Tuesday, December 19, 2006

i'm ok

after 24 hours, i feel better...but it doesn't mean i'm 100% ok.

sometimes i juz need to let it all out, and the reason y i do not allow comments is because u do not know EXACTLY what happened...so u're NOT fit to give me any advice whatsoever!! but thanks for it anyway...*sigh* maybe from now on i'll not allow any comments on my page...

my anger is fading away....so pls...do NOT provoke me now k?!

shitty situation

when u're not in the mood, or u're feeling nervous because of something...adults juz don't leave u alone, do they?

they think they're right ALL the time...they expect u to tell them something when they don't even ask u in a polite way or they simply assume that u've done something WRONG!!

we teenagers are humans too u know?? we do not like ppl making baseless assumptions! I am 100% sure that adults do not like it when ppl do that to them too! So y do they do that to us??

I'm not sure if it's a coincidence, this shitty situation somehow kinda relates to the song in my previous post.

Not all teenagers tell their parents stuff, including me. y? they'll make judgements... I do know of a friend who tells her mom stuff, which makes me green with envy. If only my mom was my closest friend. Having a sibling as a close friend is great! but when ur mom insists that u tell her what u guys have been talking about, that's juz plain lame...i mean, we have a right to tell or not u know?! and who's there to say that it's wrong or right? because there's no such thing as wrong or right...it only depends on how u view the situation. Wait, I forgot, adults although may be more mature than us, sometimes do not think rationally. Forgive me, I'm so forgetful *sarcasm*

At times I feel like I'm the luckiest person on earth, but at times, I feel shitty being born into this world! ISH!!! Oh yeah, and u do NOT need to study psychology to speak politely, u know?! It's called Public Relations...duh! To put it in a meaner way, it's called MANNERS! since young adults have been teaching us about MANNERS, but where is it when it comes to them?! I simply think life is sooo unfair!

Fine, juz because u lost to the debate...u don't wanna talk to me. I'm absolutely fine with it...

Saturday, December 16, 2006

The Rest of My Life *updated*

I'm totally in love with this song and video...it's called The Rest of My Life by Lesser Than Jake. The video's very VERY meaninful...<3


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Lyrics upon mystical's request...ish! =P

I fell asleep last Saturday
Underneath polluted skies
I walked alone on those Jersey nights, and I
Saw the boardwalk start to fall
The emptiness starts to drown
The quiet corners of this town, and I...
Late last night, I made my plans
It was the only thing I felt I could do
Said goodbye, to my best friend
Sometimes there's no one left to tell you the truth

It's gonna kill me... The rest of my life
Let me apologize while I'm still alive
I know it's hard to face all of my past mistakes
It's gonna kill me for the rest of my life

This is my all time low
Somehow it feels so familiar
Somehow it seems so familiar
I feel like letting go
And every second that goes by
I'm screaming out for a second try
Said goodbye, to my best friend
Sometimes there's no one left to tell you the truth

It's gonna kill me... The rest of my life
Let me apologize while I'm still alive
I know it's hard to face all of my past mistakes
I've got to live with them the rest of my life
This is the mess I've made
These are the words I can't erase
This is my life support, shutting down, for the final time
And it twists like a blade
And kills me for the rest of my life

If you won't forgive me
The rest of my life
Let me apologize while I'm still alive
I know it's hard to face all of my past mistakes
It's gonna kill me for the rest of my life...

caught in a whirlwind

I juz got home from an outing with 2 friends of mine...we watched a jap horror movie called "The Haunted Apartments", it wasn't terrific or awesome but i find it waaaaay better than the thai horror movie "Colic" iI watched with my friend the other day. at least this movie has a prominent storyline and all....

sometimes I can be in a crowd but I feel like I'm all alone in the world.

y?? maybe it's me or maybe it's not. BUT it's not for U, who are reading this, to judge either...I do not need that right now!

well, yeah...friends do make fun of and laugh at each other sometimes...no hard feelings. Somehow, there are times when u feel extra down/insecure/"mood-less". And when u wanna let ppl know that u don't wanna be made fun of by being being quiet, ppl juz don't get it, do they?! I tried so hard not to make it a big deal because obviously it's not....but ppl still don't get it. *sigh*
In the end, I am the one suffering because i do not wanna spoil the atmosphere by keeping all my emotions inside. =S I guess I'm not very good in EQ this kinda stuff...now juz leave me alone, I feel shitty.