The Hopeless Romantic

i took a love quiz while chatting with my crush halfway...juz got curious...wanted to find out what my love quotient is..

the title says it all...

i'm the hopeless romantic...

"no matter where the rainbow goes, you'll be chasing it, with flowers, candy, and a song in your heart"

well...i think this is the most accurate one so far....*sigh*

in a mess

honestly...ANYONE who is reading this...do not hesitate to leave me a comment ok?? 'she' in this post needs some advice...

ok, i'll be very frank as i'm not in the mood to type alot (confused with college options)...

it happened when she was 10, a 12-year-old boy, T, confessed his feelings for her...she had feelings for him too at that time, then a year later, he moved to another state...so they kinda wrote letters to each other...he even called her...she STILL had feelings for him until she was 12...she had a huge crush on A until this day (she's 17 this year)...then, this year T came to visit her on the night of christmas eve...over the years when they were apart, he often dropped hints telling her that he still feels the way he did years ago...she juz simply ignored them...afraid to face reality...she juz shrugged them off and often left clues telling him that she treats him as a friend and nothing more...one day when they went for a movie...he gave her a gift...but knowing that by accepting his gift, he might get the wrong message, she insisted that she didn't want the gift, but he said that she'll understand once she accepted the gift...and she didn't even tell him that she didn't feel the same way he did already...so..in the end...she didn't accept his gift...did she do the right thing?? should she juz ask him what he thinks she's thinking??

anything at all...juz drop by and tell me what u think she should do....and not do...anything!

Dancing

i feel like learning how to dance!! i never liked dancing....maybe because my aunt and my mom used to frighten me with those pinches the ballet instructor would give if u make any minor mistakes...this, i'm not sure as i've never learnt dancing before...

but now, i feel like dancing!! 1st i wanna learn ballet...then maybe...juz MAYBE someday i'll learn ballroom dancing...the only prob is u need to have a partner for ballroom dancing ....

actually...i got my inspiration by watching 'Innocent Steps', a korean movie...yes...u've guessed right!! it's about dancing...i didn't like ballroom dancing either until i saw that actress dance so gracefully...because the ballroom dancing i usually see...the adults dance very roughly and hiao-ly...and they yao2 too vigorously...but she...wow!! i fell in love with dancing!!

ahhh...i don't know what to say...but i hope i'll still have time when i start college...

it's christmas....but i don't feel at all extraordinarily happy or thrilled...in fact, i feel a lil disturbed...confused...

i can't decide on which college i'm going to...i think time really flies...i still can't accept the fact that i've graduated from high school!!

my neighbour (who lives on the 3rd floor) juz dropped by his rabbit for me to care for since he's going to ipoh and will b back tomorrow afternoon...so cute ok?! and its fur is as white as snow...it's no wonder my neighbour named him Snowball!

hehe...so excited to get to play with his rabbit...but i'm a lil nervous though...not sure if it'll hop here and there...haha...

so...going for lunch at my aunt's now...later!

hmmm....

i bet no one missed me...anyway, i've been enjoying my holidays by doing nothing here in singapore...living at my cousin's...so i can do whatever i want (well, not exactly) like shopping (more like window =P) and hanging at home watching TV...

the other day i was chatting with an old friend from primary school...a guy actually...who i used to argue with ALOT...i hated him then...and vice versa...lol...then he told me that primary reunion juz passed a couple of days ago...come to think of it, i've only been to our primary reunion once...cause most of the time the guys juz wanted to meet some pretty girls...those more popular ones...so i thought "what's the point?" but then this time i'm kinda disappointed that i couldn't make it (cause already in sg)...as i really really haven't seen those guys for a long long time now...(don't misunderstand k?!) it's juz that i used to be so anti-guys...and i even made alot of guy enemies during primary school...but now i chat to this particular guy who i loved to tease alot...hehe...but still...maybe i'm not that disappointed too...hehe...according to another guy who went...they paid for RM45 for a ermm...buffet lunch and BBQ dinner at night...and i dunno...he claimed that it wasn't as nice as he had expected...so...hehehe...=P

