a living by modelling...u're so wrong! haha...i juz wish to do stuff that i like being an air-hostess, model while i can (*blush* i know maybe i don't have the talent, but i'm sure practice makes perfect? keke) etc.

i still remember when i flipped through the papers, i was soooo thrilled when i saw that headline : DREAM OF BEING A MODEL? (ok, i forgot the exact words...but it meant the same....i guess =P) in Star Metro early this year. so i quickly scanned through the article and was so happy when Vanessa Diamonds was looking for a model to promote their new collection of Jewellery! but as i look further, they were looking for females between the ages of 18-(forgot d) see?! i only remember that 18!! BLOODY 18!! i'm juz a year younger! how disappointing...and the photoshoot was held at gurney plaza! i wanted to go take a peek...but i think it was around my exams...sheesh!

p/s: and again, pls excuse my poor eng...having a bad runny nose...hate it!

ARRRRGGGHHHH!!

ok, juz came back from school...juz sat for BM2 and guess what?! i didn't know how to do the tatabahasa part AND and i didn't have enough time to finish it!!

shit! hope i pass this subject if not i'm gonna have to migrate to overseas! =(

didn't see that coming!

haha...yes, i've always wanted to become a model...although my height doesn't even reach the minimum for models (juz excuse my grammar in this post...gotta be quickm can't waste too much time online) ok, where was i? oh yeah...i logged in to my inbox and i got this e-mail :

Dear ,
Recently, you submitted your photos to ModelNetwork.Com and I believe you will greatly benefit from a convention being held by Model Search America in Las Vegas, December 2nd - 4th.

Model Search America is hosting one of the largest National Model Conventions. Aspiring and current models and actors will be able to audition in front of over 50 of the world's Top Modeling and Talent Agencies, Casting Directors, and Magazines in person.

Among those scheduled to attend include: Elite, Request, Major, NY Models, Irene Marie, ID Models, Wilhelmina, Abrams Artists, casting directors for over 10 different reality shows, and magazines including Cosmo Girl, Vibe, and Allure.

If you are serious about getting into the industry, I highly suggest that you schedule an interview today!

To schedule an interview, please go to:http://www.modelsearchamerica.com/AOSDOFEDF.cfm?id=1008

For more information, please feel free to visit:http://www.modelsearchamerica.com

Hope to see you there!

Best Regards,
Model Network


one thing that's weird though...i didn't submit any of my photos...and when i clicked on the url 'to schedule an interview' =P, there's this form to fill in...ANNNDD it's only for the american citizens -.-" but one thing that's surprising is that they didn't ask for the height, weight, measurements..etc which is quite ermm...abnormal? lol...

ok, enough....gotta study...

You Are 30% Addicted to Blogthings

Okay, so you know how to take and post a Blogthing. But you're no addict. (Hey, this quiz *proves* it!) For you, Blogthings is more of a healthy habit. At least, that's what you tell yourself!

How Addicted To Blogthings Are You?

phew! i'm not addicted to blogthings....it's sooo accurate! i'm not! ok, now going to bed...c ya! *yawns*

How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often. You give and take equally in relationships. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You're secretly hoping your partner will change for you. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

lol...no comments? =)) ok..the reason y i'm not doing anything constructive is because i juz ate a whole plate of ermm...pasembur (how do u spell that damn word?!) and going straight to sleep isn't good for health...and i'm not in the mood to study as i feel quite sleepy already, so here i am!

Your Blogging Type is Pensive and Philosophical

You blog like no one else is reading... You tend to use your blog to explore ideas - often in long winded prose. Easy going and flexible, you tend to befriend other bloggers easily. But if they disagree with once too much, you'll pull them from your blogroll!

What's Your Blogging Personality?

what do u think?? *grins* =D

You Are The Opposite of Machiavellian

You don't have a cynical, power hungry bone in your body. Honest and kind, you believe being a good person is the most important thing. While your upstanding morals should be admired, be careful! You're at risk for being manipulated and toyed with.

How Machiavellian Are You?

ah...it's no wonder why everyone loves me...hahaha....

You Are Not Scary

Everyone loves you. Isn't that sweet?

How Scary Are You?

got too wuliao, so i took a few ermmm...quizzes? =D more to come!

random stuff 2

Your Hair Should Be Orange

Expressive, deep, and one of a kind. You pull off "weird" well - hardly anyone notices.

What's Your Funky Inner Hair Color?

hehe...i was thinking the same too =D if i had the chance i would try for blue/red/purple *wink*

anyway...can u believe it?! i wasted my whole afternoon doing like 2 - 3 questions of add maths because i kept making mistakes and turns out i need more than an hour to finish one bloody question!

ARGHHH...anyway, juz here to 'update' a lil to warn anyone who sees me with orange-coloured hair on the streets ;)

random stuff

it's amazing how SPM and STPM is SOOO near and yet...kryptos5 can keep updating his blog like it's the easiest thing to do...(ok, i'm crapping)

anyway, no mood to study now...how?!
i tried studying history yesterday the whole day....and i juz can't get the facts into my head...i think i prefer science subjects more now....maybe...juz MAYBE i'm gonna drop history...hope i don't get a D for that...a C is good enough =D so...ok ok...i'll juz go with the flow...i'll try my best...won't wanna give up on any subjects...i kept dreaming last night which resulted in improper sleep...(see? my eng sux...hope anyone reading this understands) those stuff i read in the day kept appearing in my dreams...ARGHHH!

i juz hope i wake up from this bad dream soon....can't wait....=(

HOW AH?!

i think i've fallen for a blogger! hehehe...aiyoh...dunno la...i said i THINK nia...

i know this entry is pointless la...cause i'm really wu liao now...so...hehehe...

p/s: but of course i won't abandon my crush for him la...=D

LOL

today was juz simply great!!
haha...everything that has got to do with my form teacher (also add maths teacher) is juz funny!!
did i mention that he doesn't have a temper? lol...and when we tease him...he gets all red in the face!
anyway, today my friend and i couldn't wait till tomorrow to know our positions in the whole form..so we went to look for him (let's juz call him Mr. S)...

this is what happened :

