Wheee!

Since my life has been deprived of some excitement, here are 3 things that excite me! :D

- I trimmed my bangs myself for the first time in my life! LOL I gave myself a haircut before in secondary school when my aunt who used to cut my hair was away on a holiday, and that was it. I got myself a haircut before I flew here but then I realised that my bangs were a tad long, and it'd be wayyy long by the time I go home next year. So I took matters into my own hands. Instead of spending 20 pounds to go to a hairdresser, I bought a thinning scissors for 4 pounds (which I could use over and over again in the future) from a pharmacy and trimmed my bangs. I didn't dare go too short, just in case it turned out bad.

- My friend is getting married in September next year and she invited me to be her jimui!! I've never been a jimui in my life....so I don't exactly know what a jimui does. However I'm still really excited!!! I'll make sure that I'll be back in Penang by then so that I don't miss another friend's wedding! *fingers crossed* :D

- It snowed a few nights ago but I missed it. Was already asleep by then. I'm still excited! I'm wishing for a white Christmas. I know, holidays are still far away and I'm already thinking about holidays! Ahhh!

Anyway, I'm so glad I'm finally writing happy posts!! Wheee!!!

p/s: Sunny days make me happy! It's sunny today!

XOXO,
Me

我回来了

两个小时前跟一位槟城的朋友聊天，她在为她的感情生活烦恼。其实跟她聊了之后，我觉得很欣慰她懂得为自己的未来着想。她和男友交往三年多，一切事情都是男友安排、管理。你要知道她男友是多么的大男人。有一次我们三姐妹出去逛街，正在有兴致地一面吃着一面聊天时她男友拨电话给她，要他立刻在楼下等他。我当时很惊讶，怎么连吃个东西也要管啊？而且我们也还没吃完，他就要她回家，这不合理吧？我曾经想，她真的要把她的幸福交到他手中吗？他们可能有结果吗？

她说她受够了他的约束，他的自私，想要做个了断。当然还有种种原因的存在。我真的很为她开心因为只有想要挣开的想法才会有行动。很多女生习惯了另一半在身边，即使再不开心也没有勇气提出分手去面对改变。所以，我一定全力支持你！！！我相信你的决定会是以你的未来和幸福为前提。我恨钦佩那些有勇气面对分手的女生，因为真的很不容易。

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Totally irrelevant post below:

I suddenly have this deep hatred for men who drink. OK, maybe not hatred...but 反感.

XOXO
Me

原来...

...我还没完全放下。

刚刚看了一位朋友面书上的相簿，看到了他们去骑脚车。当中有她和他。不知道为什么，照片中也没有特别的什么，但是我心里就是觉得不是滋味。也许，我的离开对你来说是一种释放......我觉得自己好傻，明知她永远会在你心中占着很重要的地位，而我却装作没这回事。在看喜剧的我不知不觉流下眼泪，也不知道是不是又想家了，还是为了别的事情。总之，身在国外的我特别容易流泪。唉，真讨厌这样的自己。虽然表面看起来好像什么事情都没有，但是当被一些事情刺激的时候又再发作。

还是一样

每次擦干眼泪，跟自己说加油！我好想好想就这样，躺在床上大哭，什么也不做，直到眼泪都哭干为止，然后再重新出发。但是，实际上时间紧迫，每次哭了就立刻擦干眼泪然后若无其事地继续做该做的事。不知道这样子能够撑多久......快要精神崩溃了。想当年我是多么地勇敢与独立，那个女孩跑去了哪里？怎么人长越大越懦弱？真是可笑！如果我能让脑袋停止想念那该多好，那一切就没事了！好久没有开怀大笑了，也没有尽情歌唱。在路上走着想要唱歌的时候发现那把嗓子好陌生，好像从来没听过，声音里也似乎隐藏着伤痛与寂寞。

在别人眼里我就是一个嘻嘻哈哈的开心果，只有真正了解我的人才知道我其实很多愁善感。哭也从来不会在家人面前哭，免得他们担心。还记得在机场时看见妈妈眼眶泛红，我为了压抑自己的情绪就用最快的速度走进boarding gate，不想当场大哭。

有是时候重拾心情去做功课了。

Too overwhelmed

And again, another emo blog post. Well, it's been a week already and it feels like time is moving oh-so-slowly. I guess it's just a temporary feeling. Right now I wish time could fast forward to my graduation. I'd like to go travel and go home and do the things I want to do. Having to deal with being away from home + not having any friends + lots of work to do = 1 very emo girl. Just sitting in the library searching for articles is enough to make my eyes well up in a blur. Just turning on the laptop and seeing my buddy in Penang is also enough for me to tear. Every little thing makes me emotional at this stage. I wonder when this will all end. Hey you...yeah you, thank you so much for always being there and trying to make me laugh when I don't feel like it. I know you're also going through a lot but you still try to cheer me up. Thank you!