She's the man

First of all, this blog post has absolutely nothing to do with the movie "She's the Man". I just couldn't think of a decent post title.

Anyway, I've been meaning to blog about my 2nd week of uni but I change my mind since I lost the magic moment to blog adee. LOL & I realised that I haven't blogged about my February. So...yup, this post is about what I did in February, before I came back to Adelaide.

Hopefully, looking through the pics I took in February won't stimulate my tear glands, causing a massive downpour.


1st February
So, the 1st day of February, the whole family went out for dinner @ Manila Place on a Sunday night because brother was gonna leave on Wednesday that week. It was also the 1st time having dinner out as a whole family since my brother came back for 3 weeks. Usually we would have dinner at home. It was really great...finally the 4 of us reunited. No more feeling like an only child XP However, bro was leaving soon & I was gonna leave 11 days after that. Argh...I totally hate having a concoction of emotions. *bleh*


4th February
The day before Sue's departure, us Disted girls (of a different group) decided to have 1 last hangout @ Gurney Plaza. We got to catch up over lunch & express our feelings about leaving Penang. It was all good...At least I know that there are people out there who truly know how I feel. =) They are the people whom I hung out more during the summer holidays & I'm glad I did.


5th February
Hmm...I dunno where to start with this one. LOL I first got to "know" HY during CNY in 2008. Didn't really talk much to her as I felt a lil strange being around C's friends. Funny thing was, I mentioned to C that I was a little intimidated by HY & what do u know?! He asked HY & YY out in December to have dinner together with us & *zap* I dunno what happened along the way. I started going out with them more & when YY went back to study in Perlis, HY & I met up for a movie - Underworld 3. We had a gr8 time watching the movie & having lunch at Kim Gary after that. I guess 1st impressions aren't always accurate. ;) Good thing C asked them out for dinner in December. If not for him, I wouldn't have gotten to know a new friend, would I?

7th February
My baby boy went back to Singapore with his grandparents (my aunt + uncle). ='(

10th February
Since I got to know KT in 1999, we've been kinda close ever since. By close I mean, talking about anything in the world with each other. & of course when I found out that she was coming to study in Adelaide, I could not express how thrilled I was! Having someone you know for aeons here is definitely the best thing in the world! So we hung out alot in Adelaide, mostly during the holidays though. I'm not sure if I've blogged about this before. One time, when we went hiking at the Botanical Gardens, I almost died. I shall save that for another day. XD Anyway, we've been planning to go hiking for ages so I decided to just go ahead with the plan before I came back to Adelaide (she left almost a week after I did). Hehe...That's us...hiking & camwhoring along the way.


14th February
The day that every couple (or rather just the girls with bfs) has been waiting for. Well, since my friends & I are still single, we thought why not celebrate it among ourselves?! Ruth, YF & I headed to the Northam Beach Cafe for our dinner. Hmmm...I think we had ikan panggang, lasagne (with soup & dessert [omg the dessert!!]), muar chee...omg I can't remember! =S All I remember is that the food was yummy & we left with filled stomachs. LOL Happy Belated Valentine's Day girls! =D


15th February
After planning for sooo long, SM, XY & I finally met up! Too bad HN & SH couldn't make it though. =( We first became close in...let's see...2004. We were in the same group doing the SPM Additional Mathematics project. & the rest is history. XD I'm always glad that I get to keep in touch with old friends because nothing compares to them! Well, not that new friends are not good, it's just that old friends have known you longer & have probably been through a lot with u in those years that u've been friends.


18th February
The day before my dreaded day. Despite having to leave the next day, Shaun, Ruth & I met up for lunch at Kim Gary. & after that, we headed to PAH to visit Pras who has been admitted there.

That's pras, with Shaun Jr. Shaun made while waiting to visit her. LOL
19th February
I dun even know what to "say" here. I was dreading this day for almost a week even though I knew I had to face reality. Well...let's just say I managed to put up a brave front & held back the tears that have been desparate to flow. Besides, for the first time in 2 years (1st time not counted as mom went to Adelaide with me), I had a friend to keep me company during the flight. So it wasn't that bad...until I reached Adelaide & stepped into my room of course.

There you go, this is a post on what I did in February.

XOXO,
Me

She's unsure...

...if this has become a really bad habit or is a result of classical conditioning.

Home is supposed to be a source of comfort for her. A place where she doesn't have to worry about anything. A place where she can feel most at peace, knowing that her family & friends would always be there, providing her all the love & care that she needs.

However, why is it that those tears of hers would automatically run down her cheeks when she looks at pictures she took back home? Or when she hears that concerned voice of her mother's? Or when thoughts of her baby boy cross her mind?

Whenever she feels down, that four-lettered word would immediately swift through her mind like lightning. Even Penang look-alikes here make her feel SLIGHTLY more at home. She thinks she's losing it but no...she's not gonna lose it!