Me : (direct translation from chinese) Teacher ah, ermm...are u free? *smiling*
Mr. S : *looking at the computer screen* y?
Me : we wanna know our positions in the whole form...*grinning nervously* we can't wait no more...
Mr. S : aiyoh...the book is in my car woh! *handing me his car keys* u can get the book from my car...
Me : *nervous* huh? errr....ai meh? (i thought he shouldn't trust us with his car...since we've already reached the legal age to drive =P)

well, he already handed me his keys and they were already in my hand! so...haha...my friend and i were giggling away with his keys...and no...we didn't do anything that we weren't supposed to do =D oh...did i mention that his car remote has been er...repeatedly being 'repaired' by cellophane tape?! so...we assumed that his car remote is down...

when we reached his car, we opened the back door and i poked my head into the backseat to look for his so-called book...his car was a mess i tell u! things scattered and i even found a t-shirt under the piles of stuff...haha...ok..no luck with the backseat...so we tried to open the boot when....the alarm went off! and that split second i thought i was gonna be in deep trouble! luckily my friend fixed it...and so we found his book in the boot and along with our report cards all lying there...*sigh* that man...we even saw a student's autograph book in there!

so i carried his book in my arms and we went right back to him...he asked us to look ourselves initially but changed his mind...

Mr. S : u can look for urselves...errr...cannot cannot cannot...*taking the book from me* cannot let u guys see some things...
Me : haha...anything that can't be seen?
Mr. S : yeah...secrets! *grinning* there...u guys can only see these 3 pages...

nothing funny right? (although i think there is =D )
i was thinking the moment he said that there were 'secrets' in that book of his...we could've have juz flipped through his book when we got it from his car! haha...adui...that man...really blur wan *shakes head* so cute la him!

oh...and then when we were checking our positions...he came over and asked us how we did...and i didn't wanna tell him my name...(yes...he doesn't know my name...mostly form teachers know the names of their students right?) i juz stood there and grin...haha...checking OTHER people's positions...hehe..and he thought it was mine...

Mr. S : *saw me pointing to a position* wah..not bad ah...no. 4 in class!
Me : huh?! no no no...not me =D
Friend : haha..teacher...she's ee lin...must know our names la...we always come and look for u!

he tried to check my position after that....but somehow he saw the position above mine...hahaha...which was 22nd in class (22nd is better than mine la...i got 25th in class! =.=" ) so i juz kept quiet! hahaha...

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juz got off msn with a former classmate of mind in primary school....used to have loads of disagreements with him...but now...weird...he added me first in friendster...and even started sending me friendster msgs....and somehow...we became better friends than last time! we even sent each other songs...lol...his father teaches at our school...and his father is quite a cute teacher too...haha....

p/s : i know...unsistematic and bad english...*sigh* i juz can't get myself to gather my thoughts properly...and my eng? blame it on my bm teacher! =P listening to her speak eng can be hell la!

Yea Baby~ =D

i've graduated!!!!!!!
now i'm really really glad that our graduation ceremony is over!! it was such a bore!! the neverending speeches and award givings....*yawn*
ok, now i'm in PJ's after coming back from my graduation dinner!!
it was a blast, baby!! took loads of pics!! maybe gonna post them up here after SPM...since i've no mood to do these kinda things now...have to focus on my FUTURE...that is the three-letter word...*shudders*
this is gonna be a very unsistematic post cause my feelings are juz jumbled up...not exactly sad though...i don't even feel the slightest bit of sadness...ok, maybe juz a LIL...parting with friends all those stuff but leaving this school? hmmm....it seems like a dream come true! too good to be real! i know...some ppl say i'm cold-blooded...but really, i really hate myself when i cry or get too emotional...i would juz go totally outta control...
oh...and i feel so guilty...ok, not my fault...the food...we were sooo engrossed with the performances until the whole chicken was left untouched...*sigh* what a waste...some kids are suffering in africa or some other parts of the world because of malnutrition and we....the lucky kids...are wasting food! ARGHHHH...
then again...i'll definitely miss those cute male teachers! lol...not cute as in handsome...but cute as in cute! haha....i mean male teachers, they really have a sense of humour and they don't scold us girls unless we make them really really mad but normally...male teachers don't hold grudges...*winks* i'm sure the 2 male teachers i'm gonna really miss are my physics teacher and my form teacher (who also teaches us add maths)...female teachers...hmmm...let's see...oh, there's this english teacher who taught me in form 3 and form 4 and she juz gave birth to a daughter! awww....CONGRATULATIONS!! (i doubt she'll read this =( ) anyway...was planning to take pics with alot of teachers but they....hmph! how could they?! alot of them went home early!
ok ok.... then i bumped into my friend from CLHS...who came to go to gurney with a few girls...lol...and we took a pic together and his face turned out so 'snoi'!! hahaha~ don't worry, he won't read this...no one will!
omg, i thought this was gonna be short but i can't stop babbling!
oh! now i remember...after our dinner towards the end of the night...ppl started to cry! oh my God! and u guessed right...i didn't cry =D so i was seen everywhere hugging crying people...and tell them that everything's ok? lol...how stupid of me huh?

aiyoh...continue in another post when i've thought of something to type...haha...and photos will probably by up in dec ...haha...

Rent

i juz hate myself! i blog-hopped and guess what? i came across a post on Rent....it's a movie title, juz so u know =D and....i think this movie (based on a musical) is really gonna inspire me...i read the synopsis on yahoo! movies...and it's very inspiring....i love the soundtrack too! it's called 'seasons of love'...very meaningful!! i can't wait till my SPM's over...i'm definitely gonna watch this one! i juz love inspiring movies....they make me cry =')

Seasons of Love

Five Hundred Twenty-Five Thousand
Six Hundred Minutes
Five Hundred Twenty-Five Thousand
Moments So Dear
Five Hundred Twenty-Five Thousand
Six Hundred Minutes
How Do You Measure - Measure A Year?

