It kills me...

...to see you online but both of us are not talking. =/

Him

Dear blog,

Sorry I haven't dropped by in a while. I guess there are no readers left. I really really really need to vent but I can't seem to find anyone to listen at the moment. My best friend's pursuing her dreams in HK, my other best friends are scattered around Malaysia/overseas.

I met this guy in July and things went up and down, which is doing me no good at all. >< Why oh why did we have to meet? Things would have been so much easier if we hadn't. I understand and accept the fact that we'll never be together but....somehow deep down I know that it's only a matter of time.

Ever since I had feelings for him, everyone could see that we would be a great couple. Everyone could see it but him. I was happy to be his best girl friend. I was. But...somehow things changed the end of September. Who was avoiding who has become a blur to me. And amazingly, every time I saw him, my heart would skip a beat, something that never happened before that.

Just yesterday, he wrote something on his status that made my heart drop but I know that I'm thinking too much. =/ Maybe...just maybe...this could all end tragically. When it does, I don't wanna be here...

Me =(