XOXO,
Her

A Quickie

Hello guys & girls!

I'm finally back in the blogosphere! You'll never imagine how happy Jenn & I were when we finally got our internet connection yesterday! OMG...never knew we were so dependent on the internet until we were deprived of it. o.O

So what have I learnt for the past week?

I've learnt that:

• It isn't easy staying outside by your own
• The quality of customer service here in Australia is somewhat similar (or SLIGHTLY better) than in Malaysia
• Internet is so important for us to keep in touch with people, especially family & friends
• Patience is very much needed when facing frustrating situations
• Everything happens for a reason

I was just so thrilled, the first thing that came into my mind was to talk to mommy! LOL Funny thing is, I also realised in the past week that I talk to mom alot at home. Back in Penang, I'd walk into the kitchen where mom would be cooking/washing dishes & start yakking away whatever I had to say & then walk out of the kitchen. I almost forgot that dad comes home early from work every Wed. So yayy! I got to talk to dad & mommy at the same time!

So I was complaining to dad about how bad the customer service was regarding our phone line. The conversation below took place:-

Me: OMG, papa...you know, I always thought customer service overseas would be wayyy better than Malaysia...yadda yadda yadda...aiyo! Mana tau, they transfer you to this guy, then that guy, then this...blah blah blah...in the end the problem is still not solved! Then, we had to waste our mobile phone credit calling & calling...yadda yadda yadda...
Dad: *speechless* *laughs* Erm...I don't know what to say.
Me: No need to say anything, just listen can adee.
Dad: *laughs* That was what I've been experiencing all these years lo...People here also transfer you here & there. Takes ages to settle a matter.
Me: Really?! Hmm...I guess so. But at least you have the financial status to pay for bills & stuff. I'm only a poor student, having to pay for credit. Argh!
Dad: Haha...Welcome to the real world!
Me: Oh...I feel so welcomed!

Personally, I think that conversation was really funny. So now I've experienced what staying outside alone is like. =S Believe it or not, I think I've told Sue this before - Evertime I do my laundry/cooking, I'll think of mommy; when I have problems with the lights/heavy things, I'll think of dad. XD

On another note, I can't seem to get into the full swing of starting my assignment yet. Argh! I know that the deadline is drawing nearer & nearer but I just simply do not have the motivation to start. OMG!

p/s: Really missing everyone back home! I'm not saying it for the sake of saying it. I really mean it from the bottom of my heart! =)

XOXO,
Me

1st week of 3rd year uni

Hello people!

Missing me?! I doubt it. No one's showing me love - except for M *points to the right* XD Anyway, it's almost the end of 1st week of uni. Hehe...

In the past week, I -

• moved from the city to the suburbs
• vacuumed a huge cricket (probably killed it in the process - According to Jenn, it's roasted already =S)
• got over feeling depressed about the new place
• dropped Asian Performance to take up Health Psychology
• have accepted the fact that 我不是你的谁
• kept reminding myself of the reason I'm here in Adelaide
• got down to doing some art & craft =P
• tried not to think how torturous it is to have NO internet connection at home
• have been watching videos I took of "my" baby boy when I think/miss him & realised how few videos I have of him!
• got mistaken for a freshman by a freshman LOL
• met up with JM & scared ourselves at the museum + laughing at some porno art at the art gallery
• had my first meal at Knoodle Junction - with JM
• was late for my 1st class of the week

Hmm...I can't seem to recall any other events that happened in the past week. I'm still relying on the internet at my campus. =( So bear with me as I am unable to update as much as I would like to.

p/s: hopefully internet will be connected by this week! *fingers crossed*

XOXO,

Me

So sorry

I've been missing in action cause my new place doesn't have an internet connection yet! This is so frustrating...

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On another note, 我才发现，我是多么地依赖着你的消息。有时候，看着你的朋友写给你的留言，我会从中猜测你的近况因为我不想让你觉得我很烦。最近，好像有传说你已不再是单身的消息，原来我也会觉得一丝丝的不舍。但，我还是为你高兴能够找到你的幸福。只希望，我们还是像以前一样，是很要好的朋友。无聊时，一样可以和彼此说废话。

Oh well, life goes on...& I guess we have our lives to live. It's just that I wish that we never had to go our separate ways. It's time to grow up, I think.

XOXO,
Me

情人节快乐

It's Valentine's Day once again...never celebrated this day for the past 21 years & I doubt I'll celebrate it in the near future.

Here are some cool pictures I found while googling for the word "Valentine". =) Enjoy!











...and my favourite one is a Valentine's poem! Here I dedicate it to all my readers who are still single! *muaks*


Have a Happy Valentine's Day! Who says that you can only spend it with your partner/spouse?

XOXO,
Me

I must've bottled up...

...my sadness for a very long time.

Because...

I cried in my sleep last night.

Well, the dream was something really stupid: About some white T-shirt I had that ended up with a big green stain on it because my mom forgot to separate the laundry according to colours.