In Daylights - In Sunsets
In Midnights - In Cups Of Coffee
In Inches - In Miles
In Laughter - In Strife
In - Five Hundred Twenty-Five Thousand
Six Hundred Minutes

How Do You Measure
A Year In The Life
How About Love?
How About Love?
How About Love?
Measure In Love

Seasons Of Love
Seasons Of Love

In Truths That She Learned
Or In Times That He Cried
In Bridges He Burned
Or The Way That She Died

It's Time Now - To Sing Out
Tho' The Story Never Ends
Let's Celebrate
Remember A Year In The Life Of Friends

Remember The Love
Remember The Love
Remember The Love
Measure In Love

Measure, Measure Your Life In Love

ok, this is the 3rd time i'm editting this post and repost it...haha...here's some of the movies i think are rather inspiring :
a walk to remember
honey
love actually
butterfly effect

i PROMISE!! no more editting! =D

High School Graduation!!

WARNING : I'M TOO HAPPY SO EXCUSE MY GRAMMAR MISTAKES...I'VE GOTTA GO CHANGE AND GO TO BED REAL SOON!

hehe...tomorrow's my high school graduation day!! i'm thrilled!! y? i'm happy to be leaving this school...cause basically i didn't quite like this school the first time i stepped in (when i was still in primary school)...first impression was : prefects everywhere...and i mean EVERYWHERE! how i dreaded the day i would one day step into PCGHS!

i still remember clearly when i first came to high school...i was appalled that there's even a book entitled 'School Rules' AND we're to sit for the exam on.....yes, school rules?! ridiculous huh?! not only that! the prefects are everywhere to make ur life as miserable as it can get...not forgetting the pressure! i never felt pressure in my studies before...cause in primary school, i didn't know anything...yes, ANYTHING! i didn't even know there were exams...trust me...i was that stupid...when the exam papers were distributed, i juz finished them as told AND when i finished way ahead of the other students guess what i did?! lol...i coloured the pics on the exam sheets! =D

so, i thought high school life was gonna be easy...oh well...i changed my mind =P anyway, i'm so looking forward to tomorrow!! the other reason i'm excited to graduate is that i'm gonna travel a brand new road...to my destiny...haha...and i'm curious what awaits me at the end of the road...

ok ok...i noticed my english is sooooo going down the drain...don't wanna type liao =B

Animal Abuse?!?!

"...showed that the dog had an empty stomach, shrunken kidneys, a brittle ribcage, indicating inadequate nutrition over the years, and haemorrhage in its lungs, a sign of pneumonia."

ARGHHH...the first thing i saw when i flipped the papers this morning was a poor-looking dog...*sigh*...as a dog lover, i don't even know why people would abuse their pets (any kind of pets)?! if u don't like pets/can't take the responsibility to take good care of it, why take them as pets in the first place?!

and who was the abuser?! an ENGINEER! an educated human being! *speechless* he claimed he was too busy with his work and his house-moving (if i'm not mistaken), can't he juz ask someone to help him look after his German Shepherd for a while?! argh...i'm too angry to say anything d....>( don't know what's becoming of this world....

P.S. : got this from my friend's blog -> Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day...

Why does this happen to me?

finally....

i got my NS letter...if u think i'm happy.....u're WRONG!! i was dreading it!! didn't wanna go for NS...cause i've got plans for my holiday...and i was planning to learn driving...laze around at home, rent some korean romantic drama series and cry my eyes out....and now...i'm ALREADY crying my eyes (or heart?) out....lol...no la...juz a way of saying it...not crying ler...............................................................WAHHHHHH :'(

*speechless*

I juz wanna breakaway...=(

Kelly Clarkson - Breakaway

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I just stared out my window
Dreaming of a could-be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray (I would pray)

Trying not to reach out
But when I'd try to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I pray (I would pray)
I could breakaway

[Chorus:]
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
I'll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget all the ones that I loved
I'll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)
And breakaway

[Chorus]

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging around wild indoors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

I'll spread my wings
And I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk
Take chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

My Seduction Style : Au Natural =D

Your Seduction Style: Au Natural

You rank up there with your seduction skills, though you might not know it.That's because you're a natural at seduction. You don't realize your power!The root of your natural seduction power: your innocence and optimism. You're the type of person who happily plays around and creates a unique little world.Little do you know that your personal paradise is so appealing that it sucks people in.You find joy in everything - so is it any surprise that people find joy in you? You bring back the inner child in everyone you meet with your sincere and spontaneous ways.Your childlike (but not childish) behavior also inspires others to care for you.As a result, those who you befriend and date tend to be incredibly loyal to you.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

hehe...i never knew i could seduce ppl *evil grins* =)))) what do u think? (oops...i forgot, no one i know reads my blog) lol....anyway...gtg...lalala~

Cocoa Rush

20 chocolate facts that you might not know! (copied this from www.mtvasia.com)


1. The Swiss consume chocolate at roughly 22 lbs (almost 10kg) per person each year, and lead the world inchocolate consumption per capita.

2. Mozart made a reference to chocolate in his Italian opera, Cosi fan tutte, loosely translated as "Women areall like that". In one scene, the delicious wonders of chocolate are extolled.

3. Research indicates that dark chocolate, like red wine, contains substantial amounts of flavonoid phenolics,which may lower the risk of heart disease.

4. The number one selling chocolate candy bar in theUnited States is Snickers.

5. The word "chocolate" is derived from the language of the Mayan& Aztec Indians; the beans we use today for chocolate productsused to be called "chocolatl."

6. The first "chocolate box" was introduced by Richard Cadburyin 1868, when he decorated a candy box with a painting of his young daughter holding a kitten in her arms.

7. One plain milk chocolate candy bar has more protein than a banana.

8. Chocolate's scientific name, Theobroma, means "food of the gods."

9. In the 16th century, monks and nuns particularly enjoyed drinking chocolate as a treat while they were fasting from meals.

10. In Hershey, Pennsylvania, USA, the streetlights along "Chocolate Avenue" are in the shape of Hershey Kisses.

11. White chocolate isn't really chocolate because it contains nochocolate liqueur.

12. An Internet search for "chocolate" can turn up more than1 million results!

13. Today, chocolate is an ingredient found in everything from shampoos to cellulite creams to spa products.

14. A single chocolate chip provides sufficient food energy for an adult to walk 150 feet.In other words, it would take about 35 chocolate chips to go a mile, or 875,000 for an around-the-world hike!

