Happy endings

Read a blog post on happy endings on E's blog a few days ago & she mentioned that we are entitled to our own happy ending. She gave an example, saying that if Snow White's prince never appeared & kissed her, the story could have a different happy ending such as 'Snow White being awakened by the "dawrves' heartfelt & sorrowful tears" which splattered on her beautiful porcelain face'.

I totally agree with her that we are entitled to our own happy ending. Besides, whether an ending is happy or not is a very subjective thing. Because my happy ending may not be someone else's ending & vice versa. Therefore, many a times when I say that I believe in happy endings, it does not mean that I believe in those of fairy tales. What I actually mean is, I believe that I will have a happy ending because I believe in it. My very own happy ending.

Did you know that, in actual fact, fairy tales never had happy endings? The original versions of fairy tales had gruesome endings & depending on subjective perception, there is a lesson at the end of each tale. Of course, there are different versions of the fairy tales, just not-too-happy ones. Endings of fairy tales had to be modified to make sure kids are happy, not horrified. I find it really fascinating that even fairy tales are so realistic. I used to question about the happy endings...I thought, "why is it that every fairy tale ends with 'and they lived happily ever after'?" Somehow I'm hoping that the original versions would make it onto the big screens. LOL If you don't know me yet, yes, I have a really morbid & twisted mind. =)

After reading E's blog, I went to take a shower & a random thought crossed my mind. Usually, little girls are exposed to fairy tales but what if I have sons but no daughters (that is if I ever get married & have kids) in the future? What would my young boys get out from those fairy tales? That they should go seek their princess & give them a happily-ever-after ending? Hmmm...

In another version of Cinderella, Cinderella's stepsisters actually sliced off their toes in order to fit into the glass slipper! Cool eh?! LOL That desparate to marry the prince...tsk tsk tsk. XD

So, that's the thought of the day...LOL

If you have time, go read these articles for other versions of fairy-tale endings! Woo! =D

Original versions of classic fairy tales
More original versions of classic fairy tales



p/s: Oh, this reminds me of Avril's song "So much for my happy ending...o-oh...o-oh..."

XOXO,
Me

Lately...

...I've been feeling like a pregnant woman. Literally. I've been eating non-stop every day even though I'm not hungry. I keep craving for junk food & I can never get enough! Good thing I don't really have junk food at home so I just pig away on whatever I have. Well, at first it was the time of the month but it's over now. =S Also, I've become a person of few words. Most of the time I try not to open my mouth to talk because I'm just not in the mood to. =(

On another note, I'm hooked to a song sung by 神目与瞳. I've been listening to it on repeat for 24 hours...I just love love love the duet effect & the sadness of the song. I heard KT sing it a few times during our karaoke sessions & I kept forgetting the name of the artist but I stumbled upon it a few days ago.

This is the video...nothing much about the video but listen to the song!!

XOXO,

Me

Homeless guy (?)

There's this guy who wanders around the neighbourhood, asking for 3 dollars (yeah, exactly 3 dollars). He's scruffy, dresses like he changes once a week & he smokes! I guess if he has money to buy cigarettes, he's not THAT in need, right? At least to me, the fact that he smokes can never convince me to give him money.

But of course, based on my observation, he does not really need money. First of all, he goes around asking for 3 dollars. Like...a poor person who needs money to buy food/to survive would ask for a specific amount. If I were in need, I'd be soooo grateful if someone actually gives me a dollar! The first time he came up to me (or us, rather - was waiting for the bus with J), he said he needed 3 dollars to buy his mother milk. =S Huh? When J & I said we did not have any small change, he quickly gave up & left though he did look frustrated.

Secondly, as I was walking to the bus stop yesterday, he approached me again. I'm guessing he couldn't remember that he had approached me before. He asked me, "Do you have 3 dollars?" I was kind of blur, so I looked at him with this blank look. He continued, "...for the bus". Hah! First, to buy milk for his mother, now for the bus?! Immediately I said, "Sorry, I don't have any coins". Again, he looked annoyed & left.

He doesn't even need 3 dollars to buy a bus ticket! Also...there are loads of people here who go around asking for money as if they are really in need but in actual fact, they use the money people give to buy cigarettes. One of my friends actually gave a guy some money because he said he needed to buy a bus ticket (I think...can't remember what for). Guess what, right in front of her eyes, that guy went to buy cigarettes! Wtf. >( No way I'm going to contribute to the tobacco industry! Besides, he has legs & arms & is perfectly mobile. He can find a job if he really needs money.

Hmph...this guy actually scared the sh*t out of me once! I was standing quite a distance from the top of a very small flight of stairs just daydreaming, watching the cars go by. Suddenly a voice calling "excuse me...excuse me...." was heard! I turned around but could not see anyone. o.O Then, his head came into view as he was coming up that flight of stairs. Till this day I don't know why I did what I did but I turned around & actually RAN for my life towards the opposite direction! Even after reaching my unit safely, my heart was still pounding so hard against my chest!!

Then a week later, one of my friends who was staying in the same neighbourhood asked me to be careful as there's this guy who goes around asking for money. She asked me not to freak out. But it was too late! LOL I already freaked out! OMG. Anyway, I still think he's too lazy to earn himself money. What do you think?