Yeah, stupid right?

I cried because of that.

I knew I was crying because I felt my chest slowly tightened & tears were streaming down my cheeks. Even had a blocked nose after that.

*sigh* I've been suppressing my feelings for far too long that they manifest themselves in my dreams.

Another 6 more days to go & I'd be back in Adelaide. ='(

Yours sadly,
Me

Yoohoo!

This is an overdue post! I can finally drive! =D But...the sad thing is that the P sticker on my mom's car has been there for almost 5 years now. =P & it will only be taken down in 2011, when I turn 23! *gasps* o.O

My parents wouldn't let me drive alone...YET. So here's a pic of me with my driving license! ;)

p/s: to those who have already left Pg, know that I'm missing you here. =)

XOXO,
Me

A thousand miles

Well, came across this on Facebook & I thought it was rather interesting, so here it is!

1. Put your iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag 10 or more friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got it from.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Here we go (Trina feat. Kelly Rowland)

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Right where you want me (Jesse McCartney)

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
You are the one (C21)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Shu dao wu da ying wo / Count to 5 & promise me (Gary Cao)

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
All out of love (Westlife feat. Delta Goodrem)

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Break you (Marion Raven)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Firefly (A*Teens)

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
I will be your friend (Coco Lee)

WHAT IS 2+2?
Hollaback girl (Gwen Stefani)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Crash (Gwen Stefani)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
I feel fine (Riddlin' Kids)

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Girl all the bad guys want (Bowling for soup) XD

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Help me (Nick Carter) LOL!!

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Going crazy (Natalie) ROTFL

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
L.O.V.E. (Ashlee Simpson)

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Ordinary day (Vanessa Carlton) What?!

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
That's what girls do (No Secrets)

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
What dreams are made of (Hilary Duff)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Wanna be with you (Paula Deanda) Aww...true =)

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Can't break through (Busted) True too...

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Siberia (Backstreet Boys)

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Yeah! (Usher feat. Lil Jon & Ludacris)

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Every heart (BoA)

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Kiss when the sun don't shine (Vengaboys)

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Bai jin nv hai / Material girl (7F)

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Get you off my mind (Chloe)

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Please tell me why (Freestyle)

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE
Love story (Taylor Swift) Maybe...partly

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Pink dinosaur (Smile)

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
A thousand miles (Vanessa Carlton)

p/s: I know, I was kinda wuliao.

Feeling low

The moment I opened my eyes this morning, I had this sudden feeling of sadness. As usual, I don't know how to describe what I feel. Because sadness is a little too strong, maybe? I just feel this heavy rock pressing down on me, refusing to let me even catch my breath. I think I know why I'm feeling this way.

Last night was Ur last night being in Penang & I suddenly thought we kind of wasted so much time bickering instead of catching up with 1 another properly. We always never take each other seriously though both of us know that we're friends to each other. But yesterday night was different. As we had that conversation, I realised I have not been how a good friend should have been. This time, U listen as I speak & U don't tease/insult me like U used to. U said U are not sure when U'll be back & I felt for U as U shared Ur thoughts with me. I couldn't do/say anything that would make everything right because I know I'm not in control of the situation. U are a nice person, U really are & I am glad to have known U even though U annoy the hell out of me to no end (sometimes)!

Ironic, isn't it? How I got to know U & now we can talk about anything. *sigh* So U've left this morning. Then next week, it would be R's turn to go. Life is always filled with separations & I don't think I'll ever get used to them. Many a times I thought I'd never cry but I guess I never really knew myself. I've become too sentimental, too emotional. In the year 2008, I've cried many times over dunno-what reasons. But everytime after that, I'd feel a LOT better. I still need to learn to accept the fact that everything in life is not always permanent & that people come & go in our lives.

This year would be different, I'm sure of it! 2 of my friends would be going to Adelaide, which means I won't be lonely anymore! Then in June, another friend, W, would be going over too! Double weeee!! =D I should be looking on the bright side eh?

XOXO,
Me

3rd day of CNY

WARNING: The following post is about girl stuff, not suitable for guys. If you still wanna proceed, go ahead...don't say I didn't warn you.

Everything was good when I woke up...breakfast-internet-youtube-walk around the house, as usual, until...I sat down again to chat with GF. While chatting, I felt this really weird sensation around my lower abdomen. Then the sensation turned into that familiar feeling of pain. =S But I just ignored it, thinking that it must have been caused by my abnormal eating habits during CNY. Hah...of all days, my "best friend" decided to pay me a visit! *sigh* I always let my "best friend" get to me. When "she" arrives, I'll feel gloomy & lazy to do whatever that makes me happy during "her" absence.