15. French emperor Napoleon Bonaparte was said to have carried chocolate with him on his military campaigns, as a source of quick energy.

16. Chocolate syrup was used for blood in the famous 45-second shower scene in Alfred Hitchcock's movie, Psycho. The unforgettable scene took seven days to shoot!

17. Eating chocolate began in 1674 when the first chocolate cake was baked.

18. Doctors have reported that people who eat chocolate three times a month couldadd a year to their lives, because chocolate is filled with cell-protecting antioxidants.

19. Chocolate's first role in a major motion picture was in 1933's Dinner At Eight starring screen goddess Jean Harlow.

20. Dental studies report that contrary to widespread belief, eating chocolate does not cause cavities.

STUPID friendster!!

juz when i thought i could still have a crush on my crush (weird sentence structure again =P), stupid friendster has to go and add dunno what ******* feature!! (excuse my vulgarity) a feature which allows u to see who viewed ur page!! u know what that means?! that means i can't view my crush's page anymore...he'll know who views his page! and guess what? i view his page nearly every day ok?! (at least everytime when i online) ARRGGGHHHHH!!

He's beautiful

James Blunt - You're Beautiful

My life is brilliant
My love is pure
I saw an angel
Of that I'm sure

She smiled at me on the subway
She was with another man
But I won't lose no sleep on that
'Cause I've got a plan

You're beautiful. You're beautiful
You're beautiful, it's true
I saw your face in a crowded place
And I don't know what to do
'Cause I'll never be with you

Yeah, she caught my eye
As we walked on by
She could see from my face that I was
Fucking high
And I don't think that I'll see her again
But we shared a moment that will last till the end

You're beautiful. You're beautiful
You're beautiful, it's true
I saw your face in a crowded place
And I don't know what to do
'Cause I'll never be with you

You're beautiful. You're beautiful
You're beautiful, it's true
There must be an angel with a smile on her face
When she thought up that I should be with you
But it's time to face the truth
I will never be with you

p/s : this song's very significant to me...cause after feeling sad i saw my crush's pics of him and his gf...i heard this song TWICE today...so...for my case...all the 'her' and 'she's are replaced by 'him/his' and 'he's =D i LOVE this song!! oh, and 'man' becomes 'woman'... =P

i'm speechless!!

i know u guys who r reading this would scold me for being so stupid...so naive...

but i don't care!!! i'm saying this....cause this is MY blog!!

i juz went to visit my friendster page AND the new feature which shows u updates that r made by ur friends on the page? showed me that my crush has juz added new photos so as curious and as excited as i was...i quickly visited his page only to find pics of him and his gf!! they weren't making out (a good thing...since young ppl love making out, dunno y...), they weren't doing anything disgusting...BUT because of that it's like totally romantic!! juz a normal hands-around-the neck pic...their cheeks were close together...so sweeeeet! awww...i felt sad but happy at the same time...i'm glad the person i like is so, u know, not as disgusting as those immature guys nowadays? =D this proves i have good taste =P

p/s : u may think i'm faking this...but no...y would i? i'm so happy for my crush and his gf...they've been going out for a year (or more?) now...cause if their love doesn't last...that would definitely mean something, RIGHT? *wink* [if u're too dumb and think that if their love doesn't last i'll grab him...NO!! u're so wrong! what i mean is...either they don't love each other enough/he's a playboy/he's not good enough/his gf is not good enough/i have bad taste. hahahaha...i was sad a min. ago, but now i think they make a really perfect couple!!

memories and blogs

was looking at my crush's pics a few mins ago...and suddenly i'm overwhelmed with mixed feelings...and some memories actually flashed back...(not that we've been together before...mind u!)

the memories were about:
how i got to know him
how we talked on the phone for hours
how i would bump into him (at the club or mall)
how i would get so excited when i see ANYTHING that has got to do with him (his nickname, his club no. etc)
how i would go borrow the exact CD he watched/borrowed
how i would try to get some info from his best friends (=P)
how i would visit his friendster page everytime i online
how i would get so excited when i see him online (even though he's in away/busy mode)

*sigh* memories....i'm gonna graduate (from high school) in less than a month and he's probably going overseas to further his studies...and i haven't been bumping into him much lately because of our own studies...

the other day i borrorwed 'legally blonde' from the club and after watching it i thought to myself : i wonder if he's borrowed this CD b4...so i checked the 'thing' at the back of the CD...and my heart was beating so fast it felt like it was gonna jump out of my mouth!! he borrowed that exact CD in April 2003! i stared at his club no. for quite a while before i came back to reality...lol...stupid huh?

oh well...i've been visiting an Asian Australian woman's blog lately...and i love her blog!! she's so consistent in updating her blog and the layout of her blog is all designed by she herself...she's really down-to-earth...and her life seems really fun although she's married with 2 adorable kids!! (she posts her kids' pics on her blog) =D so cuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuutttte!!

The Ring

i juz watched The Ring with my parents last night till midnight...and i think it's a pretty good movie...at least it has got a STORY behind it...some sort of mystery...compared to The Grudge (Ju-On). Maybe ppl may find my passion for supernatural stuff weird..hehe...but anything out of ordinary fascinates me!! And i often imagine myself investigating weird cases...eg. the death of several ppl after listening to Gloomy Sunday and the tape which causes ppl's deaths 7 days after watching it. I can't stop thinking of the scenes in The Ring as there are several scenes which i still do not understand...so i think i'd better surf the net to find out.

p/s : to anybody who's reading this post and have watched The Ring, could u tell me the exact story behind that tape? i don't get the 'anna morgan and the horses and her daughter, Samara' part...thank u!

scary dream!

straight to the point!

last night i dreamt that:

my 5-year long crush's my neighbour and we were the best of friends until....one day when we were outside our house eating, my friend who thinks i should tell him how i feel kinda indirectly told him...it went like that -

