crazy day

today was simply crazy...

haha..come to think of it, it was insane!! (yeah yeah...i know crazy and insane have the same meaning)

anyway, today involved alot of snatching, laughing, screaming (haha...when laughing), perli-ing etc...

kinda lazy at this moment...but juz to let u know how those verbs were involved...haha

remember that guy who is matchmade to me? let's call him C...

my friend took my hp, and typed a msg saying 'i love u forever!' she showed it to me and said "i sent him this u know?" i SCREAMED! i thought she did that for REAL! O.O *sweat* then she kept laughing non-stop...only then i realised she was only kidding me! phew~

another guy friend took my hp and took C's pic and put it as my hp wallpaper! what the?! yes....i screamed again...i was traumatised!! =S it was nightmare!!

then i dunno y...ok, i'll not get into THAT topic again...

all in all...i had a good laugh today...although it was crazy!!

i'm very sure...

...that i don't like that guy who is matchmade to me...i used to THINK i like him...but not anymore...he's totally the opposite of the guy i'm looking for =P haha...i believe in fairy tales...one day my prince will come...LOL...

anyway, one less problem d now...phew~

having a malaysian studies exam next wed...sheesh...i hate studying malaysian history...haven't started studying yet...=S

nothing much to talk about here...later!

confused...=S

i'm VERY VERY confused right now...was chatting with a college friend on msn...she told me the funny things that happened during their group outing at gurney plaza today...and the guy who is matchmade to me by practically EVERYONE in college went along too...

and...i feel...kinda sad/down/unhappy/upset...dunno...i don't know how to describe how i feel...cause i AM EXTREMELY sure that i DO NOT have any feelings for him k?!

hmmm...maybe it's juz me...musn't think too much...mid-term exams coming up SOON! i'm really happy with myself today (i mean...yesterday)...i didn't have an afternoon nap! and i nearly finished all my maths exercises! hooray for me! =P

i took out my high school autograph book and read...i realised that i was a very very cheery person who enjoys laughing in school...and i think i've changed a LIL...well, maybe because the ppl in college are different from the ppl we got to know in high school...yeah, from now on, i'll find my old self back...

p/s: may...i felt totally myself the other day...=) muakz!

exposed!

lol...i was talking about my identity...

a 'friend' of mine found out i have a blog and even linked it to his!! O.O

p/s: haha...nothing much to update...later!

PISSED

*sigh* no mood to update lately....

anyway, today...i actually couldn't hide my feelings anymore...i showed my friends that i was pissed...

yeah...pissed!! pissed of what one of my friends said...i thought friends are suppose to accept u for who u are...and even though we're different, i always try to accept them as who they are...but now i know how our esl lecturer feels...no one's appreciating it!

but then again...i juz kept quiet...didn't wanna say anything in case i say the wrong thing that will ruin our relationship...it's funny how ppl take u as a joke when u're cheery and all...but once u show them that u're unhappy about something, they think u're scary...

to hell with them...now that i think about it again...i feel so pissed...i'll still keep it inside of me...no point telling anyone...

it's not that the friends i mix with are bad...in fact, they're quite nice...BUT i can NEVER NEVER share my innermost feelings with them...cause they simply cannot understand how i feel...they juz shrug my problems off like a fly...

p/s: will continue next time...can't get my thoughts straight...sheesh!

feeling bad

ok, i feel so bad for calling someone bitch....haha...so not me eh?

and of course i didn't say that in front of that person....

she got on my nerves....and i couldn't supress my anger any longer...so i whispered "bitch" into my friend's ear =P

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA....

anyway, she deserves it...i don't feel bad anymore...=D

worthless

i haven't been updating my blog for a very very very long time...it's almost dead...

the reason y i've not been updating is because too much had happened since the last time i updated...and i wasn't in a mood to blog...

now i feel so pressured by neverending assignments! i can hardly breathe...

my IT project proposal is due this fri but i haven't done it yet...