My family & my aunt's family planned to go to Kulim to visit my cousin so I had no choice but to take a pill after my lunch just in case my "best friend" decides to give me a hard time during the journey. Usually I'd opt not to take any medication because I believe in natural healing. LOL I'd just lie down & have a nap & the pain would just go away. The whole journey to Kulim was a torturous one. Could not sleep in the car + the seatbelts around my waist made the abdominal pain even worse. I just couldn't wait to reach my cousin's place so that I could take a nap on a comfortable bed.

When I finally reached my cousin's place, I heaved a sigh of relief! Bed...here I come! Good thing I managed to fall asleep for an hour or so & tadah! The pain was nowhere to be 'felt'! I was up & about again, playing with my cousin's kids! =)

*fast forward to evening*

Then came the part where I was in a dilemma again. L invited me to his house gathering at 10pm & we reached Penang at 9:45pm. At first I thought I'd have the guts to drive to his house alone but looking at the massive jam outside my house, I changed my mind. So L said he'd ask F to pick me up but F was nowhere near my house & was also caught in a massive jam. I guess everything was planned after all. As I'm typing this, I think my abdominal pain is coming back. =S Being a girl is so hard sometimes...I wonder how it'd feel like when I'm giving birth. *shudders* Well, thankfully I did not go to L's house, or else I'd be in pain whilst feeling bad if I ask someone to drive me home in the midst of their talking/joking/playing. But on the other hand, I feel a lil down that I was not able to join in the fun since L won't be back the following year & I don't know when I'll see him again.

Better stop typing & go to bed & get some rest. Losing quite a substantial volume of blood here. XP

XOXO,
Me

Happy Chinese New Year...

...to all my readers! *aisyeh* As if I have many readers liddat. =P


Anyway, may the ox year be a gr8 year for all of u & that lots of love & joy will be in store for you! =)

p/s: Though CNY is a jolly festive season, I can't help but to dread the day I have to leave Penang T.T

XOXO,
Me

Ermm...growing up?

I just got back from an eventful night...well, maybe for just that half an hour (or less/more, I can't even remember correctly!). This was what happened...

A friend of mine, C, just got back from KL Thursday night, so he had asked me out before he even got back. So I went out for supper with C & a bunch of "our" friends at this hawker centre located dunno-where. It was fun sitting in the midst of a bunch of people who are completely different from the bunch of people I hang out with. So far, I'm still successful in sticking to my new year resolution so it's all good.

*fast forward*

After dropping L home, C, H & I were the only ones left in the car. I sat at the back, as usual. Because C's car doesn't have seatbelts at the back, I was kind of afraid that the police (P) would stop us due to the recent law on fining if seatbelts are not fastened. Hah! & what do u know?! Indeed we were stopped by a police. Insides of me churned like nobody's business, cold sweat broke out from my forehead, palms & even the soles of my feet. I mean, I have never been in a car that has been stopped by a P ever in my almost-21 years of existence!=S As there were people standing nearby & watching, the P asked us to jalan without having us to pay a single cent! We couldn't believe our "luck", but I could hear the word jalan LOUD & CLEAR! So I asked C to drive away quickly before the P decided to change his mind! Only then did I wake up from my nightmare. It was over. Though my heart was still pounding hard in my chest & my body was shaking, I heaved a sigh of relief. I really admire how H & C could laugh it off after that - genuinely or to make me feel better, I'm not sure. They had to assure me that it was OK & that it's a part of growing up. Oh well, after this experience, I have a strong feeling that my 2009 would be an extremely eventful one. ;)

Everything happens for a reason right? I just have to trust God in this new year. I have a feeling He'll bring me new experiences where I could learn something though I might not know what yet. I'll just have to live & see. =) I really really thank God that nothing bizarre happened & that C did not have to be blacklisted or anything. Not forgetting that He has blessed me with friends who know how to handle situations which I do not know how to & assuring me that everything's OK when I feel worried. Thank God in every circumstance right?! Amen! =)

p/s: Will update about eventful January, soon...I hope. =P

XOXO,
Me

My summer hols December 2008

5th December 2008

Friends I got to know during Disted-Stamford days fetched me from the airport to surprise my parents whom didn't have a clue (or so I thought) that I was reaching that night. I would say that the surprise was kinda successful. =P

8th December 2008
Had sardine + cucumber for breakfast since ages! Home sweet home!! <3


Had a trim & decided that I should try giving myself bangs so that I look younger than my age. =D

9th December 2008
Finally! After 9 months of cooking on my own, I got to taste my mom's yummy bak moy!


11th December 2008
Mom made Jawa mee, which was comparable to the ones sold at hawker centres but healthier!


15th December 2008
Had dim sum for breakfast @ Bali Hai with Prasana & Ruth. OH boy, you wouldn't know how much we laughed that day. All because of those funny-looking geoduck, fishes with kissable-looking "lips", escaping spider lobsters etc.


Had pizza for dinner with mommy & papa @ Pizza Hut.