MF - My friend
Me - Me, of course
A - my crush

A - so, hows life lately?
Me - great! u?
A - yeah...same here, gonna go out later *flashes me a smile*
Me - oh...have fun then! *flashes him a bigger smile*
MF - y don't u ask 'Me' to go with u?
Me - .....what...da...?!???
MF - well since she has a crush on somebody....
Me - ...???...
A - huh?
MF - *looks at Me* i thought ur crush's name is A ?
Me - *nervous laugh* haha...yeah...so what? i mean there are alot of A's in the world, right? no big deal!
A - (silently stands up and wears his shoes, preparing to go out)

that's my dream! scary right?! lol...to me, it was! i was so scared he wouldn't be my friend anymore!! haha...but as i'm typing this update now...he's online on my msn list, away....

a suicide song? wow!!

i juz came across an update posted by my friend's friend (kryptos5) about a song which caused the deaths of several ppl after listening to the suicide song 'Gloomy Sunday' which was composed by a man after his breakup with his gf...something like that...and his gf committed suicide after listening to it when the song came out...

at first i thought it was juz a story....but then he (kryptos5) included a few web url's on his site and i went to visit them...so it's true...and as curious as i was, i d/led the song...but lucky for me, i'm still alive, typing this post here...lol...it was sad...but not to the extent where i'll commit suicide juz because of a song...to me it wasn't that depressing...it was dragging...=P but i still find everything so surreal (about the suicides)...i guess those who committed suicide already had some things that had been bothering them...so when they listened to it, it made them even more depressed...that's what i think...cause usually when i'm depressed...even the happiest song makes me more depressed...

haha...i'm not here to analyse their deaths though...but it would be really fun to investigate it...it's very exciting to me!! i never knew ppl could kill themselves after listening to a song...it's quite tragic actually......

trials over...what's next?

i know i haven't been updating my blog for ages and i've said it before that i'm not gonna update it anymore...but i change my mind...i've been visiting a singaporean lady's blog for quite a while now...and i'm amazed that she updates her blog nearly every day and if possible, she'll post some interesting pics about the day...eg. she posted a pic of the noodles she cooked for herself when she fell sick...etc.

so, what day is it today? hmm...it's the last day of my trial exam!!! yeah, i shouldn't be too happy...YET! there's a worse one to come in November! *shudders* BUT....i'm really happy it's over as i didn't do much preparation for my trials and i KNOW my results are gonna look F*****G horrible! *blush* i know, i never used the 'F' word before...but here, it's totally necessary..TRUST me!

well, some interesting stuff did happen though...let's see...i've forgotten which day but last week when i was about to cross the road opposite my apartment, a car stopped in front of me hence blocking my way...i was taken aback for a moment, all sorts of pics went rushing through my head, fearing somebody was gonna attack me and dump me in the middle of the road! lol...i know, i have a very wild imagination. anyway, back to the story, the window on the passenger's side wound down and the driver (a guy in his 20's or early 30's i guess) leaned forward and said 'xiao3 mei4 mei4 ah, zen3 yang4 qu4 kek lok si ah?' [translation : little girl, how do u get to kek lok si?] i was stunned he called me little girl! ok, so i wasn't sure how to get to kek lok si, all i know is that if u know how to reach air itam, u can reach kek lok si...so i asked him if he knew how to go to air itam and he asked me how =.=" so i told him to look out for road signs to air itam and follow them...again he asked me if he needs to get to bandar baru first...i said i wasn't sure but once he reaches air itam then it shouldn't be a problem for him la...he said ' ok, thank u very much! (in chinese) ' and so i continued my 'journey' home! *wink*

a few months back when i was walking home, i saw a man with a walking stick from afar...i wasn't wearing my specs so i couldn't really see him clearly. he walked like a normal person (meaning he walked with a normal pace...lol..) he was practically walking straigt towards me...that second i thought he was gonna pounce on me and attack me...so i kept my cool and continue walking until i realised he was blind when he was a few meters away from me! i nearly walked straight into him! (or did he nearly walk straight into me?) whoa...what a relief that was!

i guess this is the longest post in my whole entire life...and the most meaningful one...hehe...i'm so glad trial exam is over!!! but i have to start studying REAL soon!

p/s : pls excuse my grammatical errors *wink*

If I Were You

hehe...i've got another favourite song...

it goes something like this (i typed it out by juz listening):

Chorus:
If I were U
I would never let me go
If I were U
I would always love me so
If i were U

I can play your part in life
But i would surely walk my way
I cannot think the way u think
But i would never go away

U can trust me when i say
That i will always be for real
U can always count on me
No matter how alone u feel

[Chorus]

I can tell u what to do
I can only hope for more
More decisions to be good
Like the way they were before

I can dream the things u dream
Cause i would.........

lol...couldn't keep up d...
so, ciao! =P

Bad Boy

haha...what were u thinking? it's a title to a disco song...i really love this song as it has got this really upbeat tune...and it's quite a nice sing-along song too!

it goes like this :

Remember the feelings
Remember the day
My stone heart was breaking
My love ran away
This moment i knew i would be someone else
My love turned around and i fell

Chorus
*Be my bad boy
Be my man
Be my weekend lover
But don't be my friend
U can be my bad boy
But i understand*
That i don't need u in my life again
Won't u [repeat *]
That i don't need u again
No, i don't need u again

You once made this promise
To stay by my side
But after sometime u juz push me aside
U never thought that a girl could be strong
Now i'll show u how to go on

Chorus

i love the tune so much!! hehe~ok...i've wasted enough time...time to go......SHOWER!

i juz wanna SCREAM!!!!!

y? because busybody me went and visited my 5-year long crush's friendster page...and guess what i found!? a pic of him and his gf!! well, they weren't making out or doing anything extreme but that's the most mushy pic i've ever seen on his page! *sigh*

anyway, it's no big deal....i must focus on the stuff i have to do...so...off to study now! =P

embarrassing!!!

ok, everytime i announce that my blog is dead, it's alive again...lol...

today i had to stay back at school to clean the toilet!! ARRGHHH! if u're wondering y, it's because i didn't come early to school to pick up 'sampah' so cleaning the toilet is a form of punishment...of course i wasn't the only one! *yippy* haha...

well, luckily i didn't really have to CLEAN the toilet...all i did was transferring the "toilet rubbish" in to a plastic bag and throw it away....but it was gross!! u know what's in the "toilet rubbish" ?! EWWWWW~

oh, and while on my way to the toilet...i kinda bumped into my form teacher! phew! i was lucky he didn't see me or else he'd know i've been punished to 'clean' the toilet =D and that would kinda affect what he writes in my testimonial....maybe....maybe not...

so...hehe...i'm done spilling...