XOXO,
Me

Alive & kicking

I've been missing for nearly 2 months now...LOL but I guess no one reads my blog anyway since nobody left a comment asking me for updates. XD

Alright, I'll try to blog more often from now on, even if it's just 1 or 2 lines. ^^

Last Friday, I was at Priceline Pharmacy. As I was standing there, checking out the range of skincare products, from the corner of my eye I caught a glimpse of a woman inching her way towards my direction with her eyes fixed on the products on the shelves. She was clad in a thick black furry coat and skinny jeans. I thought she looked like some rich man's wife..very elegant & atas. Then, she suddenly stopped & stood in front of me, oblivious to the fact that she was blocking half my view of the skincare products. That exact moment when annoyance crept up on me, I happened to inhale...& OMG! o.O I almost died there & then! It wasn't the smell of her perfume or hair spray that caused my heart to stop, nothing of that sort. Instead, the foul smell was similar to the smell of unwashed socks! Scrap similar, it smelt EXACTLY like someone hadn't been washing their socks for weeks or months! =.= The moment those smelly molecules reached my olfactory receptors, I swear I had this reflex to look down & check out what she was wearing on her feet. Ahh...she was wearing a pair of knee-high boots that were tightly wrapped around her skinny jeans! o.O I was 101% sure that smell came from there because we were the only ones standing in that aisle & I only smelt it the moment she stood there! I immediately left that pharmacy, forgetting what I went there for in the first place! I was desparate for fresh air! I almost lost my appetite. =S

Maybe not sneakers...boots!

So, yeah...there you go. An update from me after a loooooong break! =D

XOXO,
Me

Very very quick update =D

Since I'm taking a short break from my Advanced Research Methods assignment, I'd just type a quick update.

Most of you may not know this: I used to keep a collection of wedding dresses in my computer, just simply because I love to admire them! & when my cousin sister got married, I was looking for wedding gowns too, sorta to help her get an idea of what she wants in a dress. So while searching, I saved quite a few too. But due to this stupid computer repair man (because I told him to not do anything before letting me know what the problem with the computer is) who deleted ALL my files from the computer, I lost ALL my pics, from 2004 up till 2006! I felt devastated...it felt like all my memories have been erased. Pictures from my high school graduation were gone too! Argh! Anyway, back to the topic. Yeah...so my wedding gown pics were deleted too (obviously).

Yesterday, while talking to GF on skype during dinner time, I had a sudden urge to look for wedding gowns online (or it could just be an excuse for not doing assignment =P). I came across 2 gowns that were quite simple & elegant, so I sent her th URLs & asked her to go have a look. This was how our conversation went:-

Me: Wei! I sent you a link...go check the dress out!
GF: OK OK...hmm...this one not bad. The model also quite flat-chested ma...so I think it wouldn't be a problem for you la to wear strapless dresses.
Me: What flat-chested?! The model is NOT flat-chested OK?!

*fast forward*
I sent her the 2nd link & asked her to go have a look.

GF: Erm...aiya, later I see la...I'm eating!
Me: Eeyer!! Why you like that wan?! Help me choose wedding dresses also don't want!
GF: ROTFL Wah...if really your wedding, I don't care if I'm eating lo, I sure help you choose wan! But this...LOL...Please la..not even your wedding! Choose what choose huh?!
Me: =.= I hate you!! Ish!

Can't remember word for word la, but I think that's about what we actually said. ROTFL We're always so random.

Oh..& we proceeded to imagine scenes of us going to pick out wedding dresses when my husband-to-be happens to be busy with his work. XD Damn funny...This is how we imagine it:

(H is my husband)
H: Hey darling, sorry I'm hooked up with some business at work. Is it OK if you go pick the wedding dress yourself? I'm so sorry.
Me: Oh! Busy?! No no no no...it's fine! I'll just go pick out the dress with GF! Have fun at work!

(calles GF)
Me: Wei!!!! H is busy at work! Let's go shop for wedding dresses!!!

LMAO

This is a totally random post. Now you see what assignments can do to a poor girl. T_T Help!! I hate assignments!

XOXO,
Me

Will be back after 5th of June!

*SIGH* (I know L will scold me for sighing because according to him, sighing takes away all the happiness. LOL)

I've been really really busy lately with assignments (I hate them!!)...can't wait to finish them & start studying. =(

I have lots to blog about but haven't gotten the time/mood to do it. So I'll do it after I've submitted ALL my assignments.

Just so you know.

XOXO,
Me

Not creative

I must admit that though I proclaim myself as a creative person, I might not be creative in certain aspects, eg. coming up with a post title. LOL

Hehehe...I'm so happy I feel like droplets of happiness are raining down on me! XD Ermm...I don't know where to start. My thoughts are all over the place.

This issue had been lingering on my mind for almost 3 weeks now since that incident & every time I think of it, I'd experience palpitations & sweaty palms (or they could be due to a combination of factors, such as meeting deadlines etc.). LOL

Anyway, at the end of March, I was chatting with my HK classmate, A, on MSN. I owed her AUD191 for textbooks because I forgot to transfer money into my freedom account. =S Usually I'd return my friends their money via online transaction if it's a big amount because the thought of carrying a lot of cash in my wallet kind of scares me. So I asked for her account no. through MSN, which I've done a million times! I copied & pasted the account no. in the blank space that says "Payee's Account Number" & hit the Transfer button. Done! Or at least that was what I thought. =S

A few days later (beginning of April), A said that she hasn't received the transaction. o.O WHAT?! How is that possible?! After checking with her the account no. once again, she said that wasn't her account no.! Like...wtf! Then whose account the hell did I transfer the money to?! Ahhhhh! AUD191 is not a small amount of money! It's like almost RM500! =.= I had to rush to the city, run back & forth between BankSA & Commonwealth Bank (A's bank), desparate to find a solution to the problem! Finally a staff at BankSA was really helpful, she helped me call the Internet Banking staff to explain my situation. When she passed the phone to me, the Internet Banking staff told me that it would take 4-6 weeks for the transaction to occur.

