Give thanks...

...in any circumstance.

I'm not sure why but Fridays are usually the worst day of my week. On Fridays, I'm messed up, unprepared for the day and everything goes wrong.

It was the same yesterday. I was supposed to sit for Human Physiology quiz yesterday. The night before, I finished off my Psychology essay and started working real hard on studying for my quiz. Woke up early to study as well. I crammed as much information as possible, hoping that I'd not do too bad in the quiz as this is the final quiz of the semester and it's worth 10%!

At around 12pm, my friends came and asked if I wanted to have lunch with them at Chinatown so I said ok since I need to have lunch before my tutorial anyway. Got changed without showering, packed my stuff and out we went to the city!

There was an accident along North Terrace so the bus arrived our stop later than usual. We walked as fast as possible to Chinatown so that we'd get our food soon and I can finish my food early and rush to uni. I gobbled up my food up in 15-20 mins and started walking towards uni. While walking I felt like vomiting the beef noodles I just ate. Anyway, usually my tutor gives some revision on the topic that we're supposed to have our quiz on and then give us the quiz during the last half an hour before tutorial ends. I was so sure!!

The worst thing happened when I reached my tutorial, panting and sweating, being late for 10 minutes. Everyone stared at me in silence and the tutor gave me a weird look. My heart was having a battle inside whether I should say something or go get a seat. So I said, "I'm really sorry I'm late..." whilst walking to a seat. No one moved...everyone was dead still and I thought that I was in deep shit!! That moment, the tutor opened his mouth, saying, "You're short of these" and showing me the quiz papers in his hand. So, I forced my voice out and asked, "Can I have one please?" The tension in class was so intense I felt myself hot all over and wanting to kill myself that very moment. He said, "No" When that word came out from his mouth, my heart was pounding like crazy in my chest, I thought I was gonna suffocate. I thought I heard him wrongly until he repeated the same thing. He said I couldn't take the quiz because everyone else has done and marked it!! The worst thing was when he said, "I'm not sure how long you've been outside studying." What the...?!@#$% He thought I was outside studying?! That very second, I felt my world turning....This can't happen to me!! I rushed all my way from Chinatown right after having my beef noodles, risking having a super bad digestion because I ran and I went there for nothing!!!! I was so embarrassed after how he treated me. Considering the fact that I'm the only Chinese there and I have to experience this kinda shitty thing didn't help at all! No one said anything and they all went, "awwww" I didn't even bother to differentiate whether that "awwww" was a sympathetic one or a sarcastic one. I mumbled, "Oh, ok" and went to take a seat. Thinking that they were still discussing the answers to the quiz, I politely asked the girl next to me if I could have a look at hers. Little did I know, the second I sat down, the tutor went, "OK! You guys can go now!"

ARRGGGHHHH!! It was so frustrating...I went there for 5 minutes and I'm gone!! Sms-ed a few of my Penang friends to tell them what happened (like what I always used to do back home) and called my friends who were still at Charlie's Shack (the beef noodle shop) to meet them up. Briefly told them that I missed my quiz. I was angry at myself for being late...but I was angry at my tutor as well for embarrassing me in front of the whole class!! Where would I put my face after this?! Met up with E and L. Waited at the bus stop in front of Royal Adelaide Hospital (RAH) and when E asked me what exactly happened, I burst out crying halfway. I never felt so devastated in my life. I cried so loudly everyone could hear me...but I just didn't care! I was so angry and anger turned to tears...It was all so comical though, L scolded E for making my cry and E defended herself by saying it wasn't her fault. Imagine this: I was there crying in E's embrace and there they were scolding each other. It was all so funny. This "conversation" took place as well: -

L: Shhh...don't cry already...*looking embarrassed* Everyone's looking...
E: I don't care!! Let her cry...it's better that way...
L: Not you la!! Her!!
E: You think she cares meh?! She cry until like that means she doesn't care la!!

Part of me wanted to laugh but my tears kept pouring out of my eyes like a loose tap. Got on the bus with watery and swollen eyes. Bus was full so we had to stand. Well, P2 was a little shocked to see my cry so he didn't know what to do. LOL E and L2, on the other hand, kept finding ways to cheer me up, with hugs, with words of comfort, you name it, they've done it. The more they comforted me, the more I cried...=') I know it's not the end of the world with that 10% but the thing that made me saddest was how my tutor treated me. How could he say that?! If he just told me that I couldn't take the quiz because I was late then it's fine. I could just take it and suck it in. Instead he said he wasn't sure how long I've been outside studying?! First time in my life, I cried like there's nobody watching. I still remember last semester when I cried and I was waiting at the bus stop with swollen and watery eyes, P came walking towards me. He really made my day. Just seeing him makes me smile again...but not anymore. Seeing him just makes my heart ache. How can 2 people who used to be so close be so distant now? I feel like we're strangers...