17th December 2008
Disted girls' lunch out @ Manhattan Fish Market


18th December 2008
Had dinner @ Sakae Sushi with C & his gang or as he calls it - OUR gang. LOL


19th December 2008
Celebrated Wai Che's birthday at Sakae Sushi the next day & I met PQ "unofficially" there! XP We were planning to meet up & I've met her here! =) The whole table was surrounded by progesterone-rich beings. XP Later that night, we had KFC for dinner at Wai Che's place, courtesy of her parents. It was really fun, getting to know some Union girls & really enjoyed the bonding session except the fact that I got an irritating eye later that night. =(


21st December 2008
Had a really great meet-up with Pei Qi, my pre-school friend. She blogged about our outing here. Pai seh, I'm trying to summarise my whole December into 1 blog post. =P


On the same day, at night, I had dinner with my aunt's family + "my baby boy" @ a hawker food centre opposite Super Tanjung. Got to eat curry mee! =D


After that, met up with some of the OCFers who are from Penang & also Chloe who was going to go back to KL the next day.


24th December 2008
Christmas Eve! Remember my dilemma? I decided to spend Christmas Eve at my friend, PQ's church! =) Half of me wondered how it would have been if I went out with the other group of friends, but I guess every decision made is of a reason. I got to spend time with PQ & got to know BX more. I am happy to say that I did not regret my decision. ;)


25th December 2008
Had Christmas lunch at Prasana's place! Her mom & herself prepared various types of yummy food! Had fun catching up with Disted friends too...Everyone commented on how I still laugh like a horse & that I should go to a turf club for a date in the future so that my guy wouldn't suspect anything if he hears me laugh. He'll think it's just one of the horses.


29th December 2008
Met up with Yon Lynn, my high school friend! Haven't seen her since beginning of 2007, before I left for Adelaide. She's still as crazy as ever & never fails to crack me up! XD



30th December 2008
Had breakfast @ Mr. Pot with Alicia, whom I've known since primary school. We had a good time catching up with each other's lives overseas. Glad we're still keeping in touch after all these years!



31st December 2008
The fantastic 4 reunites with a new member (JM's sis)! The 4 of us bought the global warming shirt beginning of last year.


Later that night, I decided that maybe I should give OUR group of friends a chance. LOL That day, I finally learnt a way to face annoying people! XP & thus, my new year resolution would be to keep that up. Hehe~


So, that's all for December, will update about January soon, I hope. =P No promises. Anyway, I know this is a little too late, but Happy New Year! May you guys have a blessed year ahead! ;)

p/s: Taking my driving test this Monday, pray for me! =S

XOXO,
Me

And again...

I'm in a dilemma! It's new year's eve...& once again a bunch of people asked me out =S I'm not sure if I should go.

Decisions...decisions. If only I could just toss a coin. Everytime that same bunch of people ask me out, I rejected them many many times. & now I'm thrown into this whirlwind of dilemma again. I should learn to be more decisive when it comes to things like this.

Should I go or not? What will my verdict be? Would I make the wrong decision? Would I enjoy myself?

Will update soon.

XOXO,
Me

"Spring" Cleaning

It's that time of the year again when I sneeze non-stop because of the thick layer of dust that covers my entire room!

Last year, my attempt to clear out the mess in my room failed because I was being too sentimental. I ended up keeping most of the stuff. Today, I finally got my butt off the computer chair & tidied my room. Not that my room needed tidying, since my mom tidied it for me before I came home but alot of stuff needed to be disposed of.

Looking through stacks of college lecture notes & exercises, memories flooded my mind again. Those were the days...During that year, I've loved & lost. That year, I realised that I didn't have to be insecure about myself. That year, I learnt that competing against oneself is the most important thing, not with others. That year, I also learnt that some people can be selfish, even though they're your friends. That year, I realised that after that year, we'd all be going our separate ways, pursuing our dreams...which made me feel a little depressed because that year would end in a blink of an eye! That year also opened my eyes to girls who lead lives like Barbie dolls - thick make up, branded handbags, latest gadgets, perfect hair, high heels that match their clothes & "perfect" boyfriends. It was then that I realised I didn't wanna be one of them. Of course, not forgetting that that year was the year I made many great friends! Friends that would last a lifetime...well, mayb not some...but yeah.

I've been struggling with throwing away sentimental "junk" but...BUT guess what?! I finally set my mind to it! Before throwing something away, I'd ask myself, "Would I still be using it in 6 months' time? Would it still be useful a year from now?" & if the answers to those 2 questions are "No", then they ought to be disposed of. I'll post up a picture of the box of junk I've thrown away =P Am very proud of myself though I feel a little "bu she de". =S No use holding on to possessions right?