=P Today, I had a sudden compulsion to check how much I have left in my freedom student account & confusion came over me when I saw that the amount was more than it should be...because...obviously, I've been spending money from that account. =S A click on the Transaction History button & I swore that I heard happy music playing in the background as if my life had a soundtrack! XD That 3 digits I've been waiting for for the past 1 month! AUD191! I was just talking to A yesterday about it & she told me to call up the Internet Banking staff to give them a push. I guess I don't have to now! Ahhh...Thank You, Lord! ^^ It seems like I didn't have to worry after all.

Today's 2nd of May...oh my how time flies! 3 more days to the much-dreaded day. Yest at OCF when K asked me what my birthday wish was, the only thought that came to mind was "going home". So I said "My wish would be being able to teleport myself home whenever I want". When J asked me what I'm planning for my birthday, I simply said "no plans", & she didn't believe me when I said that my 21st birthday is not a big deal. *sigh* Well, to be honest, it used to be. But now...it came too soon & at the wrong time too, when all my work is piling up. =(

Being my usual self, I love to think. While taking my shower a few days ago, I suddenly had a thought. How nice would it be if I could just disappear from the face of the Earth for one day (or maybe a few days)! If i had vanished into thin air, would anyone notice? Would anyone be thinking of me? Would anyone be bothering to look for me? Hmmm...I would love to try that one day, being able to just be in my own world. *dreams*

Did I mention that today's weather is just great?! It's so sunny! Ah...the sun makes me happy. =D Please please let this be the end of rainy + gloomy days.

Reminder to self: Make the most out of the days you're here! Appreciate your friends here because they play a big part of your life here too! =)

Hmm, this is rather a wordy post. LOL oh well, I'll end this post with a picture I took last November when I had lunch at Pancake House with J2. Was drinking my banana malt shake when this appeared on the inside rim of the glass. When I showed this to J2, she said, "It could be a sign!" XP

Could this be a sign? XP

Me eating yiros at Glenelg in Sept 2007
(When I still had super long & flat hair...hehe)

KT & I camwhoring in her room (or rather on her bed) in Nov 2008

p/s: I know...after so long, finally a happy post! =D

XOXO,
Me

I know...

...I've been updating my blog so often lately.

I guess because lately I've been experiencing a whirlwind of emotions. LOL

Today's weather is just perfect although still chilly. At least the sun has finally decided to show itself.

Assignment is in good progress too I must say because I keep scaring myself with other deadlines & so I'm forced to just type & type although I haven't organised my thoughts well. I can always modify my essay when I'm done. =)

This friend of mine, who is totally pro-Korean has recommended my friends & I heaps of Korean songs. I must say that they're really good & I'm hooked to many of them. Even play them repeatedly every day. A few days ago I was totally unmotivated to do anything, so I learnt how to sing part of a Korean song. XD

For the past few days, I really wanna thank God that He has blessed me with so much in life! Although sometimes I feel like giving up, He's just this little voice in me that tells me that I can do it & that everything will be OK because nothing can ever happen to me without His permission. He also blessed me with good friends whom I can talk to when I'm in need, friends who don't pass judgments. Since first year of uni, He has blessed me with E in my life. It must be His plan to have her in my life, because she's a great sister in Christ! Thanks to her, I renewed my faith. How I miss the days in Hosanna...when we would pray for each other, especially during exam period.

Ah..I have too much on my mind & I'm not really good with words so I'll leave this post as it is. =)

This is the song I'm totally addicted to.

Though the tune sounds so happy & lively, the lyrics is a bit sad...kinda. Enjoy!

XOXO,
Me

What can get more depressing than this?

My birthday is just around the corner but I totally dread it. I guess I'm just being in denial to the fact that I'm turning 21 & also because I've been disappointed with my birthday every year. So in order to not face any more disappointment, I shall just not celebrate it. =) Guys, I know many of you are reading this, I do not want anything for my birthday because you know I'm not looking for presents, I just want a meaningful birthday with people who mean something to me. I got this in my e-mail & I wish I could just teleport myself home this instant! Miss watching movies in the cinema back home. =(

A free movie ticket as a birthday present

XOXO,
Me

Crazy weather

Ahh...The weather these days is just so unpredictable to the extent that it's predictable!!! It's been raining a lot these days, which is rather rare for SA since SA is the driest continent (or state...whatever!). Well, SA needs rain but I hate it! It's killing me. The cold & the gloomy skies. Did I mention the cold?! Yes, For the first time in my life, I actually had my laptop sitting my lap while I do my work & facebook-ing because I just wanna hide under the covers to keep myself warm!

It's driving me crazy, the weather I mean. It rains for half an hour & then the sun greets me with its rays streaming in my window, then it bids me goodby again followed by the gloomy skies & pouring rain. *SIGH* Please come back to me...You know I love you, you know I do. I'm so sorry for not appreciating you but now I know how important you are to me. You are my sunshine, my only sunshine...you make me happy when skies are gray! ='(

There it goes again..the sun is up but I shall not rejoice too early just in case it decides to play hide-&-seek with me again. There goes my 2 weeks of teaching break. Uni is supposed to start today but today I don't have practical so I get a day off, which means I need to use the time for my assignment. Argh!

Currently listening to Come Back To Me by Utada Hikaru, recommended by YL. & it totally suits the weather right now. LOL the 1st part of the lyrics go like this: -

The rain falls on my windows
And the coldness runs through my soul
And the rain falls, oh the rain falls
I don't want to be alone

Time to fix myself some lunch & then gotta get to work! =(

XOXO,
Me

My wish

Sometimes, I just wish I had a sister studying in Adelaide with me. Well, not church sisters kinda sisters....but biological sisters.

*sigh*

Come to think of it, I have quite a number of friends here who also have sisters here with them. M & G, KT & KR and P & C (well, that's like bro & sis...but still!).

I'm really good friends with M& G and KT & KR. So I kinda go out with them a lot. Somehow I can't help but feel a little...I don't know...sad?

