Monday, February 22, 2010

First blog post of the year

It's been a while since I last updated my blog. In fact, it's been a long long while. The reason I haven't been updating was that everytime sit down in front of my laptop, the drive to blog just fades away. & at times when I do have the drive, I was too tired to blog.

In short, the last few months of 2009, I went on a roller-coaster ride & I'm not quite sure if I've recovered from that trauma. My summer holidays were too short to say the least. When I eventually adapted to the life back home, time went by oh-so-swiftly, & before I knew it, I was back in Adelaide. I thought I would cry my eyes out like I did the year before, but I was so wrong. Till this day I'm still amazed that I haven't actually cried a tear since I landed. Maybe it was the abrupt termination of my summer holidays. Or it could be the company Y's been giving me since I came back.
To be honest, I wonder if it would be much better if I was left alone for a few days, or weeks, just to get over the fact that I'm back to my independent life here. Many a times I wanted to runaway & do something, anything, all by myself, be it watching a movie, hiking up a hill, sitting by the river feeding swans, or simply reading a book. I might have mentioned this a few times in my previous posts, or not. Whatever. It's like Adelaide is a place accursed with dreadful stresses & weird strangers (ocassionally you'll stumble upon them in the streets). & me, I lose my sense of identity whenever I breathe in Adelaide air. I don't know if I should just be myself.
I'm feeling pissed & emo at the moment so I think I'd write another happier post when I feel like it. To those who still bother to visit, I'm alive & kicking.
XOXO,
Me

4 comments:

Sue-zy said...

Eelin! cheer up alright?
things will be fine eventually i guess...i really hope i could be there in adelaide again, eventhough i always believe that i feel happier in my hometown, but still, days in adelaide really made a rather deep impact for me. i'll never forget my life in adelaide, even it was merely a year.
be strong and take care!
will always be there to listen if you want to...hugs!

blushstar said...

Yay! Ee Lin is back and alive!

Ah...losing your sense of identity? That bad? I'm sure you can find your sense of identity in one Person no matter which part of the world you're in...Jesus Christ!

Ah...wanting to do things yourself? It's nice to spend time alone when some thinking (or getting our feet back on track)is needed. ;)

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Lin said...

Wow! You girls are fast!!!

Sue: It's more than that. I've been here for almost 4 years now & I still think that I was lucky to have survived the past 3 years. I dunno how I did it.

PQ: Yeah, you're right! Praise the Lord! I'm just being emo again. Sometimes I wonder if the friendships made here can last because I dun wanna waste my feelings on something that won't. *sigh* Ranting again.