WHAT did u say?!

OMG! u know what?! my 5-year-long crush performed at my friend's prom last saturday afternoon!!! if i knew that he would be performing earlier, i would go there (evergreen hotel) and take a peek at him!! ARRGHHH! for years i've been missing his performances....*sigh*

anyway, another thing i would like to tell the whole world...this blog is officially dead...cause i don't feel like blogging anymore...it's juz so not real...by the time i finish typing a post, i don't feel what i felt a min. ago anymore...besides, no one visits my blog anyways...=B according to a friend of my bro's, my blog is full of crap *rolls eyes*

somebody juz pinch me, would ya? my trials is coming REAL SOON....but what am i doing?! i'm wasting my time!! i juz don't feel like studying...everytime after lunch, i'll feel sleepy...zzzZZZ! and everytime when i wanna sit down and start studying...i'll find that i haven't finished my homework! ok ok...i'm juz looking for excuses...so...i'm off to doing my homework now...and hopefully study after that!! *crosses fingers*

p/s : won't be hearing from me...until an angel smiles on me! =P

a song to end this post *wink*


Michelle Branch - Breathe
I've been driving for an hour
Just talking to the rain
You say I've been driving you crazy
And it's keeping you away

So just give me one good reason
Tell my why I should stay
'Cause I don't want to waste another moment
Saying things we never meant to say

And I… take it just a little bit
I hold my breath and count to ten
I've been waiting for a chance to let you in

If I just breathe…
Let it fill the space between
Oh no, everything is alright
Breathe… every little piece of me
You'll see everything is alright
If I just breathe

Well the talks are overrated
Am I saying how you feel?
So you end up watching chances fade
And wondering what's real

And I… get you just a little time
I wonder if you realize
I've been waiting 'til I see it in your eyes

If I just breathe…Let it fill the space between
Oh no, everything is alright
Breathe… every little piece of me
You'll see everything is alright
If I just breathe…
Breathe… so I whisper in the darkOh can you hear… me?
Do you hear… me?

If I just breathe…Let it fill the space between
Oh no, everything is alright
Breathe… every little piece of me
You'll see everything is alright
Everything is alright
If I just breathe… breathe

I've been driving for an hour
Just talking to the rain

exchange student

this is an outdated post...so the following is what happened on 11th August...

something 'interesting' happened today...the jap girl we were talking about a few days ago finally arrived at our school...nearly the whole school knows about it and we were so anxious to see her...lol...(juz to kaypo actually) today after recess, i heard my monitor saying to her friend 'hey, i saw her....(couldn't make out what she said exactly)...wearing grey skirt.....long hair...' so i asked my friend sitting behind me what class will that girl be studying in...she said the class next to us!! wow!!

ok, we weren't exactly concentrating during chem lesson cause it seemed that everyone was sooo eager to see her (the jap girl)! haha...right after our chem lesson, we rushed to the next class to see this 'legendary' girl...and guess what? nearly the whole class was surrounding her...well, as kaypo as i was....i joined the crowd too...haha...there was nothing much about her actually...juz an ordinary jap girl, long hair, yellow skin...etc. but still it's amazing to have a person of the different race to study in ur school, especially from a different country!

i found out from my friend who's studying in the same class as that jap girl, and her name is Wasami...lol...sounds like wasabi? yeah...

p/s : i hate updating my blog d...since my eng has deteriorated so much...i can hardly express my feelings...pathetic? yeah...

happy boys and girls

hi hi!
well, i guess this blog is not dead after all! *wink*
i've been in an extremely good mood lately...so, i guess this is gonna be a happy post! =D

hmmm....*grins* ok...here r the things that make me really happy :

• i finally get to chat with my 5-year long crush!! hehe~ haven't seen him online since dunno-when...and i'm really glad he wasn't avoiding me which i was thinking too much *phew*! (ok, i don't care if he's taken, he's gonna be my crush forever...i hope)
• maybe, juz MAYBE my parents are gonna send me to NZ to study! i'm not gonna celebrate yet...i might try for this scholarship (all i have to achieve good grades for the needed subjects =P) so, now i have a goal to work hard for *kekeke*
• i have friends? i like to think all sorts when i'm not doing stuff...and i found out that not many ppl have friends whom they can share stuff with and me, i'm lucky to have a few...so...yeah, i guess that makes me happy too =D
• i admit there's not much stuff that make me happy...but now i'm definitely on cloud 9!! hehe...well i guess u know y...=P =)

the song i'm currently listening to: I'll Never Break Your Heart - Backstreet Boys

I'll never break your heart

I'll never make you cry

I'd rather die than live without you

I'll give you all of me

Honey, that's no lie

so...signing off......

lessons

although i've said it before that this blog is officially dead...i juz read my bro's friend's blog...and i would like to voice up my views...

well, 1st of all, i don't think going out alone (as in without a partner) is pathetic...being single is extremely fun!!of course if u're around friends who have partners then all i can say is...u've juz gotta bear with it =P i remember going out with a couple once...yeah, the 3 of us...it was DAMN awkward i tell u...i regretted going out with them the moment i saw them feeding each other ice cream! *shudders* what to do? *sigh* i juz sat there la...trying to avoid staring at them too much...haha...luckily my friend's (the girl who is a year younger than me) mother knew they were dating and were out to spy on them...(well, the couple are cousins) so lucky for me, i got to run...