Ever since I moved out from Hosanna in my 2nd year of uni, I've learnt to not depend on people whenever I feel like it. Whenever I feel like life is meaningless & feel like crying, I either suck it up & move on with life OR I just cry the hell out of myself and then move on with life...all on my own.

Those were the days when I felt like the world has come to an end, I'd go to my hostel mates' rooms to forget all the negative thoughts, knowing that I'm not the only one going through all these. Of course I miss E the most. She was the 1st person I got to really know in Hosanna. We did almost everything together. We had supper together, meals, movie nights, even had our fair share of guy problems. Every day after class, I'd feel happy going "home", knowing everybody's there. I also miss those times when we had bible study on Sunday nights.

Many a times, I try asking God if I'm taking the path He wants to me take. I don't know...maybe I don't pay attention enough, somehow I still don't have the answers. But if He brings me to it, He'll bring me through it, right? So why does it feel so shitty right now? Even a rainy day makes me feel like snuggling under my blanket all day & cry.

p/s: Just called S to talk...feeling better now! Love being a girl! =P Thanks for talking to me although you were studying!! *hugs*

XOXO,
Me

My latest obsession

Ahhhh! I feel like a high school student all over again! =P After KT intro-ed to me this korean version of Meteor Garden, I totally got hooked to it! The guys (except for 1) are soooooooo cute! & I thought I was over all these korean craze. Boy, I was wrong. I can never grow out of it! Oh yeah, it's called Boys Over Flowers / Boys Before Flowers. So far, the korean version is the best! =P

I've only watched like 3 episodes because I dare not download too much in case my internet quota finishes before end of the month! Plus, I have work to do so I can't possibly get myself MORE hooked to it! *sigh* Gonna get the complete series from a friend who has it! But...=( Don't think I'll watch it until I finish all my assignments at the end of May.

p/s: If only high school was this happening! *screams* LOL

Here's some eye candy! ;P

Not forgetting the soundtrack! It's called Because I'm Stupid. I've been playing this song for over a 100 times in a day! The song is just so sad...it's sung by the guy on the far right in the pic above & his group. =)



He's the guy in the middle in the video!

XOXO,
Me

Why is it that...

...everytime I tell someone I'm studying Psychology, they'll either go "WAH!" or "o.O" ?!

XOXO,
Me

Hello world! *warning* super long post ahead!

I've been MIA due to a series of events that have happened in the last week. In conjunction with the last post entitled "Monday Morning", I was to type a post entitled "Tuesday Morning" because something happened that morning (obviously!) but I kept putting it off till today.

Tuesday 7th April
I woke up early as usual. Went to the kitchen to cook some rolled oats. Did I mention that the bananas here are so unpredictable? LOL I mean, I bought some unripe bananas & to make sure they last longer, I put them into the fridge to slow the ripening process. I thought it was about time I ate them because they've been in the fridge for more than a week. That morning I decided to eat them with rolled oats BUT when I peeled one of the bananas, it was still not ripe! Did I tell you that I absolutely hate eating unripe bananas?! Besides the fact that they're not sweet, I hate the texture of an unripe banana. *sigh* So I thought I'd put my new jar of honey into good use.

I opened the kitchen cupboard (where we keep our food supply) & reached for my jar of honey. I had a lot on my mind then, one of them being the arrival of 2 of my primary school mates the next day. I was quite excited as I didn't expect time to fly by so fast! I turned to J while still reaching for the honey, & said, "oh my gosh...I can't believe that (my friends will be arriving tomorrow)" [Just so you know, I didn't manage to finish the words in brackets] Just that split second, I heard a loud piercing crash. I looked down & there it was - that bottle of fried onions my mom made for me to bring back to Adelaide had fallen & broken into smithereens at my feet. I was stunned for a moment. It almost felt like my heart, too, had broken into pieces. I was angry with myself there & then. Why did I put the bottle so near to the edge of the shelf?! Why didn't I focus on just reaching for that damn honey?! I had no one but myself to blame. =( Since Feb until that Tuesday morning, I've only used the fried onions twice. TWICE!! Oh, I really wanted to cry. It was like the only thing I had of mommy. Well, maybe not, since I have a bottle of fried garlic...but still...that bottle of fried onions was a symbol of mommy's love & effort. I still remember her chopping onions & frying them just a few days before I left Penang. ='( What a way to start my day. Was in a bad mood after that. Even the oats didn't taste as good as usual. Wanted to talk to mommy so badly. I did, eventually. & it made my day. The conversation was as follows:

Me: Mommy!!! I'm soooo sad!
Mom: Oh, why?! What happened?!
Me: *SIGH* This morning when I was reaching for my jar of honey inside the cupboard, I accidentally broke the bottle of fried onions when it fell onto the floor!
Mom: Oh...I thought what pulak?! See la? You treat it so preciously, now the floor gets to eat it...haha...Nevermind la, I'll make another bottle for you, you can try asking your friend to bring it back for you in July if any of them comes back to Penang.
Me: OH! Yeah hoh?! OK! I'll ask my friend. =D

I felt better instantly! ^^

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Wednesday 8th April
The day I've been waiting for! I guess the reason I was so excited was I don't think any of my friends, in their right state of mind, would ever visit Adelaide! Besides that, it was the company that I looked forward to. At least I'd have people whom I'm familiar with around. That afternoon, I met up with JM after lecture to get my "present" (hehe~) & we had chicken rice at the Penang Hawker Centre. It's always good to have lunch with JM because we always share a meal + she's very funny. =D L & S have already reached Adelaide but they were at Glenelg, so I thought I'd go home & rest first before going out with them for dinner.

Took this while waiting for the bus

I was super excited to have good company & good food! We settled for Italian food at Brunelli on Rundle Street.

