Wednesday, December 24, 2008

"Spring" Cleaning

It's that time of the year again when I sneeze non-stop because of the thick layer of dust that covers my entire room!

Last year, my attempt to clear out the mess in my room failed because I was being too sentimental. I ended up keeping most of the stuff. Today, I finally got my butt off the computer chair & tidied my room. Not that my room needed tidying, since my mom tidied it for me before I came home but alot of stuff needed to be disposed of.

Looking through stacks of college lecture notes & exercises, memories flooded my mind again. Those were the days...During that year, I've loved & lost. That year, I realised that I didn't have to be insecure about myself. That year, I learnt that competing against oneself is the most important thing, not with others. That year, I also learnt that some people can be selfish, even though they're your friends. That year, I realised that after that year, we'd all be going our separate ways, pursuing our dreams...which made me feel a little depressed because that year would end in a blink of an eye! That year also opened my eyes to girls who lead lives like Barbie dolls - thick make up, branded handbags, latest gadgets, perfect hair, high heels that match their clothes & "perfect" boyfriends. It was then that I realised I didn't wanna be one of them. Of course, not forgetting that that year was the year I made many great friends! Friends that would last a lifetime...well, mayb not some...but yeah.

I've been struggling with throwing away sentimental "junk" but...BUT guess what?! I finally set my mind to it! Before throwing something away, I'd ask myself, "Would I still be using it in 6 months' time? Would it still be useful a year from now?" & if the answers to those 2 questions are "No", then they ought to be disposed of. I'll post up a picture of the box of junk I've thrown away =P Am very proud of myself though I feel a little "bu she de". =S No use holding on to possessions right?
Can't believe today's already Christmas eve. The eve of Christ's birthday. Time really passes by too quickly. The photos I've been organising since I came home are left unorganised because of some missing photos. *sigh* Though a bunch of ppl have asked me out on Christmas eve, I'm still in a dilemma on whether I should go. Really torn apart. I mean, I don't mind spending time with them but I can't help but feel a little suspicious about their intentions. Then again, I don't have any plans tonight. A friend asked me to attend her church if I have nothing to do. Aiyo...I hate making such decisions! Can I just stay at home, spend time alone with myself & Him, with no one pestering me?! I just want a quiet & peaceful Christmas eve. But then again, I don't want them to think that Christians are always so high-above & arrogant, not wanting to go out with them or something. I'll see how it goes later...

I dunno how I should feel right now. Having driving lesson at 4pm! I'm nervous because I almost forgotten everything learnt! This is bad, really bad!! Help! I forgot the 3 test routes already! I'm so dead, my driving instructor would be nagging again. =(

p/s: the upper part of this post was typed on 22nd of December.



Mockingbird said...

i think putting up with the instructor's nagging is part and parcel of learning how to drive. Just try to put on your best behavior. Take deep breaths. Relax. Absorb as much driving tips imparted by your instructor as possible.

The more tense you are, the less you would learn to drive well :)

Happy driving :)

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Lin said...

hahaha...i guess so =P but somehow i'm very afraid of ppl nagging. cause then i'd think negatively of myself n it'd end up even worse =S
i know i've been going on n on about my driving =P thanks for being so patient. =)

Mockingbird said...

Do keep us posted of your adventures in learning to drive :)

blushstar said...

Hey Ee Lin!
Ain't you glad that you spent Christmas eve with me? =P
Anyway, I'm sure you'll pass in your driving test. no use being nervous eh? Calm down, worry not!
I'm going back on Thurs liao...cya the next time know we will, don't you? =P

God bless your cheerful soul. :)