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Can't believe today's already Christmas eve. The eve of Christ's birthday. Time really passes by too quickly. The photos I've been organising since I came home are left unorganised because of some missing photos. *sigh* Though a bunch of ppl have asked me out on Christmas eve, I'm still in a dilemma on whether I should go. Really torn apart. I mean, I don't mind spending time with them but I can't help but feel a little suspicious about their intentions. Then again, I don't have any plans tonight. A friend asked me to attend her church if I have nothing to do. Aiyo...I hate making such decisions! Can I just stay at home, spend time alone with myself & Him, with no one pestering me?! I just want a quiet & peaceful Christmas eve. But then again, I don't want them to think that Christians are always so high-above & arrogant, not wanting to go out with them or something. I'll see how it goes later...

I dunno how I should feel right now. Having driving lesson at 4pm! I'm nervous because I almost forgotten everything learnt! This is bad, really bad!! Help! I forgot the 3 test routes already! I'm so dead, my driving instructor would be nagging again. =(

p/s: the upper part of this post was typed on 22nd of December.

XOXO,
Me

My christmas wish...

...is to pass my driving test!!

Had my 2nd driving lesson today...I did OK I think...still I can't help but feel a lil afraid on the road with all those freaking motorcyclists & buses.

This is what my driving instructor said, "It's not that you don't know how to drive, you're too nervous."

Well, he's so right! Because I freaking had a traumatic experience with the previous driving instructor!! *sigh* I need a psychologist now...to help me overcome my fear of driving. I just hope I remember the 2 test routes he showed me today!

Will update with pictures soon! After I've done something fun! XD

XOXO,
Me

Woohoo!!

Yippy! I'm a happy happy girl!

As many of my friends already know, my previous driving experience was a really BAD one. I'm not even exaggerating. It was so bad that I'd have nightmares & palpitations the night before my driving lessons. Thanks to my previous driving instructor, I almost sworn off driving. He scolded, nagged, pinched, poked & screamed. I could never have a second of peace with him around. Basically I just did whatever he said without even knowing the basics of driving. After the 3rd/4th lesson (Can't remember, it was 9 months ago) I couldn't take it anymore. I thought I was gonna have a mental breakdown. & with those nightmares, I didn't think they were good for my well-being, so I told my mom that I wanna have my driving instructor changed.

Well, we managed to change but I didn't manage to finish my lessons in time to take the test. Went back to Adelaide with my lessons hanging halfway. When I came back, I totally dreaded driving lessons. I didn't know what to expect.

But....

thank God I survived my 1st driving lesson in 9 months! I still remember how to drive on the road but not going uphill & the parking one. All is good! I'm happy...I guess I'm not so afraid of driving anymore! My new driving instructor is more patient & he lets me ask questions. =)

XOXO,
Me

Fringe

I finally got myself a trim! =D
I haven't had fringe since high school so I thought I wanted to look a bit different.
Tell me what you think. =)

Before

After

After 2

So?! Do I look like a school girl?! >.<

XOXO,
Me

On Cloud 99

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!! I'm finally FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! No more staying at home studying whilst refraining myself to go out! XP A picture says a thousand words right? I'll just let the pics do the talking.

#1 Taken at Glenelg beach in 2007 in Spring.
Was supposed to stay home & finish up my assignment...the rest is history =P

#2 Back in Penang during summer.
Was trying to take modelly jumping shots but ended up being so unglam >.<

#3 Doing a random jump on the way back from Barossa Valley

These pictures portray what I'm feeling now =D The yayyy-ness of being free from exams!

XOXO,
Me

I feel hollow...

...at this particular moment.

Not too sure if it's because I'm still not over about my paper OR I refuse to face the reality - when I wake up tomorrow, I have 1 day short to prepare for my final exam paper.

Every day from the moment I open my eyes, I can't wait for it to be night again so that I can drift off into my dreams, far far away from reality. It always seems like the day arrives sooner than the night. I never wanna wake up to face this harsh reality.

Just 4 hours ago, my friend & I encountered something freaky, which I'll save for another day because I can't wait to go to bed~

Me =(

I'm devastated, don't ask.

Just came back from sitting for a paper. & guess what?! Instead of feeling relieved that I've finally finished 3 papers, I feel totally, utterly & extremely shitty! I dunno about you, but I somehow feel a tad inferior being around ang mohs in the exam hall. I know their first language is English & I bet that they'd think we, international students, are not as smart because we have to bring in dictionaries (not that we HAVE to, but just IN CASE they use bombastic words that are totally out of our league). It was distracting when the time for the ang mohs was up & they all left the exam hall. It made me feel nervous because now there were only a few international students left (we get extra 10 mins for every hour, in this case 20, since the exam duration was 2 hours).

*SIGH* Talking about time, I still cannot believe that we were given 2 hours for such a long paper!! =S The thing that makes me feel bo kam muan is that, I did extremely well for ALL the assignments for this subject & if this exam paper pulls down the average grade, I'd be damned! I KNOW I'll pass this paper, just not with flying colours, that's all. =( & I know how people always say "when you're in uni, as long as you pass, it's alright, you don't need distinctions to get a degree" but...this is something rather personal, like I fail to even reach my full potential, y'know? Somehow being brought up in a competitive Chinese school has instilled this kiasu-ness in me though I don't show it. My parents never pressured me into achieving excellent grades & I thank them for that because it makes me a person who knows how to think for their own good. & I don't wanna disappoint them, knowing I could've done waaaayyy better.