Us at Brunelli

The spaghetti was yummy but the pizza was just so-so. Nonetheless, we had a great time catching up. Ermm...I think I'd give L & S a short introduction. Haha. I was in the same class with L for 3 years from Standard 1. As for S, I was in the same primary & high school with her but we weren't close. I had neutral feelings towards her. I lost contact with L since primary school because he (oh, forgot to mention it's a he) went to a boys' school after that. We only met again in Feb 2007, before I came to Adelaide. After that, I met him again in December 2008 (wait, or was it in January 2009?). The amazing thing is that though L & I haven't seen/talked to each other for so long, we instantly clicked when we met up in 2007. Was & still am glad that we keep in touch since then. =) S was being her usual talkative self. It was good...no awkward moments, besides all 4 "girls" were from the same school so we had LOADS to talk about. From mutual friends to mutual friends' boyfriends to our own ideal boyfriends. LOL Ahhh...Been deprived of girl talk for ages! We continued our girly chat (with a guy around...haha) at Chocolate Bean.

Shared Chocolate Filth @ Chocolate Bean

Spent hours there. I wished that time could just standstill. Caught a bus home at 12:05am with L. Oh, L stayed over at my place. Come to think of it, I was a really bad host. I had my guest sleep in a sleeping bag on the floor. He was on a holiday & he had to sleep on a hard floor.

Thursday 9th April
Ah...Thursday morning was a busy one! My cousin had his friend bring back supplements from Penang for me & I was supposed to get to his restaurant to collect it. I woke up early but was wasting my time away. Saw GF online on skype, ended up talking for almost an hour. Realised it was late, so we hung up. I rushed to the city to catch a bus to Glen Osmond, where the restaurant was located, then right after collecting my stuff, I caught a bus back to the city & then and another bus back to Magill (where my campus is & where I stay), all of that in 2 hours! Reached Magill in time for my 1pm class! I was exhausted when I reached Magill. Finished class at 4pm that day. Met up with S, L, KT & sis for dinner! This time we had dinner at a Korean restaurant on Leigh Street. Funny how we ended up ordering 2 beef dishes & 2 pork dishes. There seemed to be endless topics when we're together. I fell asleep while we were watching Spirited Away as I've watched it before & I had a loooong day. Managed to wake up for the ending. LOL That night L & I caught the 12:05am bus back home for the 2nd time.

Friday 10th April
Ahh..Easter holidays are finally here! But I had an online test that day, so I had to re-revise the stuff I already revised to refresh my memory before taking the test. That morning, L & S had gone to Victor Harbour. While doing my revision, GF came online on skype! LOL Yeah yeah, ended up talking to her for 4 hours. XD Even talked to her while having lunch. We always have so much to talk about it's unbelievable! Then again almost dinner time, I caught up with S, L, KT & sis for dinner, this time at Pancake House.

Can't remember what this is called =S

Dutch chocolate pancakes

Cajun chicken

After that all of us crashed at KT & sis's place. I fell almost fell asleep watching Howl's Moving House. Managed to keep myself awake by noticing lame stuff with S (Eg. how ugly the guy's earrings were). XD

Saturday 11th April
The day I've been dreading since 8th of April. Yes, the departure of S & L. I totally hate goodbyes. I know I can still meet them in Penang, but I have to wait for ages to do that. Besides, their departure also means that I'd have to face reality (start on assignments), which makes it even more depressing. Today L & I were awake at the same time, so we decided to take a walk to my campus, which is just 5 mins walk away. OMG, that day was so hot, both of us were desparately looking for a shed to stand under. XP As L didn't have any plans before 11:30am, we decided to catch an earlier bus to the city to walk around & talk. After gathering at KT's place, we went to have lunch at Billy Baxter's!

My hot chocolate

*fast forward*

Accompanied S & L to the airport. Upon arrival, S found out her flight had been delayed to the same time as L's. LOL Another opportunity to sit down & talk! We got ourselves a Hudson's each & made ourselves comfortable on the sofas provided. *fast forward* Time for them to board. Oh how I hated that moment! Hugged them goodbye & as I was walking towards where were came from, I turned around & saw both of them following from behind. Eh? They realised that the bag of Haigh's Chocolates S was holding onto was gone! I think if someone was there with a camcorder recording it, it'd be a funny video to watch. We were all so 惊慌失措! But good thing L asked the staff at the checkpoint & they took the bag of chocolates out from one of the drawers. =D S was super relieved, after thanking the staff, we hugged goodbye once more & I didn't dare turn back this time, in fear I might just breakdown in front of all the people at the airport. =/ Hah...but guess what?! I didn't cry, though I was the only person on the bus. I just thought that I should count my blessings that I still keep in touch with my primary school friends! ^^ Aren't you guys just proud of me? LOL I think positive for once. Had yummy tom yam for dinner at KT's place. That night...I caught the bus home alone...it felt very different...like something missing...but, I guess life's like this. Sometimes you just have to be alone to grow up.

Sunday 12th April
The moment I opened my eyes, I felt like I just got sucked into a deep black hole. Reality hit me on the head, real HARD. I was all alone again. No more L sleeping in the sleeping bag on the floor. No more having to tip-toe into the bathroom. Everything was just how it was before. A little weird I must say. Anyway, life is full of separations. So yeah..life goes on. I got out of bed...cooked some oats...washed some grapes...added them to the cooked oats...was eating them in front of my computer...when suddenly, I felt that familiar pain. I decided to ignore it & continued eating my oats but the pain got worse & worse. Argh! Bed...all I need is a nap & the pain would just go away, like it always does. After napping for an hour, the pain was gone...but I've already missed my bus to church. So I decided to stay home, which I am thankful for because the pain came back after lunch! By now you should have guessed what it was. Yes, the time of the month. *SIGH* No sweat right? Everytime I take naps, eat/drink warm stuff, keep myself warm etc. the pain just subsides. With the hormonal imbalance, pain & the departure the day before, I broke down...cried myself to sleep. Especially at times like these I miss home so much! Everything just didn't feel right.