ahhhh....i love it here...not because i love the place...but because i've left all my thoughts back in penang...my worries, my fears, my everything! actually i haven't been thinking of my crush much until i heard a love song that day...*sigh* and about college applications too until my mom kept reminding me that i should start thinking about it adee...so, i guess when i go back tomorow, everything will come back to me again...now i'm considering whether i should send my crush a christmas card...since i've been sending him festive cards (including his birthday) for the past 3 years...but it's different now...he has found the girl of his dreams...

enough about my crush d...don't wanna think about him too much d...must focus on other stuff...since i'm STILL on the topic of my crush, =P i'm so proud of myself!! haha...cause during that period when i was sitting for SPM, i hardly thought of him, and even if i did, i shrugged him off to the back of my head! so proud of myself k?!

haiyah...anyway...loads of stuff that i wanna write la...but gotta get going d...so...till next time!

WORST day of my life

*sigh* it's 12:32pm now...was gonna meet my friends at the cinema 32 mins ago...but i'm sitting here typing this entry....=(

ok, it all started out like this:

i was sooo eager for this day to come as i never hung out with some of my friends before...so we decided to go for a movie marathon today...so, i asked my friend if i could borrow her digital camera battery charger so that i could charge my battery and use it today!! *fast forward* so my friend dropped off her battery for me this morning...when i was in the bathroom...i was kinda excited...*fast forward* my mom was waiting for me downstairs to take me to gurney plaza...and i was trying to wear my contact lenses cause my glasses were at the shop...so i tried my best to wear them as quickly as possible...i couldn't get the right one in..i started to tremble a lil...my fingers sweating....then, my lens dropped...and gone! i couldn't find it!! my mom even came upstairs to help me find it! after searching high and low, the lens was nowhere to be seen...i couldn't possibly go on a movie marathon without perfect eyesight! i won't be enjoying my movie to the fullest! besides, i'll be wasting my money (ok, my parents' hard-earned money) so....i had to tell my friends that i couldn't make it! *SCREAMS*

ok ok...since i'm not going out today...i'll clean my room, throw out unwanted stuff...and...watch DVD...*sigh*

what i've learnt today : never get to excited about something cause i'll end up being more disappointed....(juz excuse my grammar!! so devastated....) =((

p/s : i feel so guilty to make my friends wait for me for half an hour...if it wasn't for me, they're probably watching the 12:15pm show adee!

*GASPS*

AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!

i juz saw my crush 10 mins ago!!!!!!

*breathe in...breathe out...*

phew! he walked right past me!!!!!
he was wearing a red shirt and blue baggy jeans (not that kinda extremely baggy jeans...but that cool type...i dunno how to describe it! in other words...he looked good in it and didn't look like some gangster...GET IT?!) *inhales*


he was with a friend...i couldn't see properly (stupid me! should've worn my contact lenses!!) i think his friend was a guy...cause 'he' looked really tall and skinny...with long hair! (ick!) not only long...but tied like this....

(minus the curls n flowers...)




i'm not sure if he saw me....but i think he looked at me for a split second!!! o.O since he was busy talking while walking with his friend...i turned around to see if he was with his gf...to my relief..NO, or else my heart would've stopped beating there and then! i haven't seen him for ages....we used to bump into each other at the PSC...*sigh* memories =P i could still remember the first time i walked up to him and asked him if he was the person i thought he was...when he nodded...i juz walked off!! =S was too nervous! that was like in 2001...

i'm hoping he didn't see me though....cause i wasn't properly dressed....not that i dress when i go out...but really...my clothes were hideous....trust me on this!! i'm not that kinda girl who dresses when she goes out...so if i tell u that my clothes r hideous....believe me! to add salt to the 'wound', i was wearing a very childish 'winnie the pooh' old shirt and a 'half-shorts-half-skirt' full of teddy bears! ARGH!!

i hate to bump into him during the hols....cause now i have loads of time to think about him...could someone pls slap me?! =) oh...i forgot to mention...i bumped into him at gurney plaza...

meaningful

快乐是我的，不是你给的

hehe...finally!! spm's over and i'm outta that school for good!

but i'm not thrilled though...because i kinda 'celebrated' yesterday d =D

anyway, gonna watch a comedy to laugh until my sides ache...ciao!