2ndly, i'm not sure how to say this...and am not siding anyone here, but i think parents shouldn't be too overprotective over their children...it doesn't help in allowing them to be more independent...like that car incident which involved my bro...let's say my parents were always reluctant to let him drive out alone (not that i'm helping him) then when an accident or whatever happens, naturally they will point their finger to the teenage boy who doesn't really drive much except when he's back during the hols...of course they kinda 'look down' on a teen driving a car with a P sticker on ... but that's how ppl grow up, they walk, they run, they fall, they get up and walk again...without driving practice i guess he will never learn. after this incident i guess he learnt quite a bit...for example how to handle difficult ppl in life and what to do when he faces this kind of problem later in life...even adults involve in accidents after years of driving, right?

so, haha...until i have something to say... c ya!
p/s : ignore my grammatical errors =D

Mandy Moore - Crush

You know everything that I'm afraid of
You do everything i wish i did
Everybody wants you, everybody loves you

I know i should tell you how i feel
I wish everyone would disappear
Everytime time you call me, I'm too scared to be me
And I'm too shy to say

Ooh, I got a crush on you
I hope you feel the way that i do
I get a rush
When I'm with you
Ooh, I've got a crush on you
A crush on you

You know, I'm the one that you can talk to
And sometimes you tell me things that i don't want to know
I just wanna hold you
And you say exactly how you feel about her
And I wonder, could you ever think of me that way

Ooh, I got a crush on you
I hope you feel the way that i do
I get a rush
When I'm with you
Ooh, I've got a crush on you
A crush on you

Ooh, I wish i could tell somebody
But there's no one to talk to, nobody knows
I've got a crush on you
A crush on you, I got a crush

You say everything that no one says
But i feel everything that you're afraid to feel
I will always want you, I will always love you
I've got a crush...

this song reflects how i feel now =))

DEAD

i'm juz dropping by to say that this blog is officially dead! haha~ since i've got nothing unusual to tell about my life...i think i'll juz abandon it until i'm devastated/happy/sad/depressed/feeling weird etc...the reason i started this blog is because i felt devastated at that time...(refer to my VERY 1ST post)..so...c ya!

untitled

it's been ages since i last updated my blog...hmmm...let's see...what have i been up to lately?

in case anyone who came across my previous recent updates entitled 'untitled' and 'untitled 2', i've deleted those entries because i'm already over that phase when i think my life sux and that everything doesn't go my way...ok, i admit it...it was probably those hormones that made me ermm...'emotionally challenged'? lol....

anyway, i juz have to say something here...lol...i love my add maths teacher aka my new form teacher! haha~ not romantically...in case u're wondering...he's such a happy-go-lucky person!! i mean i never seen him in a bad mood and he doesn't scold students (i guess it's because we students love him so we listen when he teaches) not only that...he's really cute!! not handsome kinda cute..it's baby kinda cute...haha~ everytime he comes in the class...my mood juz turns better even if i feel down...
unlike my bm teacher...i'd rather ponteng than listen to her...haha...y? she's not good in neither english or bm...here's an example of one of her oh-so-famous grammatical errors :'u know, u had to work hard to achieve ur goal...' have u spotted it? there's another one: ' u know y i so expert in thee?' (the 'thee' is actually 'this') oh, here's another one: 'i find it very surprise u know, even graydguates also belip in thee...' [in case u don't understand, she was trying to say that she found it surprising that even graduates also believe in this (bomohs)]

ok, i'm not trying to laugh at her or anything...but if u were in my shoes...u wouldn't get a thing she's trying to say...it's hard! even her bm sux! i want the previous teacher back!!!!! but i love my add maths teacher though =p when we tease him he would get all red in the face! lol...now how cute is that!?

song i'm currently listening to: M2M - The Day You Went Away
Well I wonder could it be
When I was dreaming 'bout you baby
You were dreaming of me
Call me crazy, call me blind
To still be suffering is stupid after all of this time

{PRE-CHORUS 1}
Did I lose my love to someone better
And does she love you like I do
I do, you know I really really do

::Chorus::
Well hey
So much I need to say
Been lonely since the day
The day you went away
So sad but true
For me there's only you
Been crying since the day
The day you went away

{VERSE 2}
I remember date and time
September twenty second
Sunday twenty five after nine
In the doorway with your case
No longer shouting at each other
There were tears on our faces

{PRE-CHORUS 2}
And we were letting go of something special
Something we'll never have again
I know, I guess I really really know

HOORAY!!!

haha..i'm juz simply thrilled because the person who i thought was avoiding me is NOT avoiding me!! i was juz paranoid...lol...

p/s : when i THINK someone's avoiding u or something, confront that person! =P =P

JON JONSSON!

FINALLY!!!!!! can u guys see?!?! he's my oh-so-cute crush!! *SCREAMS* in case u guys don't know him yet...let me intro him to u. he's the winner of america's TV show, Manhunt (male version of America's Next Top Model). he's 22 and is half icelander and half thai...he's the shortest contestant in Manhunt (who cares?! he won!!!) anyway, enjoy the pics!! *WINK*

I LOVE U JON JONSSON!!!!!!

IS HE INTO U? quiz

IS HE INTO YOU?
So, is he into you????
MOSTLY As

He's Crushing. Maybe
This guy holds all his feelings deep inside and doesn't give any hints. Of course, he might be too into his buds to care about crushes right now. But, there's a chance he's really into you and is just too shy to actually act on his romantic impulses. If you want to find out for sure, try to draw him out of his shell and get a conversation going. You'll probably have to be bold and not only make the first move but lots of them to find out how he feels!

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hmmm...interesting...lol...i shouldn't be here actually...oh well...

nah...my world's crashing down no more...

hehe...it's simple because :

1. alot of my friends are supporting me (maybe not alot la...a few lo...but a few is already enough *wink*)
2. i'm quite anxious to know if i'll survive there =P
3. it'll be after SPM...so...still a long way to go

yesterday when i went to my BM tuition, i totally forgotten everything about the NS thingy...my friend from CGL asked me if i got chosen...and i was like 'huh? chosen for?.....oh!! yeah, i got chosen' and she thought i was lying to her cause i answered her with a happy face...=D weird huh?

p/s : no need sad songs d...keke~

my world's CRASHING down

y?? not because my crush is ignoring...not because i failed my test papers...not because i'm weird...not because i can't see jon jonsson...not because i'm gonna sit for SPM....etc...

can guess?? i'll reward that person RM1mil if that person can guess y my world's crashing down.