So, upon reaching home, I wrapped myself in my blanket, hoping to fall asleep and forget everything that has happened. I did fall asleep...when M2 came knocking on my door after coming back from her class with P. *sigh* Told her my "ordeal" and she was quite sympathetic.
As I was telling her, the memory of everything was fading already. Got up and prepared to catch the bus to the city as I had OCF and L said he wanted to buy me ice cream to cheer me up...=D Felt so bad for making a big deal out of it. Now as I think back, it wasn't anything big, really. After having my dinner and ice cream, everything was fine again. Thanks L!!

While worshiping Him, a sense of peace came over me and I remember that bible verse that says "Give thanks in any circumstance". What L said was true I guess, He wouldn't let this happen unless He wants. Maybe it could be a blessing in disguise. I'll never know...

OH!! The funniest thing happened to me after OCF. Everyone was gone already. G and I stayed back to wait for P to drive us home while E and L went to pass something to P3 at her house. Before E and L left for P3's house, she asked me to finish off the potato chips and to throw it in the dustbin inside the guys' toilet (the nearest) if I don't want it anymore. So, after eating a few chips, I decided to throw it away. G followed me from behind while I opened the door of the guys' toilet. First door...no dustbin....2nd door....OMG! There was a guy standing there dunno-doing-what! Both of us ran out like lightning when that guy turned around and said "What are you doing?!"!! We started laughing hysterically...Fortunately, I did not see anything that I shouldn't have seen!

I knew that guy so it wasn't that bad. He came laughing and asked if it was me. LOL I said oops...yeah...and I just wanted to get to the dustbin, assuring him that I did not see a single thing! He said, "It's ok, I'm sure you didn't see anything" >.<

My "day" (or night) got better, I was laughing and talking like normal. Had G come over my room to talk...and wow! We talked till 3:38am so I went to sleep right after she left and woke up at 12:30pm today, right on time for lunch!! XP

p/s: About P...It's time to do what's best for me, I gotta go my own way. =) 等待竟累积成伤害，爱深埋珊瑚海。 Shall just go with the flow~

XOXO,
Me

Eventful week

Phew~ Time really does fly. A week has come and gone after my semester break!

So, what happened during the past week?

Well, let's start from Monday. Monday evening after dinner, I decided to prepare myself for uni so I flipped through my course information and to my horror, I found out that the assignment for Religions of the Ancient World is due on the 6th of October, which is 5 days from then!! I searched frantically for the books I needed on the online library catalogue and all the books I needed were on loan or on loan and requested! o.O What could I do right? All I could do was to request for all the books needed so that when the borrower returns them, I'll get them. Anyway, as easily stressed as I was, I consulted a friend who took this subject last year about what I should do. She said I could just tell the course coordinator the truth that all the books are on loan and I'm still waiting in line so that he could give me an extension. So I did what she said.

Went for Psychology lecture on Tuesday morning, I guess I slept late the night before (1am), or it could be the boring lecture, I was nodding off in class!! Tried so hard to keep my eyes opened but to no avail. -.- Managed to write some stuff down though. Considering the fact that I was so sleepy, I rushed back home to sleep for an hour and got up for lunch in time. After lunch, I prepared for my group presentation for Rhetoric and Reasons: Persuading People. As 'everyone' knows that I'm quite thrifty and that I'm saving money this semester cause I'm realised that I've been spending too much on unnecessary stuff, I walked to uni at 3:30pm. It was only when I reached uni, panic started to overwhelm me...I HATE presentations!!!! I always speak ok when I'm practising but when it comes to the real thing, my voice will shake and I'll start to stare at the ceiling and shift weights on each leg. Oh well...it's over.

On Wednesday, after my Psychology lecture (I didn't sleep in class!! In fact I found it very interesting XD) I took the bus to the city as I have books to collect at the UniSA City East campus and the State Library and at the same time return the novels I borrowed during semester break. While waiting for the bus, I embarrassed myself -.- I was listening to music on my mobile using earphones. Usually I'll sing along to the songs I listen to but that day I just mouthed the words as I didn't want to sing out loud. That was when I embarrassed myself when the bridge of Because You Live (by Jesse McCartney) came on. Normally, bridges have a higher pitch and the background music would be more energetic so I got so high, I started singing but because I got earphones on, I couldn't hear myself. I THINK I made a high-pitched squeak cause 2 persons standing in front of me turned around and gave me a really weird look. 1 of them even had his earphones on as well. =S ARRGGGHHHHH!! All I did was pretend that I didn't know and was mouthing the lyrics away. Oh, I got my course coordinator's e-mail that day saying "Extension is fine" one sentence!