Monday 13th April
I woke up feeling like a truck just rammed over me. Almost felt like a hangover (well, I'm just guessing hangovers feel like that...never had one). Talked to my parents after breakfast, thinking that my menstrual cramps episode was over. Little did I know, there was something in store for me...For the whole of Monday, I had diarrhea! Argh! Into the bathroom, out of the bathroom, in again...out. I felt so drained & weak. Those who say they love diarrhea because they wanna lose weight, I tell you this - You'd probably die before you achieve your ideal weight. I kid you not. Did you know that if you're a pregnant woman, you could have a miscarriage if you experience serious diarrhea?! Stop & think for a second. I stayed in bed the whole day, only got out of bed when I needed to you-know-what. =.= Had oats & crackers for lunch. It tasted so bland I felt like puking. Was my turn to cook fish so I thought, "I'll cook fish porridge...love it when mommy cooks it". Called my mom to ask her how to cook etc. Well, needless to say...I think the fish porridge I cooked just tasted horrible/terrible (couldn't decide on which adjective is worse). It was hard to cover the fishy smell & I think I marinated the fish with too much soy sauce. It tasted soooo salty I gagged at every mouthful. =S Being sick is already bad enough, having to take care of everything when you're sick is even worse! I really really felt like crying there & then! Now I understand what Karen Cheng meant by The Hormonal Illness, it's just that the only difference is I'm not pregnant. Hah..Imagine what it'd be like if I was pregnant! From Friday till Monday, I've laughed & cried countless times. I cried while watching a video PQ posted on her blog in conjunction with the post on Imperfectness Made Perfect; also cried while watching a video J sent me thru e-mail on how people from some parts of the world eat food scraps of people from other parts of the world; cried again reading a blog post XC recommended. I nearly laughed a** off when I watched a video (not sure if you can open it) one of my primary school mates recorded & posted on Facebook; I also laughed when I opened YY's forwarded e-mail entitled Naughty Banana & saw this:


Tuesday 14th April
Hmm...nothing much happened on that day. Thank God the number of times I needed to go to the bathroom reduced dramatically. LOL Went out to buy some "sick food" supply. Cooked chicken porridge that night. Yummy! ^^

Chicken porridge

p/s: I started typing this post on Sunday night & finally finished now. phew! That was a looooong post!

XOXO,
Me

Monday Morning

What can I say about my Monday morning? It's supposed to be great but I've gotta study for a test & catch up on Advanced Research Methods (I'm so clueless!). Blah! I think it's becoming a habit of mine that if I do not have classes on a particular day, I would always start my day off talking to someone, be it GF or parents.

I woke up feeling really exhausted & I didn't know why. While having my breakfast, snapshots of my nightmare came flooding back into my mind & I realised that it was the nightmare that disrupted my sleep.

YL told me that he would be coming to Adelaide during Easter holidays on msn. I was very excited as I wouldn't be so sien during holidays so I was very looking forward to it. Mana tau, cause I chatted with him before I went to bed. I dreamt that he has arrived in Adelaide & the 1st place I took him to was the museum. =.= But...in the dream, the museum looked totally different from the real one. Weirdly, we were the only ones in the museum (not including the guards). There were super creepy monuments & paintings & everything seemed to come to live (if you're imagining something like Night at the Museum, you're so wrong!! It was disturbingly creepy). Even the security guards were weird!! They seemed to be some kind of zombies. Before I could make out the details, YL & I were running...trying to find our way out the museum but we were trapped. As usual, I couldn't wake up because I was stuck in the dream.

I'm feeling kind of lazy to describe the details. The thing is, the details were quite blurry too. =S Or...it could be due to studying Abnormal Psychology. Did you know that in the late 19th century, people bought tickets to view mentally ill patients as a form of entertainment? Sick right?! Argh...

XOXO,
Me

What a way to start my day

Argh! This is soooo frustrating! I've been having problems enrolling for a submajor course in the 2nd period for a month now! My e-mails have been referred to several people & yet my problem is not solved. Why? Because the last person who received my e-mail just simply stopped replying me!

Yesterday I thought that enough is enough! I need to solve this problem soon before history repeats itself (like last year) so I personally went to the school office to find someone who could help me. There was a tinge of hope in me. I felt optimistic again. Was hoping that this problem would be solved by the end of this week so that I could arrange the timetable of my 2nd semester. The school office staff made an appointment for me to meet another staff whom she thought could help me. Although I didn't have class the next morning in the city, I agreed to the time because I was desparate for the problem to be solved!

So I sacrificed a few hours of sleep so that I could get to the city on time for the appointment. Guess what happened next? No prize for the correct answer. *rolls eyes* Not only she couldn't help (not that I blame her, she was new to her job), she referred me to one of the people who has stopped replying my e-mails! Argh! When I went to that person, she gave me this really arrogant face & reply. I soooo wanted to kill myself there & then. She asked me to drop her an e-mail because she didn't have time to talk & because my problem doesn't need to be solved immediately. Those were her exact words! WTH!

Just to let you know what happened last year. Beginning of last year I had problems enrolling in one of the courses for 2nd semester too. So I started e-mailing & looking for my school staff regarding my problem. As usual, e-mails were forwarded here & there, to this & that person....& they just simply stopped replying me e-mail (probably unable to solve my problem). Period. I got so fed up of e-mailing people because I was also stressed out with my assignments & tests at the same time. Hence, I told myself "take one step at a time". I left it as that. Before my 2nd semester started, I started looking for help again...However, all my effort was in vain. Again, I was so stressed about it I went looking for my Psychology support officer & guess what?! She indirectly accused me of not solving the problem in 1st semester! >( I felt so pissed because when I looked for her in 1st semester, she told me, "Well, this is a study period 5 (2nd sem) problem, so you still have a long way to go". ARGH!!!