8-) ---> =)

hehe...i finally got my contact lenses!!!

it was freaking hard to get the lenses to 'stick' onto my eyeball...cause i kept moving my eyeball..and i couldn't control the muscles of my eyelids...hehe...i kept closing my eyes! whoa! it was hard work getting them in!!

anyway, once they're in...wow! haha...i can see REALLY clearly!! and i couldn't feel anything there...now all i need is alot of practice!! =D i feel so excited...i dunno y =P

I SWEAR!

that i'll NEVER EVER cry because of a guy...

haha...this post is damn wu liao !

ok, anyway...i'm gonna start a beauty regiment...hehe...so i'm gonna :

• drink at LEAST 8 glasses of water a day
• exercise regularly
• sleep early
• try out some (hehe) natural beauty tips (ok...weird vocab)

i guess that's it kua...i woke up at 8am today to go for a morning walk at the botanical garden with my mom, aunt and cousin...hehe...i felt so fresh when i came home and showered! =D

i think...my mom's gonna take me to the optometrist's to check my eyesight and get contact lenses!! kinda excited...LOL...i'm sure my eye power has increased...*sigh*

Girls can live without guys u know?

well...to protect someone's privacy...i shall call her F...

i've been reading F's blog for a few weeks and almost all her recent posts were about how she's hurting inside because of a certain guy...blah blah blah....and many more...

i'm lazy to type out those pointless stuff, so i'll be very brief...

Y CAN'T U JUZ MOVE ON?!!?

ok, although crying definitely makes u feel better, but crying EVERY NIGHT to sleep?!
maybe because i haven't had a bf...but that's not the point...for me...i think i'm too egoistic to even beg him (if i have one, that is) to stay or shed tears for him! PUH-lease! if he doesn't want/like u...juz move on!! no guy is worth ur tears and the who is won't make u cry (i forgot the ACTUAL saying)

i've watched alot of movies that show girls crying over their breakup with boyfriends...*rolls eyes* i think that's juz plain dumb...don't u (i mean girls) have some dignity?! their are still alot of fishes in the sea and i'm sure u can find one that is truly urs! as for myself, i'm quite thankful i'm not that kinda girl who will break down because of some guy! Thank God! if i were like that, i think i wouldn't have handled my emotions that well (ok, not THAT well, but still...i think i handled quite well) =P

p/s : i'm not criticising the guys...but encouraging girls to move on!!! ARRGGGHHHH!!

CAN'T STAND GUYS!!

i'm soooo steaming hot right now!!

juz got off msn 'chatting' with one of the 'famous' ST's...

HMPH!now he knows how i feel when he voices pointless and rude comments to everything i say!!

AAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

i juz feel like strangling him!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm not sure if this happens to all the guys born in 1986 or juz him!!!

it seems to me that he has this PMS for guys!

*breathe in...breathe out...*

p/s : hmph!!! guys *rolls eyes* fai see choy ley! i wanna go study liao!! oh...if u happen to read this...yes, i am talking about U! and i never wanna msg/speak to u ever again!!