*SIGGGGHHH* i'm chosen for NS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i don't wanna go even in a million years!!! tell me, how can i run away from it? ='( i've already planned what to do after the SPM : learn to drive, learn to play the guitar, probably got to NZ to visit my cousin, hang out, laze around etc.
this sux!!! i don't think i'll stand those tough physical trainings...i think i'll juz die there...i can't even stand the training during taekwondo!

AAAAARRRRGHHHHHH........

Seether feat. Amy Lee - Broken

'Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away
(i know the lyrics has got nothing to do with NS...but i'm really broken) ='(

Natalie - Going Crazy

I gotta let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world, for you I'd do anything

*sigh* anyone? pls...introduce me some sad songs....i need to indulge myself with depressing songs right now...*wink*

Infatuated...it means crush too rite?

Infatuation is simply being stuck on someone and it can be a powerful life changing experience, some people move from relationship to relationship and never get out of being in this stage.
If you think you may be that kind of person, here is a list of sings that will tell you if you are infatuated.
1. You feel a passionate desire to be with the person you are infatuated with.
2. You experience the High and Low syndrome, mood swings depending on how the person you are infatuated with responses.
3. You find yourself daydreaming about that person.
4. You feel a hungry feeling when you are away from that person.
5. You feel incomplete and lonely when that person is far away.
6. You need constant reassurance from that person
7. Your life becomes focused on that person and you change your life to accommodate him or her.
8. You live in constant fear of rejection or abandonment.
9. You feel a deep need for your feelings to be returned by that person

haha~ i know ppl who usually read my blog (not that anyone would read it anyway) will find that my blog contains nothing but guys and crushes and how i waste my time =P BUT...my life is not all about that...juz that those are more physical...i don't put anything too important here...in case any of my family members come across it...

back to the infatuation thingy...i think i am infatuated with someone...but incomplete? no way! haha....

*INHALES* brand new life

yeah right *eyes rolling*....=D

i juz got back my comp which is great!!! now i can do what i usually do =P
but there's something bothering me...i'm sensing my crush of nearly 5 years is avoiding me...maybe u can say i'm sensitive...but he's really 'ignoring' me ='( ok...maybe he isn't? obviously, i'm juz trying to console myself...
ok...since THAT crush is not bothering me...lol...i've got myself a new one!! he's none other than manhunt's winner - Jon Jonsson!!! he is sooooo cute!! i'm obsessed with him...i tried to collect everything that has his face on it...but unfortunately when i went to 7-11 opposite my school with my friend to check jon out, that STUPID malay guy kept scolding/asking us not to read 'no reading huh? wei, miss, no reading!' GRRRR...so i gave up jon jonsson...i didn't buy that galaxie magz from there...lol....besides, it costs RM3 and i wasn't too eager to spend my money on a magz i don't usually buy and for a stupid guy like that! *BLEK* i wasn't even reading! i was trying to see how many jon's faces are in there...and was considering if i was gonna buy it...

p/s : this is really short...i'm suddenly so not used to blogging...lol....=P

You Were Meant For Me

hi!!!

i'm back!!! happy? well, i doubt anyone's happy, since i'm a trouble maker =P
ok, why haven't i updated my blog? cause my ram was down, and my comp was sent for repair...so it's been a month now...kinda miss hanging online, downloading and listening to songs...and check out ppl's blogs...really miss u guys!!! (those i usually chat with online)
in case u're wondering 'what's with the title?' lol...it's the song i'm listening to right now. it's sung by jewel and then bellefire sang it recently...it's a really nice song...i love it!!
hmmm...what have i done lately...let's see...i'm lazing around in front of the TV whole day (since my comp's not home =( ) and i've done 3 quarter of my homework...which is actually not bad...my goal is to finish ALL my homework within the 1st week of holidays so that i can start studying during the 2nd week...today's already saturday...so i have like one and a half days left...wish me luck! =D

ok, today's Friday (last fri of my hol d) *sulks* and guess what? i haven't completely finished my homework as planned....didn't even study one bit and....made a hole in the sofa (lol...juz exaggerating...cause i sit on the couch whole day watching TV/channel surfing) but good news is...i played piano!! and right now i'm so determined to pass my grade 6 practical next year AND pick up guitar lessons cause i always have this picture of me playing an electric guitar with a band on stage in my mind (=D) well, u (especially TST would be laughing at me right now, i know it!) BUT i'm sure that could happen....keke~ hope so...

this entry is gonna be damn long since i haven't been blogging for more than a month now! i've been doing alot of thinking...about my future...i know it may be too early/late...i don't quite like to study so i have myself a few options on what to do IN CASE i juz simply give up studying..of course my MAIN goal is to be a psychologist...my major dream! IF i don't get to be a psychologist, i'll try to be an air hostess for at least 2 years (i know i'm short, but my height is the minimum...so i'm layak! )*blek* if not, maybe i would build a modelling empire for short models...haha...sounds funny huh? cause i'm short that's y...ppl always have this conception in their heads that models should be tall and slim...y not short and slim? *wink* and...i would really hope to try out different kinds of job before i really settle down for a stable one (psychologist)...ok, enough of what i thought...proceed to the next paragraph for my FIRST trip to RedBox =S

to be frank, there were 4 girls that day including me and ermm....dunno-how-many boys (too dark to see and lazy to bother anyway), anyway, one of them is my friend's bf....i wasn't quite sure if i wanted to go cause usually i prefer going out with ppl i know so i was a lil reluctant...but i went anyway...actually i'm still not quite sure y i went since i'm don't feel comfortable singing in front of so many ppl and ppl i don't know...maybe i thought i could overcome that fear...ok, so they picked mostly chinese songs and only a few malay and eng songs...let's say i didn't sing la for that 3 hours...i know...u'll be thinking 'what a waste of money!' right? well, i didn't pay =P my friend's bf paid for us...he refused to accept our money...so...oh well...in case u're wondering 'how old is that guy?!' , he's the same age as i am, 17. (OMG! my first fullstop!!lol....) oh, and did i mention i hated that room we were in? it was full of ciggar smoke smell...ARRGHHH...i swear if next time i were to go redbox again, it would be everyone i know...it wasn't as fun as i expected it to be...*rolls eyes*

i've got loads to say...but, i've gotta hurry...so, stay tune for my latest entry! lol...one of my options is to be a VJ *grins*