I'm going on & on & I know you're bored reading this. I just needed to rant. For the final paper, I'm gonna shine (hopefully)! *fingers crossed*

Me

It's official

Before any of you guys think I'm attached or my exams are over or *insert what you think it is*, sorry to burst your bubble. =P

I've been feeling rather frustrated lately. I don't know why it took me more than a year to feel frustrated since I've been in Adelaide since February last year.

So, what is it about "official" & "Adelaide"? LOL I just simply don't get the Aussies! Like, seriously =.= I don't get their humour, their culture of drinking & clubbing, the way they say "no worries" in response to "thank you", the way they say "ta" as a replacement of "thanks",
arvo" for "afternoon", & calling people "mate". I dunno about you but according to my dictionary (in both sense), "mate" is something more personal. According to Microsoft Encarta Dictionary 2007 - U.K. used to address somebody: used as a friendly, or sometimes hostile, form of address to a man (informal) (usually used in combination). There were more than 1 definitions. Another definition is "friend". Well, I'm not a man AND I'm definitely not YOUR (any random Aussie person) friend! It gets to me all the time! =S Even though I speak proper English, without the lahs, mas, lohs etc., they still don't get me. Sooooo, I have to "speak like an Aussie", which they don't understand me either! It's freaking frustrating, it's like being mocked at, y'know? It's like they're secretly laughing at me in their heads, "Haha...Actually I understand you perfectly. I'm just poking fun at ya." OR "WTH, your Eng sucks to the extent I do not understand you!" There are a few instances where Aussie people don't get what I mean. I'll just give you 2 examples.

Incident #1
Venue: A reject-shop kinda store
Was looking for a waste paper basket but I couldn't seem to find it after having walked up & down the aisle a million times, so I resorted to asking one of the cashiers on duty.

Me: Hi, I would like to know where I could find a waste paper basket.
C: A...what?
Me: A waste paper basket?
C: Errr...sorry, what?
Me: (Attempted to pronounce it in an Aussie 'style', with "a" being pronounced as "ai") A wAIst paper basket.
C: A rice paper basket?! (I was like =.= WTH, rice paper basket sounds close enough to a waste paper basket & she still couldn't get it!! Was losing my patience)
Me: (Was getting annoyed at this point) A waste paper basket? You know, something you used to throw unwanted papers into?
C: Oh! A waste paper basket! Right, it's just there..walk to the end & they're just on your right.
Me: Thanks.
C: No worries! (see what I mean?!)

Incident #2
Venue: Home
I couldn't find a particular piece of information on the subject that I had to sit an exam for the next day. So I msg-ed one of my coursemates, an Aussie obviously, to ask her if she knew where to find it. Till the next day, even after I've sat for that subject, I didn't get any reply from her. & she replied me this: hp all ok ee lin! sorry didnt reply at time. was lk for that answer too! How did you find the nxwm (short for Nutrition, Exercise & Weight Management) exam? L___ (her name) I wasn't in the mood to reply her because obviously I didn't see the point in replying. I mean, what should I say? Tell her what I thought about the exam? Then what? =S Back home, we (my friends & I) don't normally sms about stuff like that. We would just talk face to face if we wanted to know stuff like that, not sms! It'd be so awkward to just stop msg-ing with nothing else to say. Besides, I didn't wanna waste my hp credit! =S Anyway, I thought maybe I should reply just to be polite. & so I told her what I thought about the exam & she replied me saying that she agreed. Then WHAT?! Ish...I hate it when they (Aussies) make small talks that go nowhere. So no, I didn't reply after that.
Disclaimer: I'm not being racist. I'm just simply saying that I don't get the people here! & I don't think I'll ever fit in. You see, I don't even get their humour. Last year when I took this course which requires us to watch some clips of Aussie TV shows, everyone laughed except me. I sat there with this face --> =.=|||

XOXO,
Me

='(

Yup, that's how I feel right now. =( Y is it that the more you hope, the more disappointment you feel?? Maybe my resolution for next year should be - Never hope, so that there won't be any disappointments. *sigh*

Sadly,
Me

=(

For 20 years of my very existence, I've never had to worry stuff about being beautiful & such. For example, I don't even care if I have hairy legs (although having hairy armpits is quite unforgivable) or that I don't wear feminine enough. I had no problems with anything to do with my appearance. You must be thinking this is another post about my protest regarding my principles on beauty again, right?

You're WRONG!

