So I've been in Nottingham for 2 days, the first day was filled with mixed emotions. I guess everything just happened too fast. Really wanted to write here but was afraid that once I start I'd start to get emotional all over again. As I'm typing this, my eyes are starting to well up again. Ah, I can do this!
I could still remember so vividly how I felt heavy-hearted to leave Penang. After all, I was back home for more than a year after my undergraduate graduation. I was already so settled back home, with friends I've made while working. I experienced Penang so much more in just 1 year than I have ever experienced for the past 23 years. All the late-night supper outings, spontaneous breakfast/lunch dates, the annoying sound of my house phone, the sound of TV from the living room, the sound of traffic just outside my bedroom etc. All the familiar sights and sounds are all gone. Argh!
Had a breakdown after typing the above. Anyway, classes have already started a week before my arrival so I was pretty busy settling down and catching up on missed lectures. So far there's not much progress and it's stressing me out. I thought I was fine until today, burst out crying sitting in front of the computer. I guess I suppressed my emo-ness for too long. To be honest, I'm not even sure if it's homesickness because I don't think of home that much. It's probably the lack of human interaction here, as I don't really mix around with the students here at my accommodation and I'm not into late-night drinking/partying. All I want is to have a conversation over a proper meal. Is that too much to ask for? And don't get me started on the time difference. I'm still trying to figure out how to keep in touch with friends and family back home as best as possible. I absolutely hate that feeling when I come home and everyone else back home has gone to bed. It sucks to the max! I guess this emo-ness is also part of my own doing. I guess I'm an introvert after all.