Biology Human Awareness Essay due next mon...haven't started yet...

and i have to study for this chem test on mon too...=S

suddenly i feel so lost among my friends...

meaningful presents

from the 7 dwarves...haha...nah, juz kidding!

from my GF (haha...good friend) cute huh? my star sign =P

p/s: oh...cakes...i've eaten one...forgot to take pic...the other one is still in the fridge =D

NIGHTMARE!!!!

I CANNOT BELIEVE IT!!! OH MY GOD!!

YESTERDAY I VISITED MY FRIEND'S BLOG...AND ONE OF HER PICS POSTED WAS WITH HER BF (I THINK, WELL THE GUY'S HANDS WERE AROUND HER WAIST, DUH!) AND U KNOW WHAT I DREAMT LAST NIGHT?!?!?!!?

EEEEWWWWW...IT BRINGS THE CHILL DOWN MY SPINE WHEN I EVEN THINK OF IT!! OK, HERE GOES......*deep breath*

I WAS IN CLASS...BENDING OVER DOING SOMETHING...THEN A GUY (i dunno who, don't ask) CAME AND F*****G HUGGED ME FROM BEHIND...AAAAARRRRRGGGGHHHHH!! IF THAT HAPPENED TO ME IN REAL LIFE, I'LL JUZ F*****G TURNED AROUND AND KICKED HIM IN THE GROIN!!! =S OH MY GOD...I GUESS I LIKED THAT GUY THAT'S WHY I DIDN'T KICK HIM ANYWHERE NEAR HIS GROIN...THE TEACHER GAVE ME THIS DISGUSTED LOOK...O.O

LUCKILY IT WAS ALL A DREAM!! NEXT TIME I SHALL NOT LOOK AT PICS OF PPL HUGGING OR KISSING OR WHATEVER! MY GOODNESS...WHAT A NIGHTMARE!!

i'm already 18!

oh my...time really flies...i've turned 18!!!

yesterday (5th of May a.k.a. my birthday), i went to college at 11am till 1pm......at college, my friend gave me a present - a custom-made keychain and a piece of paper, signed by 7 of my friends (prasana, yin fei, shaun, melvin, aaron, daniel and khong) and their birthday wishes written at the back...it was very meaningful =) i had been receiving birthday sms's since 12am on 5th of may...i even received an sms from a friend at 7am in the morning!

decided to postpone the movie marathon my friend and i planned to the day after...so i went home for lunch...after lunch, as usual...i felt so sleepy...so i went to have a nap...woke up before 5pm and went to college again at 5pm...

i felt like a beauty queen on parade when i walked into college...haha...as i was walking up the stairs...ppl were wishing me happy birthday...i had to thank them one by one =P so funny...then when i pushed open the door to the classroom....my other friends wished me happy birthday...swee en, chun yeong, boon han and shu xian gave me 2 slices of cake (from secret recipe! yum!) and the next thing i know was they (my friends) started to sing the happy birthday song! my goodness...i NEVER EVER experienced that sorta situation in my life...i felt so pai seh...haha...not used to being in the spotlight and all...i actually ran out the classroom =S that's so ungrateful of me =( well, u can't blame me right?! i really didn't know how to react...was extremely touched though =')

after college at 7:30pm, i had a birthday dinner together with my family and my aunt's family... at midlands court restaurant in 1-stop...whoa! the food was great! i stuffed myself sooo full i could explode...haha...nah...juz kidding =D went home and quickly put those 2 slices of cake into the fridge...i ate one of the cakes at night while watching the tv show my mom recorded (cause we went for dinner) the raspberry yogurt cheese cake was yummy!!! *hmmm*

although i had college on my birthday, but nevertheless, my birthday this year is considered the best birthday i ever had!! my friend (yes u, tst) even called all the way from jap 5 mins before my birthday ended to wish me happy birthday!! haha...really sorry ya...i didn't know what to say...i had a hoarse voice and was speechless =P really appreciate it...not forgetting...my bro called from russia before tst did...awww...