LOL

This is the most random & most wu liao post ever! Since I came to Adelaide, I realised since last year that I've been having dandruff now & then. =( When I went home last summer, everything was normal again. This year, it started developing again...since mid-winter? I can't remember when...*sigh* I could still remember how I thought people with dandruff must be dirty & that they don't wash their hair enough. But since I shampoo my hair every 2 days, it's impossible that my hair's dirty right??? So I decided to do some research on dandruff. =D

& *gasps* I learnt that dandruff can be caused by emotional/physical stress & the season - usually worse in winter. These are 2 of the factors. I wonder if it's both in my case. So, for the first time in my life, I had to go shop for anti-dandruff shampoo. =( Fortunately for me, mine is not as serious as described in many websites - "White scales and flakes on the scalp which fall onto the shoulders" or "may be associated with irritation or itching".

Before I end this post, here's a really funny pic that describes what dandruff is really all about. XP

*update: ish! i tried to link the pic here & it failed because the pic was copyrighted - wtf =.=

XOXO,
Me

What I do when I'm stressed 2

At times like this, I always need a good laugh. Was thinking of blogging to relieve stress & I found this cartoon. ROTFL Now, don't you feel it reflects most of us during exams? =P

I have nothing to update, really. Oh, except for the fact that I haven't stepped out of the house for 2 days in a row =.= I think I'mma go out later to get some fresh air!

Another 2 more weeks...yes, it ain't that faraway! >.<

XOXO,
Me

What I eat when I'm doing revision

Studying lecture slides
(It enhances my memory on things that I've studied! It works!)

A slice of choc chip & apricot cake

Let me elaborate more on the cake. LOL I feel so loved these few days =P Yesterday I stayed back at uni to study with J until 9:30pm & at about 7:30pm, my coursemate/classmate sms-ed me to ask if I was still at uni cause she bought me "yum yum" cake (according to her) to keep me awake while studying! How thoughtful is that?! =)) & indeed they were yummy! I didn't finish them yesterday, so I ate the remaining piece today as a dessert for lunch. I think I'm starting to get influenced by Lunch is Served. She blogs about what she has for lunch & the stories that go with it. Got me hooked. XP

A tuna sandwich with cheese & a tall Long Black from Hudson's

XOXO,
Me

*sniff*

OMG! I just can't believe it!!

A moment ago, I was studying...feeling lazy, eyelids about to close when suddenly my mobile phone rang with Britney Spear's song Autumn Goodbye..."I NEVER PROMISED YOU A HAPPY ENDING, U NEVER SAID U WOULDN'T MAKE ME CRY..." You get the drift. It was pretty loud and I totally got a fright! XP

The voice of the caller (C) didn't sound at all familiar.
This was how the "conversation" went:

C: Hello! *very cheery tone*
Me: Hello! *very cheery tone*
C: You're at home right?
Me: Yeah...? Who's this?
C: Oh, I'm SL, using E's phone to call. I'm reaching your place in 15 mins, I'll call you when I'm there & you just come down & get something ok?
Me: *confused* Errr...OK

I was left clueless. I didn't know what was happening. LOL After giving J a birthday surprise I thought someone was doing the same, except that my birthday was eons ago! XP But what could it be?! A VERY belated present?! =S Hmmm....

So, I continued studying, keeping in mind that my phone would ring any moment so that I would not jump outta my seat due to Britney's singing. And so, SL said she was here & I immediately went down.

It turned out that SL & E made me herbal soup! OMG! Can you believe it?! Herbal soup! The one thing I miss most about home! My mom used to make herbal soups for us all the time, especially exam periods. Ohhh...

Now everything fits into place. I recalled myself talking to SL after church last week. She asked me how I was doing & cause last week I was totally stressed out due to assignments, I casually said that I'm stressed out but trying not to. She asked me if I missed home & I replied without 2nd thought "YES! Especially now that no one makes me herbal soups during times of stress!" I know I have a weak body. That's why I always try not to put myself in a situation where I'll fall sick easily. For example, I try not to even expose my neck when it's windy because I catch a cold easily (that is why I can never fathom how the ang mohs can wear low-cut dresses during winter); I try not to risk not bringing a sweater out when I know that it might be cold because I don't wanna bear the consequences of catching a cold later; not forgetting, I don't like wearing skirts during winter even though I've got tights because tights ain't that thick & again, I might catch a cold if a bigger surface area of my body is exposed to the wind.

Anyway, back to the story. I never, in my wildest dream, thought that someone would actually take my word seriously. OMG. I feel so touched!! It is a kind of surprise...& it changes my perception towards ppl too. I thought it'd b so hard to actually find someone who cares. =) I'll leave that for another day.

Here's a picture of the soup! And mind you, there's ginseng inside too!! =) I'm a happy girl...

Soup in jar

Close up

XOXO,
Me

My assignments...

...are so yesterday!! XP I don't care that exams are just around the corner, I'd prefer studying to doing assignments ANYTIME!!

So here's a song I dedicate to myself...LOL






XOXO,
Me