I'm seriously sick of running around (literally) hoping someone would just be kind enough to settle the problem once & for all. I'm happy, they're happy...right?! Bah...

XOXO,
Me

Extraordinary start to a day

OK, not exactly EXTRAordinary...but it was out of ordinary alright! For the 1st time in almost 3 years in Adelaide...guess what?!

I OVERSLEPT & WAS ALMOST LATE FOR CLASS!

I know for most people, oversleeping is like a daily "routine"...but it's rather unusual for me. Since I came to Adelaide, I am able to wake up on time to have breakfast & prepare for my classes. Oversleeping was totally out of the question!

Anyway, what happened this morning was this: I was having a dream...a rather weird dream. I'm not sure why I've been having weird dreams again lately, never used to have dreams when I'm back home. Right, where was I? I was having a dream about stormy seas & scary sea creatures. Wasn't too sure if I was alone, stranded in the middle of the sea. Someone was there with me but I couldn't recall who. So, when my alarm clock rang, my hand had a mind of its own & decided that it should press on the "snooze" button. I lost count of how many times I actually pressed on the "snooze" button. I wanted to get back into my dream to see what the ending would be like. You could say that I was actually "stuck" in the dream, trying to find my way out. However, something miraculous happened, I suddenly opened my eyes to check on the time. When I saw that the time was already 9:56am, my eyes opened 10 times wider than their original sizes!!!! My class was at 10am (but usually the uni gives 10 mins allowance, so lectures start at 10:10am). I literally jumped out of bed, put a cup of milk into the microwave, changed into t-shirt & jeans, applied face moisturiser & sunscreen on both arms, put my stationery case into my bag, combed my hair (y did I even bother combing?!), gulped down my milk with 2.5 teaspoons of Milo, peed & I was out of the apartment! Fortunately the lecture was in Magill (5 mins from where I stay)! I arrived for lecture feeling hot & sweaty. Phew!

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In the afternoon on the way home from my city campus, an old man sat next to me. If you're imganing a weak & frail old man, you're wrong. He was old but strong, big & healthy. Get my drift? Anyway, I don't know for whatever reason, I looked down & saw one of his sports shoes, I went o.O I thought that was my foot because he was wearing the same brand & design. So I moved my foot & see if that shoe moved too. LOL He felt me fidgeting so I looked up & said to him "We're wearing the same shoes". & from that point onwards, our conversation started.

Him: So, are you working or studying?
Me: Oh, working. =)
Him: What are you studying?
Me: Psychology.
Him: Good fun. (I mistook that for "Where're you from")
Me: Malaysia.
Him: Haha...I just said good fun & you said Malaysia.
Me: Oh! Sorry...I thought you were asking me where I'm from. =D
Him: It's alright...It was just kind of funny. Malaysia...good fun.
Me: Hehe...

Apparently this guy is doing software engineering. Still very alert, mind you. LOL He was going on & on about his children...seemed like he's very proud of them. =) So his son just got his PhD in ermm...mathematics & had been working in the US for dunno-how-long. On the other hand, his daughter has masters in...omg, i forgot adee. =S Anyway, yeah, he told me that he took the bus to the city to just get a book. Wow! I mean, old people back home don't do that. He said something along the lines of "you can never stop learning". Very inspiring indeed. When I told him that I love learning, but dislike to be assessed (eg. taking exams etc.), he told me something that made me go o.O again. He said, "Well, when you think of it, u're constantly being assessed. In your workplace, you'll be assessed by your boss, colleagues & people around you." *speechless* It's true what he said & I suppose that doesn't stop us from becoming who we want to be & what we wanna do.

Hmmm...bus rides ain't that bad after all...when I don't doze off & knock my head against the window. XP

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OK, this is not something that happened today but I thought it was quite interesting. I have a class/coursemate who is 22 this year & has been engaged for a few years now. I find that totally bizarre! Like...I'm turning 21 this year, & I can't even get over homesickness & staying on my own, living independently, coping with stress etc. & this girl...she's been staying with her fiance's parents while her parents are staying in Perth. o.O I mean...staying with your fiance's parents?! It's like they're already married! I so cannot imagine myself as being engaged & still studying. Na-ah.

p/s: Did I mention that I totally miss the love of my life?! The other day I was on webcam with my cousins & aunts on Skype...and there he was...oh-so-cute-&-adorable!! Felt like cuddling & squeezing him in my arms. When I heard his voice, my heart totally melted...I was totally speechless.

XOXO,
Me

WHAT IS WRONG WITH U PEOPLE?!

This is related to the previous post as you can see...I blogged TWICE in a day because people just refuse to understand!

Well, got to find out about his news from a friend, another friend had to make my blood boil. So, I feel like an idiot, a fool, a clown, (insert whatever nouns that describe someone who's living in their own ideal world thinking that everyone is their friend, not even knowing that maybe they're laughing at them behind your back)!

When I think that I'm starting to form strong bonds with people, people just disappoint me to the core! Seriously! Why is it that I'm always the last to find out things?! I think you guys think I'd be sad and drown myself in tears or something but guess what?! I'm only weak if I let myself be. I'm tough OK?! I can take whatever you throw at me...I don't care.

You think news like THAT can break me apart?! Yeah, I admit that I almost cried when I found out BUT it's not like it's end of the world. I'll get over it...faster than you know. Believe it or not, I have already moved on. I'm so disappointed I don't know what to say...

I'm so angry I feel like crying to let out all of my anger! Argh!