too bad i didn't take any pics...i think it's quite a waste...cause pics last forever...oh well...i still can't believe i'm 18...someone please wake me up...see that pic?! i've grown so much over the years! it feels so surreal......

pre-birthday celebration

if u think it's something grand...think again =P

well...it was juz lunch...my friends gave me a treat...at a nasi kandar stall...i'm so touched ok?! i mean, my birthday...never got treated by a friend / friends before leh...my first time...

after class at 3pm, i went to 1-stop with my friends to play some games?

i'm not really a game person...i used to be la...when i was younger...haven't been to game arcades since God-knows-when...i felt like a princess...haha...the driver (a guy friend) would keep asking me 'birthday girl, where do u wanna go??' =D i didn't wanna go to 1-stop initially, i felt like going for a movie...and go home...perfect! but in the end i decided to go la...

honestly, when i reached fun zone...oh my God...i felt so old...i didn't feel like playing...i thought the noise there was too loud...the smell of cigarette was juz overwhelming...ARGH! i even brought my school bag there...

ok, i admit it...i did enjoy myself eventually...

now

i

feel

so

shitty

u know y?? cause i was trying so hard to keep a distance from them...then today during maths, i had an 'honesty session' with N...and got to know that they sincerely wanna celebrate with me...the story about y we had an 'honesty session' is kinda long...will elaborate it one fine day...

anyway, i'm really really touched and didn't regret having lunch with them...=)

sick =(

*sigh* i'm sick....

3 days ago i woke up having difficulty swallowing my saliva...so i drank LOADS of water for the past few days, hoping to prevent myself from falling sick...unfortunately, i had a runny 2 days ago...so i thought "ok, this is another allergic thing...it'll go away real soon" but NO, yesterday my runny nose got worse...my head felt heavy by 10pm...i went to bed at 11:30pm, which is sooo early...because usually i sleep at 12am or 1am...

whoa, as i'm typing this entry, my head's pounding and i can't stop sneezing! =((

i hate having runny noses...u know y?? because i look really awful when i have a runny nose...=S
as if loud sneezing is not enough, i have to sound like a trumpet when i blow my nose! well, some ppl may ask me not to blow so loudly...but hey, how does the mucus come out if i don't blow hard enough? =P right?! anyway, i'm not sure if it's stress or health problems...tonnes of pimples are appearing on my face =S (according to experts, pimples appear on ur face when some certain organs are not functioning well)

oh yeah, i'm sick...so i gotta sleep early today as well...goodbye.

something to cheer myself up =D

this pic was taken unintentionally!

see how happy we were in that pic? i still remember...a whole bunch of us people purposely went to McD's to snap pics!! we were laughing so loudly...like nobody was watching...that was 2 years ago...now we can hardly meet up because of our tight schedules...

i don't wanna grow up yet!! may...i know u'll say u look stupid in that pic =P we all do...don't worry...hehe~

gloomy monday

the sky is so dark outside, i think it's gonna rain any moment now...and i'm indoors, listening to coral sea by jay chou and lara...*sigh* the combination of both makes me quite depressed...

right now, i'm hoping this year would end soon...i hate college =( i hate the ppl (especially guys) and the work loads...it's driving me crazy...there's gonna be a bio test tomorrow on macromolecules and i haven't finished studying...my mind starts to wander whenever i'm on a subtopic which needs alot of thinking and info-processing =S

today's my friend's 18th birthday...and because i have to study for bio test, i couldn't celebrate with her...ARGH! our plans! before may we were planning to celebrate each other's birthday together...now...*sob* *SIGH* and i'm so not looking forward to my birthday this fri...y? because i'm having difficulties on who to celebrate with! 18 is a meaningful age to me...i dunno y...it juz is O.O

have i mentioned that i'm so proud of myself? will blog about y i feel proud of myself after my bio test....

work

i'm starting to hate my life as a student....=(

chem lab report - yet to be editted
annotated biblio - done
study for bio test - shit! haven't started
maths - haven't started
preliminary outline - haven't started

*sigh* i'm off to do maths...hopefully my mind will be more alert...

when will this all end??