Fresh Air!

ahhhhh...i feel alot better today!! i can breathe properly!! =D

so...my plan for today : STUDY CHEM!!

well, i have 3 more subjects till i gain my freedom....but at the back of my head, there's a voice telling me...'aiya...3 more only...juz cincai sit for those three and get them over with!' but then another voice tells me 'NO...3 only...work hard!!' *sigh* i'm caught in between...i think i'm falling sick because of this la...can't sleep soundly at night...now i see a panda everytime i look into the mirror...(-.-)

my conclusion?? WORK HARD!! i MUST i MUST study today!!

ok, time to have breakfast...

lazy post

very lazy right now...hence the short phrases

had a runny nose the whole day...
couldn't do anything...
so...i didn't study AT ALL today...
ok i ran out of things to say...GREAT

oh, i juz remembered..

i have to sleep early *sniff* good night...

BAD + SWEET dream

BAD dream :
i only scored 3 A's in my SPM! -.-"'

SWEET dream :
i received an e-mail from my crush!!!!!! i was so thrilled in that dream, i thought i was dreaming and when i woke up, i WAS dreaming! ARRGGGHHHH!!

gonna sit for moral paper this afternoon at 2pm...*sigh*

sink or swim

how?! how?! how?! STPM's gonna be over soon....and i have like 3 more subjects after that....after doing add maths exercises the whole day today, i feel like throwing up...

i haven't been eating much these days...no appetite...maybe it's because of exams...*sigh* i need some motivation, really...i feel like i'm gonna break down any second...my heart beats real fast when it feels like it...sometimes i juz wonder if there's something wrong with me...y am i sooo nervous when everyone else can juz remain calm??? i think i'm suffering from a severe exam anxiety!

the rain has juz stopped...and i still can't get myself off the comp...cause i'm sick of sitting at my table...!!

i think i'm falling sick.....

i dedicate this song to myself :

Simon Webbe - No Worries

(I just know your life's gonna change)
(Gonna get a little better)
(Moving on the darkest day)
(I just know your life's gonna change)
(Gonna get a little further)
(Right up until the feeling fades)

So, is this how it goes,
Think you've come this far,
and then it'll show,
but that aint so, oh no,
you don't see where you are,
and if you don't wanna look back you'll never know,
cuz you think that you've been here
just treading water
waiting in the wings for the show to begin
but i always see you searching
and you try that bit harder
getting closer, oh yeah
to the life you're imagining

[Chorus]
(I just know your life's gonna change)
maybe not today, maybe not today,
but some day soon you'll be alright,
(I just know your life's gonna change)
turn the other way, turn the other way,
feels like luck is on your side,
(Just wanna live)
no worries, no worries,
(Don't wanna die)
no worries, no worries,
sing for me, sing for me,
we all need somebody,
(yeah you can sink)
no worries, no worries,
(or you can swim)
no worries, no worries,
sing for me, sing for me,
we all need somebody,

So, baby keep drifiting on
getting there aint just
selfless wasted time
seek and find, yeah
you're not that far from what you hoped
and wished for all along,
cuz you think that you've been there,
just treading water
waiting in the wings for the show to begin
but i always see you searching
and you try that bit harder
getting closer, oh yeah
to the life you're imagining

[Repeat Chorus]

I just know your life's gonna change
sing for me, sing for me,
we all need somebody...

p/s : i still don't feel any better...y does this happen to me?! i hate myself....

hehe...=D

i know i shouldn't be blogging so often as i'm facing my exams now...but because i juz had my breakfast and it's not healthy to go shower right after a meal, so i'll juz come here and let out a lil

hmmm...5 more subjects to go!! and i'm gonna do whatever i want! lol...not exactly WHATEVER

random stuff (things i wanna do after spm and things i like/dislike)