Disappointed,
Me

Who am I to you?

Obviously you don't treat me as a friend like you said you do. Friends tell friends stuff...even though you might think that it's unnecessary. But...finding out stuff from another friend is like a slap in the face. Even though so many times I've asked you about how you feel, you always laugh & say "There's nothing wrong" or "Why do you keep asking me this?" I guess I knew you too well, I know that deep inside you have something against me. You make peace with me because you're forced to by your friends. I have known all along that you do not want to have anything to do with me. I should've trusted my instincts & avoided you but part of me thinks that I think too much.

So I was having my lunch - Tuna sandwich with cheese + avocado - & I decided to catch up with a friend on Skype. As usual, I wanted to know what's happening back in Penang & with our mutual friends. Well, I was right all along...he's finally attached.

When I found out myself weeks ago, I was at my uni computer pool. Though the attachment hasn't been confirmed, I walked to my lecture room, trying to hold back the tears. I knew that it was really THE time to move on. The pieces to a puzzle have already arranged in place. No matter how you rearrange, the pieces wouldn't fit as perfectly. It took almost a week for me to slowly accept that fact. When I finally recovered from the heartache, I scolded myself for acting the way I did. It was all because of my selfishness.

Today, my reaction was totally different from when I first found out. I didn't feel anything. I just felt a little angry because when I talked to him a few weeks ago, I asked him if there's anything he wanted to tell me but he said no, which was kind of expected. I don't know what to say anymore. All I can do is to congratulate u on ur attachment & I hope that when my time comes, you'll do the same for me.

XOXO,
Me

She's the man

First of all, this blog post has absolutely nothing to do with the movie "She's the Man". I just couldn't think of a decent post title.

Anyway, I've been meaning to blog about my 2nd week of uni but I change my mind since I lost the magic moment to blog adee. LOL & I realised that I haven't blogged about my February. So...yup, this post is about what I did in February, before I came back to Adelaide.

Hopefully, looking through the pics I took in February won't stimulate my tear glands, causing a massive downpour.


1st February
So, the 1st day of February, the whole family went out for dinner @ Manila Place on a Sunday night because brother was gonna leave on Wednesday that week. It was also the 1st time having dinner out as a whole family since my brother came back for 3 weeks. Usually we would have dinner at home. It was really great...finally the 4 of us reunited. No more feeling like an only child XP However, bro was leaving soon & I was gonna leave 11 days after that. Argh...I totally hate having a concoction of emotions. *bleh*


4th February
The day before Sue's departure, us Disted girls (of a different group) decided to have 1 last hangout @ Gurney Plaza. We got to catch up over lunch & express our feelings about leaving Penang. It was all good...At least I know that there are people out there who truly know how I feel. =) They are the people whom I hung out more during the summer holidays & I'm glad I did.


5th February
Hmm...I dunno where to start with this one. LOL I first got to "know" HY during CNY in 2008. Didn't really talk much to her as I felt a lil strange being around C's friends. Funny thing was, I mentioned to C that I was a little intimidated by HY & what do u know?! He asked HY & YY out in December to have dinner together with us & *zap* I dunno what happened along the way. I started going out with them more & when YY went back to study in Perlis, HY & I met up for a movie - Underworld 3. We had a gr8 time watching the movie & having lunch at Kim Gary after that. I guess 1st impressions aren't always accurate. ;) Good thing C asked them out for dinner in December. If not for him, I wouldn't have gotten to know a new friend, would I?

7th February
My baby boy went back to Singapore with his grandparents (my aunt + uncle). ='(

10th February
Since I got to know KT in 1999, we've been kinda close ever since. By close I mean, talking about anything in the world with each other. & of course when I found out that she was coming to study in Adelaide, I could not express how thrilled I was! Having someone you know for aeons here is definitely the best thing in the world! So we hung out alot in Adelaide, mostly during the holidays though. I'm not sure if I've blogged about this before. One time, when we went hiking at the Botanical Gardens, I almost died. I shall save that for another day. XD Anyway, we've been planning to go hiking for ages so I decided to just go ahead with the plan before I came back to Adelaide (she left almost a week after I did). Hehe...That's us...hiking & camwhoring along the way.


14th February
The day that every couple (or rather just the girls with bfs) has been waiting for. Well, since my friends & I are still single, we thought why not celebrate it among ourselves?! Ruth, YF & I headed to the Northam Beach Cafe for our dinner. Hmmm...I think we had ikan panggang, lasagne (with soup & dessert [omg the dessert!!]), muar chee...omg I can't remember! =S All I remember is that the food was yummy & we left with filled stomachs. LOL Happy Belated Valentine's Day girls! =D


15th February
After planning for sooo long, SM, XY & I finally met up! Too bad HN & SH couldn't make it though. =( We first became close in...let's see...2004. We were in the same group doing the SPM Additional Mathematics project. & the rest is history. XD I'm always glad that I get to keep in touch with old friends because nothing compares to them! Well, not that new friends are not good, it's just that old friends have known you longer & have probably been through a lot with u in those years that u've been friends.


18th February
The day before my dreaded day. Despite having to leave the next day, Shaun, Ruth & I met up for lunch at Kim Gary. & after that, we headed to PAH to visit Pras who has been admitted there.

That's pras, with Shaun Jr. Shaun made while waiting to visit her. LOL
19th February
I dun even know what to "say" here. I was dreading this day for almost a week even though I knew I had to face reality. Well...let's just say I managed to put up a brave front & held back the tears that have been desparate to flow. Besides, for the first time in 2 years (1st time not counted as mom went to Adelaide with me), I had a friend to keep me company during the flight. So it wasn't that bad...until I reached Adelaide & stepped into my room of course.

There you go, this is a post on what I did in February.

XOXO,
Me