Feeling low

The moment I opened my eyes this morning, I had this sudden feeling of sadness. As usual, I don't know how to describe what I feel. Because sadness is a little too strong, maybe? I just feel this heavy rock pressing down on me, refusing to let me even catch my breath. I think I know why I'm feeling this way.

Last night was Ur last night being in Penang & I suddenly thought we kind of wasted so much time bickering instead of catching up with 1 another properly. We always never take each other seriously though both of us know that we're friends to each other. But yesterday night was different. As we had that conversation, I realised I have not been how a good friend should have been. This time, U listen as I speak & U don't tease/insult me like U used to. U said U are not sure when U'll be back & I felt for U as U shared Ur thoughts with me. I couldn't do/say anything that would make everything right because I know I'm not in control of the situation. U are a nice person, U really are & I am glad to have known U even though U annoy the hell out of me to no end (sometimes)!

Ironic, isn't it? How I got to know U & now we can talk about anything. *sigh* So U've left this morning. Then next week, it would be R's turn to go. Life is always filled with separations & I don't think I'll ever get used to them. Many a times I thought I'd never cry but I guess I never really knew myself. I've become too sentimental, too emotional. In the year 2008, I've cried many times over dunno-what reasons. But everytime after that, I'd feel a LOT better. I still need to learn to accept the fact that everything in life is not always permanent & that people come & go in our lives.

This year would be different, I'm sure of it! 2 of my friends would be going to Adelaide, which means I won't be lonely anymore! Then in June, another friend, W, would be going over too! Double weeee!! =D I should be looking on the bright side eh?

XOXO,
Me