1. i'm gonna get contact lenses!!
2. gonna catch harry potter and the GOF (although i heard that even small details they failed to follow the book eg. the colour of the robes) oh well, juz wanna go watch, that's all...can't expect too much from it though...
3. throw away all my useless books (such as chinese? and ermmm malay?)
4. keep long hair!! (this is a sure thing...my hair is growing quite long d now...)
5. i dislike ppl 'whatever'ing in my face...in fact, i hate it...i juz try to restrict myself from exploding
6. i hate ppl poking my sides...so annoying
7. i hate ppl 'body-glove'ing me...
8. i love laughing until my sides or my cheeks hurt
9. i love daydreaming
10. i love staring blankly into space
11. i love sitting in the living room, flipping through astro channels all day!
12. i'm so gonna hang out with my friends after spm...
13. i hate ppl not taking me seriously when i really need them to...
14. oh!! i'm gonna rent loads and loads of korean drama series to watch after spm =D
15. i'll be dreading to receive news on which batch (NS) i'm going to =(
16. i'm gonna look for a part-time job so that i can buy a handphone! hehe...see first la...so much stuff to do...

i think my comp's going crazy...it keeps making this weird noise i'm so afraid it will explode...so...later!! (later as in...a few days later =P)

ARRRRGGGHHHH!! (part 2)

hehe...u can call me wu liao...i visited www.epitomemodels.com and i came across this ad looking for models between the ages of 14-22 (females)...then my heart nearly stopped beating when i saw THIS -> no height restrictions...!!! i couldn't believe my eyes...but as i expected, only for residents of Connecticut, Colorado, Vermant, Maryland, North Dakota and Puerto Rico...

*sigh* there goes my chance =D in case u're wondering if i wanna make a living by modelling...u're so wrong! haha...i juz wish to do stuff that i like being an air-hostess, model while i can (*blush* i know maybe i don't have the talent, but i'm sure practice makes perfect? keke) etc.

i still remember when i flipped through the papers, i was soooo thrilled when i saw that headline : DREAM OF BEING A MODEL? (ok, i forgot the exact words...but it meant the same....i guess =P) in Star Metro early this year. so i quickly scanned through the article and was so happy when Vanessa Diamonds was looking for a model to promote their new collection of Jewellery! but as i look further, they were looking for females between the ages of 18-(forgot d) see?! i only remember that 18!! BLOODY 18!! i'm juz a year younger! how disappointing...and the photoshoot was held at gurney plaza! i wanted to go take a peek...but i think it was around my exams...sheesh!

p/s: and again, pls excuse my poor eng...having a bad runny nose...hate it!

ARRRRGGGHHHH!!

ok, juz came back from school...juz sat for BM2 and guess what?! i didn't know how to do the tatabahasa part AND and i didn't have enough time to finish it!!

shit! hope i pass this subject if not i'm gonna have to migrate to overseas! =(

didn't see that coming!

haha...yes, i've always wanted to become a model...although my height doesn't even reach the minimum for models (juz excuse my grammar in this post...gotta be quickm can't waste too much time online) ok, where was i? oh yeah...i logged in to my inbox and i got this e-mail :

Dear ,
Recently, you submitted your photos to ModelNetwork.Com and I believe you will greatly benefit from a convention being held by Model Search America in Las Vegas, December 2nd - 4th.

Model Search America is hosting one of the largest National Model Conventions. Aspiring and current models and actors will be able to audition in front of over 50 of the world's Top Modeling and Talent Agencies, Casting Directors, and Magazines in person.

Among those scheduled to attend include: Elite, Request, Major, NY Models, Irene Marie, ID Models, Wilhelmina, Abrams Artists, casting directors for over 10 different reality shows, and magazines including Cosmo Girl, Vibe, and Allure.

If you are serious about getting into the industry, I highly suggest that you schedule an interview today!

To schedule an interview, please go to:http://www.modelsearchamerica.com/AOSDOFEDF.cfm?id=1008

For more information, please feel free to visit:http://www.modelsearchamerica.com

Hope to see you there!

Best Regards,
Model Network


one thing that's weird though...i didn't submit any of my photos...and when i clicked on the url 'to schedule an interview' =P, there's this form to fill in...ANNNDD it's only for the american citizens -.-" but one thing that's surprising is that they didn't ask for the height, weight, measurements..etc which is quite ermm...abnormal? lol...

ok, enough....gotta study...