Thursday came, started to get really stressed because of the assignment and the course coordinator's reply did not help much. Extension is fine!? When's the due date?! I started that assignment that night, hoping to finish it as soon as possible even though I had an extension as I'll be having a Psychology essay due next Friday. Did not want both assignments clashing together. On the bus on the way to Mawson Lakes campus, I decided to listen to some songs to keep me awake so I plugged in the earphones. I was curious on why the music sounded so soft so I turned on the volume to max and still it was soft so I thought it was because of my bus. The man who was talking on the phone suddenly turned around and gave me this weird (or annoyed?) look. I thought he could hear my music from my earphones so I ignored him when my friend, A2 tapped my shoulder from behind and asked, "Why you turn on your..." I didn't even wait for him to finish, I plugged in the earphones properly and the music came booming in my ears! =.= The music was playing through the speakers!! No wonder that man looked at me!! Oh my goodness...What's with me and earphones!? Anyway, earlier in the day M said she was going to the post office so I asked her to help me get a postage paid envelope to post the invoice and receipt I got from seeing the GP (to claim $$$). While doing my assignment, I looked through the assignment feedback form and saw that I needed to insert this footer on every page. I wanted the footer thingy to be fixed but I didn't know how to do it so I asked around but nobody seemed to get what I meant!! Finally I gave up and went back to my room to resume my assignment. *KNOCK KNOCK* It was M!! She made my day man!! Right after I asked her about the footer thingy, she got it immediately!! Woohoo~ Then I realised I forgot to get the envelope from her. I was damn happy after getting the envelope for her, thinking to myself that I finally get to claim back the AUD46.10 I paid!! And whad'ya know?! I came back searching for the invoice and receipt but I couldn't find it anywhere in my room!! I was sooo sure it was lying on my table next to the telephone!! Oh NO!! I must've left it between the pages of the novel I returned to the State Library!! *smacks forehead* How could I be so careless?!?! This made me even more stressed!! Searched the State Library telephone number on the internet. Gotta call them first thing in the morning!!

Didn't have a good sleep on Thursday night...had a really weird dream! I had a dream that M2 was in high school with me and we took wedding pictures with the guys in our class. In the dream, I was comparing wedding pictures with M2 and she was actually very pretty in her wedding picture!! Called the State Library on Friday morning and the lady who answered my call said that they must've chucked it into the bin or something. I was devastated...$$$!! Skipped Human Physiology lecture as everything taught is in the book anyway. Called my parents to tell them about the invoice and receipt, at the same time asking them how they're doing. Hearing their voices just made me calmer and it reminded me to change my flight!! My dad said about the invoice and receipt I could just get another copy from the GP. Haha...so out I went to the city, first I went to Singapore Airlines to change my flight. As I finish my exams on the 21st of November, I wanted a flight 2 or 3 days after that day so that I'd have time to pack my stuff and spend some time with my friends here before going home. In the end I settled for 25th of Nov, which is on a Sunday, so that my dad could fetch me from the airport that night as he finishes work early. So happy after changing my flight, knowing that I'll be going home soon!! Totally forgetting about the invoice and receipt, I headed to the State Library to borrow my requested books. While searching for the books on the shelves, I spotted a book at the corner of my eye!! O.O It was the book I returned!! I flipped through the pages and there it was!! Sitting nicely between the pages, untouched! WOOHOO~ I thanked God that very moment! Miracles do happen! Then, it was lunchtime but I didn't know who to have lunch with, so I sat down on the bench at Rundle Mall, going through contacts on my mobile. In the end I bought McD and had it at J's place. It was a short time, but I had fun spending time with her. Too bad we can't go home together...it's alright...we've planned what to do when we get back!! Be afraid Penang...be very afraid....XD

XOXO,
Me

Embarrassing moment part 2

1st embarrassing moment

OK...it was a Thursday and I had my psychology tutorial at 12pm.

Before tute, I went to print out some stuff at the computer pool...I was being a little paranoid leaving my mobile phone on the computer table while I collected my printed stuff at the printer, so I brought it along.

After sms-ing with P and all, I left my mobile phone by the printer. I didn't even realise that something was missing until a girl came in the computer pool and announced "There's a mobile phone outside by the printer, did anyone here leave it outside?" OMG!! At that very moment, I just wanted to dig a hole in the ground and bury my head in it!!!

What to do right?? I just stood up, looked at the floor while walking towards the printer and mumble thanks under my breath >_<

2nd embarrassing moment

It was 11:55am, on the same day...my friend who was at the same computer pool has already rushed off for tute and so I thought I was late and started rushing as well. After packing my stuff and all, I ran to the tutorial room. As I pushed open the door, I saw the room crowded with unfamiliar faces! I thought I was late...everyone was staring at me.

"Are you really really late or are you really really early?"
I thought she was being extremely sarcastic and I thought she hated people being late so I answered, "Ermm...really really late?"
"In that case, do u mind coming for the next class cause it's pointless for u to come in for just 5 mins?"

At that very moment I realised that I wasn't late...I was early!! She was still conducting the 11-12pm tutorial!!!
It was super embarrassing!!
My friend who had gone off early came and saw the whole episode...haha...The reason I didn't see her waiting outside was she went to the toilet! *smacks forehead*

My life is always full of embarrassing moments...

XOXO,
Me